AskSatanOperator
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I have often felt like a white soul in a mixed body. However, I am not mixed race as a result of interracial marriage, but rather a subrace of Indo-Aryan origin.
At the same time, I do not match the racial profile or appearance of this subrace, and thus, I do not "fit in" with them either.
I have always had a dreamy infatuation with European culture, education, history, architecture, art etc., akin to a sort of unspecified "nostalgia", and still very frequently FORGET that I am not European or white.
I don't know why, but I "identify" with them too strongly, and have 0 feelings towards my supposed race.
Whenever I saw medieval England, and the related occultism, I got a very strong affection for the period, despite never reading much about it before. It's not just an intellectual/mental interest either, but something deep within my soul. Similar to how one can instictually "feel the love of the God's" even before they've fully opened their psychic centres. I just feel it strongly. For no apparent reason. And I had no particular reason to care about it.
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I want to obtain racial clarity. How can I go about doing this?
If I were to find out I was in fact, white, what am I supposed to do with this info? Can I "return" to my race?
This nagging feeling has also made dating impossible, because I feel no connection to this other race (I have not race-mixed). And I'm not sure how to proceed here.
Can I specifically attract someone in the same situation as me?
At the same time, I do not match the racial profile or appearance of this subrace, and thus, I do not "fit in" with them either.
I have always had a dreamy infatuation with European culture, education, history, architecture, art etc., akin to a sort of unspecified "nostalgia", and still very frequently FORGET that I am not European or white.
I don't know why, but I "identify" with them too strongly, and have 0 feelings towards my supposed race.
Whenever I saw medieval England, and the related occultism, I got a very strong affection for the period, despite never reading much about it before. It's not just an intellectual/mental interest either, but something deep within my soul. Similar to how one can instictually "feel the love of the God's" even before they've fully opened their psychic centres. I just feel it strongly. For no apparent reason. And I had no particular reason to care about it.
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I want to obtain racial clarity. How can I go about doing this?
If I were to find out I was in fact, white, what am I supposed to do with this info? Can I "return" to my race?
This nagging feeling has also made dating impossible, because I feel no connection to this other race (I have not race-mixed). And I'm not sure how to proceed here.
Can I specifically attract someone in the same situation as me?