AskSatanOperator
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Not sure who will see this but I recently have been struggling with my mental and physical health problems for past months and I started slacking off on meditating and doing yoga. I also started smoking weed again for a couple months because I thought it would help and haven’t really visited the forums much lately. Recently I had a really bad high on Easter and it was really ugly, i don’t know why but I started thinking about the jews and having just unpleasant feelings and images in my head that I don’t normally have nor want, so I quit doing weed and have been sober for several days now.
Anyways for the past few days that experience has still been on my mind wondering what it could have been and I started thinking A LOT about JoS and thinking about my life how it’s not where I want it to be and I realized I want to get it together and better myself and take care of my health more. I also started feeling like maybe Spiritual Satanism isn’t for me anymore and I should take a break from or Undedicate my soul?
The reason for this is because I just feel like I need to devote all my time and energy right now into taking better care of my health and making more money to change my situation and focusing more on my family and Gf I have now and I feel doing Spiritual warfare, it’s just too much for me right now.
But I guess what I need help or advice with is what should I do?? Please no mean or rude comments
Anyways for the past few days that experience has still been on my mind wondering what it could have been and I started thinking A LOT about JoS and thinking about my life how it’s not where I want it to be and I realized I want to get it together and better myself and take care of my health more. I also started feeling like maybe Spiritual Satanism isn’t for me anymore and I should take a break from or Undedicate my soul?
The reason for this is because I just feel like I need to devote all my time and energy right now into taking better care of my health and making more money to change my situation and focusing more on my family and Gf I have now and I feel doing Spiritual warfare, it’s just too much for me right now.
But I guess what I need help or advice with is what should I do?? Please no mean or rude comments