Question #4122: URGENT PLEASE HELP!! I DONT KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO...

[AskSatanOperator]

What can I do about my anxiety about people? I'm quite withdrawn, I can't relax. When I speak in front of people and they look at me, I blush and find it hard to speak because I get embarrassed and feel like I'm running away. There was one thing that changed me before. A group of several people stopped me in the street and behaved rudely, almost turned into a fight, etc. Since then I have become anxious when I see groups of several people.This has been going on for years. During this time I have developed anxiety, depression, paranoia, OCD. I have been living with anxiety, depression, mood swings for years. I can't remember the last time I was happy.

I smoke a lot, a lot, and I smoke very strong cigarettes. I used to have blood in my sputum, now it's harder to breathe and I have a heavy feeling in my chest.

I'm SS for many years, I've improved a lot in that time, I always learning, but I still haven't been able to solve this problem. And I haven't stopped smoking because I don't want to.

I would rather choose suicide than continue my life like this, or start drinking lot of alcohol. I am also bothered by what other people think of me.

Any kind of works? Rune, freeing work? Or anything?

 

[HPS Lydia]

Stop smoking (or at least drastically reduce it). You deserve better. Sister Shivafr has linked in her signature a book to help people stop smoking.

Work on cleaning and empowering your chakras. When Sun enters Aries next month, you can do its square to empower your Solar, or program it for self-confidence. This will help remove the anxiety.

You can solve ALL of the issues you mentioned, just by meditating and working on your chakras. You can live a much more enjoyable life. Don't ever consider suicide, this life is beautiful once you overcome a few obstacles

Being confronted by some people will not leave such a lasting impact once you build up your confidence and self-assurance

 

[Power of Justice [JG]]

I would add to HPS Lydia's reply to focus on working with fire more than anything. Everything you describe can be explained with having low fire element in your soul. The more fire you have in your soul, the more confident, outgoing, and extroverted you become. Caring what other people think of you is a manifestation of low self-esteem.

Sun squares are a good start, there are upcoming dates for them soon. Work on learning elemental invocation and invoke fire daily.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

What can I do about my anxiety about people? I'm quite withdrawn, I can't relax. When I speak in front of people and they look at me, I blush and find it hard to speak because I get embarrassed and feel like I'm running away. There was one thing that changed me before. A group of several people stopped me in the street and behaved rudely, almost turned into a fight, etc. Since then I have become anxious when I see groups of several people.This has been going on for years. During this time I have developed anxiety, depression, paranoia, OCD. I have been living with anxiety, depression, mood swings for years. I can't remember the last time I was happy.

I smoke a lot, a lot, and I smoke very strong cigarettes. I used to have blood in my sputum, now it's harder to breathe and I have a heavy feeling in my chest.

I'm SS for many years, I've improved a lot in that time, I always learning, but I still haven't been able to solve this problem. And I haven't stopped smoking because I don't want to.

I would rather choose suicide than continue my life like this, or start drinking lot of alcohol. I am also bothered by what other people think of me.

Any kind of works? Rune, freeing work? Or anything?

If you have been an SS for years, then you are fully equipped to handle the problem. There is no need to panic here, especially in regards to considering suicide. Don't destroy or ignore your strong potential here. The situation may feel difficult, and it may take time to fully fix, but you have to at least allow yourself a chance to improve here.

Regarding happiness and fear, here the solar energies will help a lot. I have found this to personally create joy and a desire to project yourself onto others without fear, stimulating more laughter and an optimistic mindset.

Similar to this is the Wunjo rune, which relates to the joy of the Sun, but also the harmony and connection of Laguz. Here is where we find fulfillment and harmony between other people, as well as internally too.

Our mood, while influenced by many parts of the soul, is traditionally ruled by the Moon. Berkano or a Moon Square would help you feel calm, safe, able to control your emotions without them flying out of control, and so on. It may not be as joyful as the yang Sun, but more calming, also able to help with the inflammation caused from smoking, if your affirmation touches on this.

As the moon is in Leo, you could start a working with Wunjo, even adding Sowilo, if you so desire. My suggestion would be to broadly affirm it to improve your happiness in the most positive manner, then let the energy go where it needs to. Let it address anything necessary, whether physical or mental in nature.

Furthermore, you can use acupoints to quickly address your physical concerns. Try Lung 7 for lung problems, as it should help sputum, pain, and heavy feelings in the lungs.

In general, the large intestine 4 point is great for a reduction in stress, as well as removing pathogens from the body. Holding these for 10-15 minutes should help, although modify it as needed, but pay attention to your body.

Good luck, brother or sister.

 

[AristocraticDragon666]

What can I do about my anxiety about people? I'm quite withdrawn, I can't relax. When I speak in front of people and they look at me, I blush and find it hard to speak because I get embarrassed and feel like I'm running away. There was one thing that changed me before. A group of several people stopped me in the street and behaved rudely, almost turned into a fight, etc. Since then I have become anxious when I see groups of several people.This has been going on for years. During this time I have developed anxiety, depression, paranoia, OCD. I have been living with anxiety, depression, mood swings for years. I can't remember the last time I was happy.

I smoke a lot, a lot, and I smoke very strong cigarettes. I used to have blood in my sputum, now it's harder to breathe and I have a heavy feeling in my chest.

I'm SS for many years, I've improved a lot in that time, I always learning, but I still haven't been able to solve this problem. And I haven't stopped smoking because I don't want to.

I would rather choose suicide than continue my life like this, or start drinking lot of alcohol. I am also bothered by what other people think of me.

Any kind of works? Rune, freeing work? Or anything?

As mentioned above, your problem is the lack of Solar energy.

I would add that you need to change your attitude towards other people, you should not worry about what they think of you, namely because:

1. You never know what's in other people's heads;
2. Try to identify the true motives of people's bad behavior towards you (motives that are not related to you, but to them).

There are a lot of bad people in the world.

As I have seen in my life experience, you can communicate with a real killer who has his own semi-criminal business, who served 12 years for murder, but at the same time you see that this person is absolutely normal and adequate when communicating with other people, does not try to mock or mock anyone, while at the same time this man has a wife and children and he loves them and takes care of them.

On the other hand, you see people around you who have not killed anyone and who are not engaged in any crime, but behave towards other people like the last scum, mock timid and kind people (whom they consider weak) , mock and humiliate other people in every possible way, while spreading bad rumors about them and nasty stuff.

In my vision, the murderer whom I described is not a bad person, I see a lot of good and positive things in him, and by the way, his energy is very good, you don't feel any evil next to him, even when he tells how he throws someone off a high-rise building.

On the other hand, I see people who are really evil, who can do so many bad things that you just want them to die a painful death.

 

[SShiva_fr]

Here, my thread on quitting smoking with a link to this very important book.

Quitting smoking, very sore lungs, important Book/ PDF

I have been smoking every day of my life for 30 years. Since Saturday the 11th, I have stopped this addiction, thanks to a great book that was recommended by an SS (alas, I don't remember who), THANK YOU you save my life. I had a bad flu 3 weeks ago, and since then I always have a high fever, a...

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Over 1 year, and I haven't fallen back into this atrocious poison.

Reading this book is very important, but above all do a standard ritual for Father Satan to help you and ask Lord BUER under cover of Father Satan.

Then contact BUER, I can't say enough how this wonderful God has helped me in my goal. Glory to Buer for all eternity.

For emotional healing, also ask Lord VALEFOR, who is so wonderful, to help you choose the best spiritual work.

Our JoS Guardian and HPS Lydia have given you very, very good advice.

Take charge, work on yourself and the Gods will help you achieve your goals.

All the best to you, Brother or Sister.

 

[Aquarius]

One thing that helped me very much with traumas, is meditating on that trauma. Imagine you're there when all of that happened, but instead of feeling the emotions you felt at the time, imagine you're calm and those people can't do anything to you, make it as pleasureful as possible.

 

[Dragonheart666]

Aquarius I like that idea

 

[Trop5]

What is the meaning of owl?It has a symbol in Bohemian Grove.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

What can I do about my anxiety about people? I'm quite withdrawn, I can't relax.

OK, I know I tend to "overfind" traumatized people on here recently, but you show some signs of possible childhood traumas that lies hidden in your subconscious, possibly emerging.
Being over anxious about people is also coming from low energies (as suggested by many people here) but the point is - WHY are those energies low in yourself?
Hidden traumas in your mind are a high energy-draining machine because of internal conflict between different aspects of yourself, coming from childhood traumas that literally split the mind in different personalities (I also personally think this involves high energy thoughtforms attached to one's aura, from repressed emotions).
So, apart from raising energies, it is important to find the reason why energies are wasted and correct it, same as trying to inflate a tire with an hole in it, deflating the tire. You drive with a foot on brake pedal and the other foot on full throttle. Power is wasted.
The hole in the tire or tghe foot on the brake, may be a trauma that your mind removed, as a form of protection (memories can be too harsh to accept, until a person is ready, and they start to come out).

I would personally ask my GD or a Demon if you had heavy traumas in your early life, so you will know IF it's your case or not.
I case positive, working to fix them, will help to overcome consequent fears like social fear, etc.

People with high "surveillance mode" behavior may have suffered emotional scam/blackmail/violence in childhood from a person/parent/relative whom they trusted, so the mind built the idea that anyone is not to be trusted, thus everyone is a danger, thus you can feel constant fear. This drains energies and the immune system, 3rd chakra, etc.

I smoke a lot, a lot, and I smoke very strong cigarettes. I used to have blood in my sputum, now it's harder to breathe and I have a heavy feeling in my chest.

I'm SS for many years, I've improved a lot in that time, I always learning, but I still haven't been able to solve this problem. And I haven't stopped smoking because I don't want to.

I would rather choose suicide than continue my life like this, or start drinking lot of alcohol. I am also bothered by what other people think of me.

I am SS since years too but recently had to face childhood heavy traumas. So I know how it works, at least in my case.

Wondering about suicide, is another sign of internal problems - also the enemy plays on this to push SS to auto-destruction.

If you are here YOU ARE WORTH and the Gods helped you, you know this, so you have a VALUE in their eyes. Suicide is cancelling a value, from this planet. An attacked, spiritually desert, in trouble planet, way deserve a people of high spiritual value like an SS. Depriving our planet of your value, is no good.

Most likely you smoke hard to damage yourself because a part of you is self-destructive and push your subconscious to self-destructive actions. This happens in traumatized people who feel guilty of the bad actions people made to them. This is the opposite, the offender is guilt, not the victim. Damaging yourself as a form of degradation, is what (possibly) happens here.

Caring what other people think of you is a manifestation of low self-esteem.

Thanks for this thought, it is utmost truth and really helps reminding to myself. Many words on here improve the life of SS reading them.