Everyone is individual and comes to Satanism at different levels. Patience, persistence, and practice here is a necessity. For some and for most 5 days is no where near enough to feel their presence quite yet. This takes months or in some cases years, but in the end its totally worth the effort. You will be on a much higher plane than those around you, and while others are tearing their hair out and blaming everyone else over how hard their life is, you will be remaining calm, cool, and collected in the most demanding and treacherous circumstances. When you are ready your guardian and Satan will reveal himself to you provided that they aren't busy and have the time to do it. Remember that we are still at war and the Gods are busy. I haven't even seen so much as a shadow in the corner of my room yet. I can feel their presence when they are around but I can't hear their voice or see them yet. You gotta keep empowering yourself, and keep consistent in your meditation routine. These feelings of impatience and sadness you feel are most of the time the enemy trying to put you down. Whenever you feel down or discouraged, just remember that it's they enemy doing it and this is what they want. They will do whatever they can to stop you, and if they can't stop you they will do whatever they can to slow you down. They are seriously relentless and never know when to stop. We as Spiritual Satanists must do the same in our meditations and keep our chins up and our heads high in the face of this oppression as Father Satan and the Gods did the same for us when we were to be destroyed after the mining project was completed. Hail Satan!!
