WhiteBoiSamedi
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- Jan 4, 2025
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- 8
-am homeless due to getting cursed to Hell and back by her for going back to my dad because he told me he had a spiritual awakening
-he turned insane and awful due to her and previous magicks she placed on him and I lost all my money getting away and pain relieving (went to him to heal from shit mom did to my head the first place)
-when I called her out for controlling me with magick behind my back as a kid and during my teenhood, she called social workers on me to damn near get involuntarily committed to a mental health facility like a fucking coward) and likely layered on more magicks to protect her feelz
-in the hospital right now after getting assaulted in the street (second time now) and I feel her energy all over it
-have lots of magick on me that controls my emotions and makes me unable to heal, grow as a person without MASSIVE spiritual resistance or out-of-character ego pain or getting hurt for it or being near anger and violence
-24/7 intrusive thoughts about apologizing to her even though I really despise her and actively want her to die
-have my magick actively turned against me and backfiring, EVEN SO MUCH AS JUST HEALING OR DEFENDING MYSELF
-have other people who have been after me for a myriad of other reasons related to angels she refuses to stop worshipping attempting to get me killed
-angels have actively taken my energy and attacked powerful groups in my name without my permission to get me attacked, cursed, and vilified without any of my own input
-have Xian cultists constantly praying against me because I had a run-in with them and someone who defected because of their insanity
-gotten severely attacked by anti-cosmic Satanists a lot because I had a phase with them early in my journey
-already pissed off globohomo by attacking the shit out of them (more effectively than I may have realized due to Satan and His Demons direction and instructing me and adding their energy to mine, my soul has a lot of importance and power it seems) so I'm currently dealing with them but am almost defenseless because of mother
-constantly forced to forget about Saranism and have to actively fight pro-Jesus intrusive thoughts constantly
-mom knows I do RTR's and really hates and hexes/curses/binds me down for it (her anger is deep on my heart chakra and it feels like cold and emptiness to send a message that I'm coldhearted and stupid)
-dad has been using spiritual methods I taught him back when we were cool as well to get revenge on me for not helping him get laid (he aint slick, he'll say it's other reasons), playing dumb like he suddenly doesn't believe any of it when it is convenient for him
My mother has poppets that stop me from feeling anything negative about her or talking about her without getting accosted and attacked. Even typing this I just had an archangel astrally slap me. She took massive and heavy (and ruthlessly effective) anti-angel magicks and used them against me to "show me how it feels" with heavy intent to force apologies out of me. I have been doing God rituals but the curses from so many people are layered on so thick that it feels like it's barely chipping away at what I'm dealing with.
What can I do other than God rituals? I feel like I'm going insane and attempts to defend myself get me hurt almost every time. I'm genuinely fearing death right now and have been.
-he turned insane and awful due to her and previous magicks she placed on him and I lost all my money getting away and pain relieving (went to him to heal from shit mom did to my head the first place)
-when I called her out for controlling me with magick behind my back as a kid and during my teenhood, she called social workers on me to damn near get involuntarily committed to a mental health facility like a fucking coward) and likely layered on more magicks to protect her feelz
-in the hospital right now after getting assaulted in the street (second time now) and I feel her energy all over it
-have lots of magick on me that controls my emotions and makes me unable to heal, grow as a person without MASSIVE spiritual resistance or out-of-character ego pain or getting hurt for it or being near anger and violence
-24/7 intrusive thoughts about apologizing to her even though I really despise her and actively want her to die
-have my magick actively turned against me and backfiring, EVEN SO MUCH AS JUST HEALING OR DEFENDING MYSELF
-have other people who have been after me for a myriad of other reasons related to angels she refuses to stop worshipping attempting to get me killed
-angels have actively taken my energy and attacked powerful groups in my name without my permission to get me attacked, cursed, and vilified without any of my own input
-have Xian cultists constantly praying against me because I had a run-in with them and someone who defected because of their insanity
-gotten severely attacked by anti-cosmic Satanists a lot because I had a phase with them early in my journey
-already pissed off globohomo by attacking the shit out of them (more effectively than I may have realized due to Satan and His Demons direction and instructing me and adding their energy to mine, my soul has a lot of importance and power it seems) so I'm currently dealing with them but am almost defenseless because of mother
-constantly forced to forget about Saranism and have to actively fight pro-Jesus intrusive thoughts constantly
-mom knows I do RTR's and really hates and hexes/curses/binds me down for it (her anger is deep on my heart chakra and it feels like cold and emptiness to send a message that I'm coldhearted and stupid)
-dad has been using spiritual methods I taught him back when we were cool as well to get revenge on me for not helping him get laid (he aint slick, he'll say it's other reasons), playing dumb like he suddenly doesn't believe any of it when it is convenient for him
My mother has poppets that stop me from feeling anything negative about her or talking about her without getting accosted and attacked. Even typing this I just had an archangel astrally slap me. She took massive and heavy (and ruthlessly effective) anti-angel magicks and used them against me to "show me how it feels" with heavy intent to force apologies out of me. I have been doing God rituals but the curses from so many people are layered on so thick that it feels like it's barely chipping away at what I'm dealing with.
What can I do other than God rituals? I feel like I'm going insane and attempts to defend myself get me hurt almost every time. I'm genuinely fearing death right now and have been.
