seeker_seeks
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- Mar 28, 2004
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at first i thought i was just going through lifes ups and downs but now i see that there is something terribly spiritual about all the things i am experiencing.my whole family is xian and i am the only one who isnt,but they dont pose problems to me in anyway with their kike bulshit.but it seems like my whole family is under attack.every time any of us tries to work at something,for some strange reason it doesnt work out,i am one person who is very positive(interms of mindset)i think positively,am very hard working and ambitious and take every step in life with positive expectations,but there seems to be something blocking my success,i broke down and cried out to father Satan,told him i am tired because this has been going on for too many years now and like i said,i thought it was just the normal cycle of life for me to experience all the things im experiencing,but i thought about it yesterday and realised that i am being attacked,i m not gona go into too much detail but ive experienced near death five times,my first near death experience was at the age of 6 when some force or being pushed me off the bed,i hit the ground soo hard i went subconcious and was found foaming at the mouth by ma dad,then the other hit me at the age 15,i was thrown into a swimming pull(i walked to the deep end of the pool,but i didnt do it willingly coz i couldnt swim theres noway i would have purposefully thrown myself at the deep end)i fought for ma life under water but for some reason no matter how hard i screamed,nobody could hear me yet i was surrounded by more than 100 people,some in the pool with me.then at some point while drivin.Then at one time i was eatin a sausage and driving and it suddenly got stuck on ma throat and i couldnt swallow,i started chockin to death while the car was still movin,ma whole body shut down to the point where i couldnt feel anything,just to name a few.Last of last year i befriended a girl who i later found out was sent to kill me,this was revealed to me by my bestfriend,then when i confronted the so called sent to kill me girl,she said,she was it wasent her tht was sent,but my so called friend who revealed such and that she was lying.I then later found out that they were both sent to get rid of me(death)and where on the same side,just in competition to get it done first.i went over everything ive experience and am experiencing until recently when i attempted to go on tour twice and they both flopped and each and every artist i was with commented on how there seems to be a hidden force blocking both tours,yet the money that was going to come out of the tours was money tht i really needed/desperately for my school fees next semester and food in the house because for some strange reason my dad;s payments get so blocked and delayed we sometimes stay hungry.i dont know what to do..there are forces at work in my family,i sometimes see shadows and at the blink of an eye they/it dissappears.how do i clean up my life,if cleaning is required or which one of the Demons should i call upon,,help please,the enemy keeps lying and whispering lies e ma head that my me being Satanist is the reason behind our suffering..at the moment i have a girlfriend who i strongly believ is a messenger from the enemy,she is very judgemental of my work in a negative way and each time i try to get some work done she tries everything in her power to stop me with disturbances,suggestive psychology(lets go out for dinner its on me,type)at itimes the reverse type(you dont spend time with me)yet i am with her all the time,live with her and all..and when i have plans and reveal the plans to her they fail,but when i dont they work out,i then decided to stop telling her my plans and suddenly when shes not at my house she calls just to ask me what my plans and what i am working on instead of being concern how i am.ive tried to explain this as best as possible,i tried to keep it short but i wont get any help without going into details.please advise me or help me,for those of you who are close to Father Satan,if there is a way for you for consult him on my behalf on what i should do.please help me,i am falling apart.ive been strong for too long until whatever this entity that is attacking ma family decided to kill my older sister and my younger brother suddenly lost it,he went mad after that.please help..if i have to share my personal email address for direct contact,i am willing to,please help me,anyone.