My post may be long as I have so much to say here. I trust this can be of help if you read it all.
I have been extensively and repeatedly abused (not raped, but sexually deceived) since I was a small kid until -teens age. If rape happened to you, I feel deeply sorry for your "fate" as this is a really bad plague - it seems happening to the most decent Soul as a form of jewish created enslavement. The most unfair and horrible treatment, close to physical torture.
I acknowledged this about 2 years ago; since then I started a recovery program, consistent in terns of studies, meditations, actions involved.
The point is: the Gods helped and guided me a lot, they have been very kind. The Gods do not waste time and energies for something that will bring no result, they are very wise so the point is - as they helped me - THERE IS CERTAINLY HOPE and destiny can be changed for the better. This requires efforts and I daily struggle with family karmic forces that want to keep me in this "loop". This force never prevailed, even if, this is honestly a big burden to struggle with.
I developed a knowledge on this topic, so I am always prone to say a word where it can be helpful.
Accepting abuse??? Do you really think you accept abuse as a karmic effect only?
No way, as if you are posting here and you want to escape this, it means you DO NOT consciously accept abuse anymore. So you are already changing your fate, by your actions.
The problem is, there is 99% a "part" of you accepting abuse as a strategy for survival. If you have been raped when you were unable to defend or oppose the abuser, or run away, or call ft help, what could you ever do? You subdued and accepted passively. THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT NOR IT WILL EVER BE YOUR FAULT - this is simply a survival strategy the mind enacts. If you did not fall to the abuses, you most likely would have been killed or seriously injured. Then this part of you (commonly named "internal child" in psychology books) did not make any mistake, simply, it (he?) saved your life accepting and abuse as only form of survival available.
This attitude can be corrected with meditation, Munka, therapy (be careful) and consistent efforts. I know this by direct experience.
Do not think you are doomed to accept any abuse, as you are NOT. Why? Because now you have a different strategy. You can physically oppose an abuser, you consciously refuse abuses, and mostly, you are under Satan's protection! Should you ever be in danger of repeated abuse, what do you think wlll happen to the abuser if you call upon your Guardian Demon for help?
The Gods are very caring and I do no think they would allow abuse to you again. The Demons are free now and they have consistent power.
So you have a choiche, multiple choiches, and accepting abuse is not the only choiche any more.
Rise up!
I found a profound, buried, deep and giant rage after overcoming sense of guilt, weaklness, acceptance, etc. All survivors have this buried rage. If you find it and you will channel it into rituals / RTR against the jews, you will be like a nuclear weapon in the spiritual war. Also this is a good way to vent and elaborate repressed anger. The jews are responsible for rapes on this Planet, not Gentiles. Rape is not part of Gentile culture not it will ever be, it is NOT in our Soul. It is jewish created disease and plague, IT IS A JEWISH FAULT, NOT YOUR FAULT!
Your reaction depend on your Planets and Natal Chart.
Rape may have happened for karmic forces, Natal Chart as well, and also for curses by the jews, coming from past lives.
I read some books on PTSD, abuse (Van der Kolk author offers good insights and seems not too much jewed in his books), this is of help. I read forums on abuse (I don't know if you are male or female, there are specfic forums) WARNING they are chock full of jews, xians, etc. so the only point to read them is acknowledging many people suffered the same rapes, and observe how their mind reacted to this, and understand you re not alone suffering abuse.
By constantly informing yourself and dealing with the consequences of abuse, together with precious and paramount guidance from the Gods, this will slowly drive the mind to understand and develop new patterns to survive the trauma.
Because, yes, we are SURVIVORS as our minds engineered a strategy for survival, that worked. The strong survives, not the weak.
