Question #4568: The messages was truly from my GD or it was something else?

[AskSatanOperator]

I had a tendency to quit and start meditations over and over again in the past because I lacked stability, willpower and self-discipline. I started again and I'm doing my daily meditations without skipping anything and I'm currently able to keep myself afloat. However I kind of cut contact with both Father Satan and my Guardian, due to an experience I had a few months ago. At that time I just started meditating again after a longer period of neglecting spirituality, the meditations felt incredible and I was really satisfied and happy that I was able do to them. After I was done I talked with my GD, in a sense that I focused on them in my mind, and said what I wanted to say (I don't know who my GD is exactly). I received different messages from the Gods before, everything was kept simple in a way I could receive and understand it. That night I was talking to my GD, and said how good the meditations felt, and how happy I was to be back into spirituality. I didn't really had any topics at hand I wanted to talk about and I contacted my GD on an impulse rather than thinking it through. Suddenly, I had a really strong "thought", which said something similar along the lines of "You shouldn't contact me without any important topics at hand, or bother me with things I otherwise know". It wasn't exactly a thought, as it was completely non-verbal, like communication without any words. I understood and felt what they meant completely in a split second, all of it without any words spoken. It was kind of abstract, and hard to describe correctly. At another time I had the same kind of strong, non-verbal thought pop up in my mind after meditating, and it said "You shouldn't feel so happy about meditating, it doesn't matter because you'II fail again." This made me feel kind of bad again, but I can understand that it's a harsh but true statement considering my past. I also understood that I really shouldn't talk to my GD unless I have important things to say, but I felt really alone and lonely because of this. I don't have friends or people who are dear to me, so I frequently talked to my GD and Father when I felt lonely. I didn't talked to them ever since because I feel like I don't have any important things to say. I also wondered if my experience was legit or it was something that my mind just made up. I lack the experience so I can't really tell.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

This is certainly an enemy attack. Why would any being of Satan, especially your own GD, say this to you? Your GD is your partner; even if they were busy, they wouldn't shout at you or give negative prophecy (clear enemy indicator).

You yourself describe the outcome of this (that you feel bad and lonely). Does that sound like a successful result that a Divine being would produce, as far as managing a human, or does it sound more like the outcome of a enemy who wants to crush your spirit? Further, crushing your motivation to meditate is again just an attack to try to dissuade you. The happiness you feel is true and valid; the result of a successful action to improve your soul.

Communication with the Gods is important. Even if you don't have anything to say, you can just meditate on their sigil and build a connection that way.

Regarding discipline, this is something you build through training your resistance, and through energies that pertain to this, like the Nauthiz rune. You will build this over time, and you can accelerate building discipline through working with this rune on a Capricorn or even Virgo or Taurus Moon.

 

[SaqqaraNox]

He was not your guardian demon; a god would never say such a sentence.

Most likely you have suffered some kind of psychic intrusion from the enemy; events of this kind have particularly intensified during this period.

Their purpose is to get you away from your G-d. You need to do exactly the opposite: keep contacting him, if only to convey your thoughts to him. Also because if you really bore him, it would be enough for him to shut down communication with you rather than tell you those sentences. Which is not in any way true anyway, as those thoughts are the work of the enemy.

 

[Hellenic SS]

An RTR a day keeps the jew away.

 

[Recycler1337]

100% enemy attack.

In the beginning I had nightmares when I was trying to communicate, and I even started to fear if I had an enemy soul. But with the help and support of the gods, I don't doubt it anymore.)

Yes our gods can and will be very busy, but you won't get such rude and desperate answers from them.