AskSatanOperator
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So I had this memory i could never get over. Years ago i was sleeping with this white girl and not in a sexual way, just a house party sort of thing because my black friends there who invited me all got white girl friends and for whatever reason. And I am usually on the Hispanic or Latin women growing up although I was fascinated by blond girls early on I suppose it could've been the blond hair. Anyways my black friends all are chilling smoking and eating chicken and watching movies while high so I decided to spend the night that day over there. The friendly white girl offered me a bed for the night, really nice lady also we known each other for years but later on I dunno what she wanted or her intentions for why she did that, I was just getting high from smoke and not drinking or anything. I kinda knew her for some years and she's friendly and cool like her mom. We like each other in a friendly respectful way. But that night when we shared the bed, I felt revolted and a feeling I will never forget, it was like sleeping with a pale alien, even she had a smell. later on the night she started playing with my feet but I couldn't do it so I acted like I was tired and asleep. I pondered on why I viewed her with such disgust.
In jos when i read about race mixing those memories pop up everytime, but idk if it's because she's white, I had nice Latin gf they were kinda pale and I'm medium fair with slight hue. I am not sure if it's because me and the white girl were far away genetically of if she just smelled differently. Black people have a smell, I smell black people but not all of them and with many of my white friends they have a smell as well and it's a different smell from black. And I am not the only one that noticed it. Even a friend I had growing up he was adopted by white family and i think he smells exactly the same
I feel like different species of humans are like far off from others especially Arians and pure breed ones are really like so different and smell differently and act differently as well.
I never slept with a white women before in a sexual way but like I definitely may in the future if I meet a sexey one even being with satan because I'm free too. But I am unsure if this memory may not be resolved it's kinda hauting because I now feel anxiety from sleeping with white girls. It was like I was looking at a meat bag or a human suit even an alien. I thought it maybe because we didn't have like a sensual relationship and instead and with her wanting to jump to sex but I wouldn't know if were all different species and shouldn't be doing sex activities with eachother,
my spider senses was alarming me to stop and not lead anything further. Help me understand what happened and why.
In jos when i read about race mixing those memories pop up everytime, but idk if it's because she's white, I had nice Latin gf they were kinda pale and I'm medium fair with slight hue. I am not sure if it's because me and the white girl were far away genetically of if she just smelled differently. Black people have a smell, I smell black people but not all of them and with many of my white friends they have a smell as well and it's a different smell from black. And I am not the only one that noticed it. Even a friend I had growing up he was adopted by white family and i think he smells exactly the same
I feel like different species of humans are like far off from others especially Arians and pure breed ones are really like so different and smell differently and act differently as well.
I never slept with a white women before in a sexual way but like I definitely may in the future if I meet a sexey one even being with satan because I'm free too. But I am unsure if this memory may not be resolved it's kinda hauting because I now feel anxiety from sleeping with white girls. It was like I was looking at a meat bag or a human suit even an alien. I thought it maybe because we didn't have like a sensual relationship and instead and with her wanting to jump to sex but I wouldn't know if were all different species and shouldn't be doing sex activities with eachother,
my spider senses was alarming me to stop and not lead anything further. Help me understand what happened and why.