Whether you like it or not, it's true and not disrespectful to anyone. You don't have to accept it, just contact Satan and ask him. Many non-Whites have had the same experience. Because Satan is a Nordic alien, that's how he looks like. Here we deal with actual experiences, not wishes.
I've noticed that the only Blacks who have a problem with that are anti-White ones who also falsely believe that the ancient Egyptians and almost everyone else were Blacks and blame Whitey for everything instead for the jews (or other Blacks too, since the first slave owners were Black and treated Black slaves worse than White slave owners did) and instead of working to educate themselves and work and gain money and improve their lives, they accuse those who do that as "acting White". I'm not saying you're surely like that, but there's a high chance that you are. If you are one of those entitled anti-White Blacks, know that your opinion doesn't really matter.
The fact that you capitalize "Black" but not "White" is an indication that you're probably one of them.