Please, I would appreciate any advice possible.

[Malorú Martínez]

I really need help A while ago it happened that a bat got into my house. A long time ago I had spoken with Belial about whether he could give me a spiritual pet to help me, I am very far from having my chakras or soul advanced (although in the visualization my aura looks brighter than that of my neighbors, I don't feel any significant effect on my progress), and since I didn't receive any animals I gave up and didn't fulfill my "part of the deal" (art) until recently, when this little animal arrived. From there, I went into a trance and requested that Belial come to me to make sure what it was. I asked him

-"Mr. Belial, did you send this animal to me or what?"

-"Yes..." - he told me in a doubtful way

-"Is this animal for me?"

-"yes... But be careful"

-"Why should I be careful about something my God sent me?" - and I started to question why I should be careful It should be noted that lately I have been very depressed, frustrated and nervous. A lot of things have happened to me and I still can't calm down well, so my mind is a mess and it's very difficult for me to concentrate even though I've been meditating every day without fail for months on emptiness meditation. I feel like I'm not making any progress...

After insisting for a while and questioning him because yes, we had stopped being in my astral temple and were now in the middle of the street (I don't know when that had happened, it had taken me by surprise), when Belial told me "This animal I send it, be careful with your neck, I'm in the whisper" and he left. I didn't understand that last bit about "be careful with your neck, I'm in the whisper", but I overlooked it (I still don't understand). It should be noted that the same day the bat arrived, my sister's cat disappeared, and just the night after having gotten rid of the bat, the little cat returned. I had been very excited about this bat, although I was a little afraid (something natural in everyone I think) and so that day I fulfilled my part of what I had promised for the spiritual pet. On the 3rd day I tried to get it out by myself, but I was afraid that it would bite me, what Belial had told me was ringing in the back of my head. I didn't want to tell my parents about the bat, since they would kill it, and I didn't want that to happen since it had been sent by the Gods, hadn't it? In the end I gave up and called my parents, who killed him.

I felt super disappointed, had Belial lied to me? Or was it the disorder in my head that had made me imagine things that are not? How should I know? After that, the day came when my 40-day aura programming ended. I consulted with a trusted God (it's not my GD, it's just the first God I contacted. Aim/Aini/Harborym) and he told me that the programming was going to work, that I shouldn't worry that it would just be early in the morning. what was desired was going to be achieved. Obviously this did not happen, otherwise I would not be here looking for an explanation and words of encouragement. Since that day I feel very discouraged. I want to say that I have not contacted any God again and I have not received any "sign" either. I continue to meditate and do my daily work, and deep down I still believe that the Gods exist but I wonder, do they really want good for us, do we really matter? I know that a God is not going to be there for me whenever I ask for him, but lying to me? What if he didn't lie to me? And was it actually part of the stress of my imagination? What should I do? I want to feel connected to the Gods, but I don't feel like they care (if they exist). I don't know what to believe anymore, I left the Christian church because it sucks there and they forced me to be in that place since I was born. I came here for universal truth but I feel disappointed. Yes, I have made some "deals" with the Gods before and they have been fulfilled, but it could also be a coincidence because they were things like "help me pass this exam" or "will this thing happen, yes or no?"

And it makes me feel frustrated.

Thanks for reading, I would really like several people to give me perspective or advice, since many times only one person responds and I can only stick with that version. Sorry for my English, I used the translator

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I really need help A while ago it happened that a bat got into my house. A long time ago I had spoken with Belial about whether he could give me a spiritual pet to help me, I am very far from having my chakras or soul advanced (although in the visualization my aura looks brighter than that of my neighbors, I don't feel any significant effect on my progress), and since I didn't receive any animals I gave up and didn't fulfill my "part of the deal" (art) until recently, when this little animal arrived. From there, I went into a trance and requested that Belial come to me to make sure what it was. I asked him

-"Mr. Belial, did you send this animal to me or what?"

-"Yes..." - he told me in a doubtful way

-"Is this animal for me?"

-"yes... But be careful"

-"Why should I be careful about something my God sent me?" - and I started to question why I should be careful It should be noted that lately I have been very depressed, frustrated and nervous. A lot of things have happened to me and I still can't calm down well, so my mind is a mess and it's very difficult for me to concentrate even though I've been meditating every day without fail for months on emptiness meditation. I feel like I'm not making any progress...

After insisting for a while and questioning him because yes, we had stopped being in my astral temple and were now in the middle of the street (I don't know when that had happened, it had taken me by surprise), when Belial told me "This animal I send it, be careful with your neck, I'm in the whisper" and he left. I didn't understand that last bit about "be careful with your neck, I'm in the whisper", but I overlooked it (I still don't understand). It should be noted that the same day the bat arrived, my sister's cat disappeared, and just the night after having gotten rid of the bat, the little cat returned. I had been very excited about this bat, although I was a little afraid (something natural in everyone I think) and so that day I fulfilled my part of what I had promised for the spiritual pet. On the 3rd day I tried to get it out by myself, but I was afraid that it would bite me, what Belial had told me was ringing in the back of my head. I didn't want to tell my parents about the bat, since they would kill it, and I didn't want that to happen since it had been sent by the Gods, hadn't it? In the end I gave up and called my parents, who killed him.

I felt super disappointed, had Belial lied to me? Or was it the disorder in my head that had made me imagine things that are not? How should I know? After that, the day came when my 40-day aura programming ended. I consulted with a trusted God (it's not my GD, it's just the first God I contacted. Aim/Aini/Harborym) and he told me that the programming was going to work, that I shouldn't worry that it would just be early in the morning. what was desired was going to be achieved. Obviously this did not happen, otherwise I would not be here looking for an explanation and words of encouragement. Since that day I feel very discouraged. I want to say that I have not contacted any God again and I have not received any "sign" either. I continue to meditate and do my daily work, and deep down I still believe that the Gods exist but I wonder, do they really want good for us, do we really matter? I know that a God is not going to be there for me whenever I ask for him, but lying to me? What if he didn't lie to me? And was it actually part of the stress of my imagination? What should I do? I want to feel connected to the Gods, but I don't feel like they care (if they exist). I don't know what to believe anymore, I left the Christian church because it sucks there and they forced me to be in that place since I was born. I came here for universal truth but I feel disappointed. Yes, I have made some "deals" with the Gods before and they have been fulfilled, but it could also be a coincidence because they were things like "help me pass this exam" or "will this thing happen, yes or no?"

And it makes me feel frustrated.

Thanks for reading, I would really like several people to give me perspective or advice, since many times only one person responds and I can only stick with that version. Sorry for my English, I used the translator

When your mind feels disordered it is best to try to calm it before making irrational judgements with it. I have been there myself in my own way and it can feel like continuous thinking will yield an answer, but in reality the cause of disorder can exist externally to this (such as uncontrolled emotions or potential for delusions). Therefore, you should first try to solve this, such as by calming yourself before trying to analyze the situation again.

Also, try to focus on "grounded" statements. For example, Belial or other Gods would not lie or trick you for exactly the reason shown in your case, which is that it causes confusion or mistrust during trying circumstances. Further, it is also more likely that on your end will be the limit to any communications or any other abilities here, not on the Gods. So it would be best to dispel any errant beliefs using these grounded statements, because they are more likely to be true.

It is also possible that you had prior karma pertaining to trust or connection with others that is now getting "placed" onto the Gods. I say this because your perception of the situation is on the extreme end given the circumstances. Jumping to doubts about the person themselves (Belial) or even yourself, just due to what appears as miscommunications on your end, can suggest underlying and pre-existing doubts, rather than ones appropriate for this situation itself.

Further, feeling negatively about Belial can deter from your motivation to interact with him, yet further interaction (like simply meditating on his sigil) would actually strengthen communication, rather than hinder it. Feeling discouraged from others actions would also be the wrong course of action for this same reason, especially if the situation is not yet fully resolved.

It would be better to calm and regulate yourself. Misunderstandings and confusion can happen, but these don't fully ruin our relationships. Does it seem reasonable that an error on your end suddenly means Belial does not like you as much? You did not think this prior to this negative circumstance, so why now?

Further, do you care about Belial if you immediately accuse him of lying when something goes wrong? I know you are already stressed, but I must point this out just so you can have a realistic assessment of the interaction. You say he thinks negatively of you, but you are also not guarding the mental image of him in your head, instead you are devaluing him as a result of what happened. Does that sound fair or right to you?

It is like if I tried to call your phone, but yours is 20 years old and drops the call. Instead of understanding how the mistake could have been on your end, you instead think I intentionally did this somehow. Belial was also willing to communicate with you, even knowing about the potential for this to occur. He could have said "I don't want to talk because he may accuse me of something due to his own error", but this was not the case and he was still willing to try. All of this should be considered when your mind wanders to dangerous thoughts that can compromise otherwise life-changing relationships.

 

[Malorú Martínez]

When your mind feels disordered it is best to try to calm it before making irrational judgements with it. I have been there myself in my own way and it can feel like continuous thinking will yield an answer, but in reality the cause of disorder can exist externally to this (such as uncontrolled emotions or potential for delusions). Therefore, you should first try to solve this, such as by calming yourself before trying to analyze the situation again.

Also, try to focus on "grounded" statements. For example, Belial or other Gods would not lie or trick you for exactly the reason shown in your case, which is that it causes confusion or mistrust during trying circumstances. Further, it is also more likely that on your end will be the limit to any communications or any other abilities here, not on the Gods. So it would be best to dispel any errant beliefs using these grounded statements, because they are more likely to be true.

It is also possible that you had prior karma pertaining to trust or connection with others that is now getting "placed" onto the Gods. I say this because your perception of the situation is on the extreme end given the circumstances. Jumping to doubts about the person themselves (Belial) or even yourself, just due to what appears as miscommunications on your end, can suggest underlying and pre-existing doubts, rather than ones appropriate for this situation itself.

Further, feeling negatively about Belial can deter from your motivation to interact with him, yet further interaction (like simply meditating on his sigil) would actually strengthen communication, rather than hinder it. Feeling discouraged from others actions would also be the wrong course of action for this same reason, especially if the situation is not yet fully resolved.

It would be better to calm and regulate yourself. Misunderstandings and confusion can happen, but these don't fully ruin our relationships. Does it seem reasonable that an error on your end suddenly means Belial does not like you as much? You did not think this prior to this negative circumstance, so why now?

Further, do you care about Belial if you immediately accuse him of lying when something goes wrong? I know you are already stressed, but I must point this out just so you can have a realistic assessment of the interaction. You say he thinks negatively of you, but you are also not guarding the mental image of him in your head, instead you are devaluing him as a result of what happened. Does that sound fair or right to you?

It is like if I tried to call your phone, but yours is 20 years old and drops the call. Instead of understanding how the mistake could have been on your end, you instead think I intentionally did this somehow. Belial was also willing to communicate with you, even knowing about the potential for this to occur. He could have said "I don't want to talk because he may accuse me of something due to his own error", but this was not the case and he was still willing to try. All of this should be considered when your mind wanders to dangerous thoughts that can compromise otherwise life-changing relationships.

Thank you for giving me a new point of view. The truth is that I could have simply thrown in the towel, but it feels so good here. I was very discouraged by the incident and decided to give myself some time to think about it and consult with someone who has more experience. I hadn't seen it from that point of view and thank you for giving me another perspective.