AskSatanOperator
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Hello Brothers and Sisters. I know that similar questions have already been asked, I looked for them and their replies. I still decide to send this because I feel this is still a serious problem for me to handle. I experience unwanted and intrusive thoughts that are offensive towards our Gods, and it makes me feel angry, frustrated, sad and ashamed. It makes spiritual work very hard, because I'm afraid of keep experiencing this and offending the Gods. I'm afraid of praying and trying to talk one on one to Them, because what if it happens during? I always say that I'm extremely sorry and that those thoughts are not mine when they happen, and I know that They understand but it's still hard. I just experienced one earlier which was very bad while I was reading a page about Lady Astarte and a horrible word popped in my head and it left me so speechless that I almost wanted to cry and all I could react with was just repeating "please forgive me" over and over in my head because of how ashamed and guilty I felt for it. I understand it's the enemy attacks. I understand that I do fear offending the Gods and the enemy preys on it. I understand this, but it's so hard to not feel responsible for it when it happens in MY head. I also know one of the solutions is to keep practicing Void Meditation, which admittedly I'm still not very good at. And I also do Aura Cleaning and Protection everyday of course. What else can I do to bring this under control? And most importantly... how do I deal with it while it's still happening? I feel like I'm embarrassing myself in front of the Gods when I feel so guilty and cry for forgiveness for thoughts that I know are NOT mine, but at the same time I can't just ignore them or think they're not offensive. Thank you in advance for the help. Please I really need it.