Overcoming Esoteric Fear

[GoldenRatio]

Hi guys. I've put my question at the top of this post. My story plus some ramblings about my fears are after that. Read that if you want more context on who I am and what I'm thinking, but it isn't necessary for answering the question.

Question-
Spirituality and esotericism is obscure. Unlike materialism, it has no definite rules, nor do we really know what the long-lasting impacts our decisions in this life have on our soul. Sure, we have some abstract idea from old spiritual texts, but those are uncertain. Given this, how do you guys overcome the fear of uncertainty of the esoteric and spiritual realms? And more to the point, how do you guys gain enough certainty to make a irreversible blood commitment to 'Satan' who is deemed evil by the most powerful spiritual institutions in the world?


Me-
When I discovered this website back in June, it was intriguing yet scary. I was raised secular, but did dabble in some religious prayer during a low time in my life. Even before coming here, I was always apprehensive about the Abrahamic religions. I'm a white Muslim ethnically from the Balkans and Christianity/Islam always felt like foreign religions imposed upon us. I could never shake that feeling and gravitated to paganism because it felt more like... home? It felt more true to my ethnic heritage. The problem is that truth is backed by power. Math has truth because it produces real results, real power. The fact is, the Abrahamic religions took over Europe and paganism worship is minimal which gives the Abrahamic religions a strong claim to truth. So I was left without a spiritual connection at all. I did dabble in praying to Allah for about six months, but it made me feel weak, powerless and dependent. I did get positive material results, but they were at the expense of my individuality and empowerment. I also started reading the Quran but stopped halfway because I didn't feel spiritually connected to it and it seemed silly to me. "This happened, Allah thought it was bad so he punished them. This happened, Allah thought it was good so he blessed them. Praise Allah.' Very boring and written to drive obedience into the reader.

The website name change is, in my opinion, a fantastic change. Linguistics is complicated and can be subversive. When I first came across this website, I was afraid, and still am to a certain extent, that it was Satan's, the Lord of Darkness, attempt to corrupt souls through the appearance of goodness, like a beautiful poisoned apple. This fear of mine was supported by the insistence of the use of the name 'Satan' as it plays directly into the Jewish spiritual paradigm. And if not properly adjusted for, can cause confusion between logic and emotion. For example, in America, the word 'racism' has negative connotations. There is a segment of the population that is attempting to change the definition of the word while retaining its negative connotations. In that way, I was afraid that the same thing was happening here where, by playing into the Jewish paradigm and embracing the name 'Satan', the evil connotations of 'Satan' were being retained subconsciously during worship. And if words have power as many esoteric sources suggest, then using the name 'Satan' is potentially spiritually equivalent to calling upon evil. Also, black people call each other 'nigga' as a way to claim the word 'nigger', but all it does is give the word more power and it still retains it's negative potency. My understanding of all this is limited, but these are my fears and thoughts about it. I'm much more willing to pray to Lord Zeus (Zefs) then I am to Satan.

 

[Henu the Great]

And more to the point, how do you guys gain enough certainty to make a irreversible blood commitment to 'Satan' who is deemed evil by the most powerful spiritual institutions in the world?

By experiencing first hand that what the masses think and do is a fools errand, it becomes quite evident that the opposite direction, or 'the narrow path' (or whatever) is actually the real deal. And thus, what have you got to lose in a such a position where only lies are behind you? So, it comes a lot down to the overall experience, not just during this lifetime either, but for many of us for longer than that.

For those less experienced, the proof is in the pudding. Trying what ToZ has to offer regarding meditation alone is enough Truth because the effects are undeniable even if hard to grasp at first. Then there's more content that is Truthful, of course.

Lastly, considering that a simple naughty thought (or insert any action you want to excert control over a massive population, because the massive institutions you refer to are population control mechanisms) leads to endless torment versus be a better person than yesterday is another compelling point about this Path and it's superiority during this chaotic era.

 

[Seeker in the Dark]

Just look around you. What have the "most powerful spiritual institutions" done for the people who follow their dictates? They've only brought poverty and misery to the majority, along with obedience to a silent, dead "god".

Satan/Zeus, the "bad guy", is actually there for us. We can feel Him. He brings us peace, comfort and has indeed helped many people, and saved many lives too.

Zeus has also been there for far longer through many names than any form of "yahweh", whose myths and titles are stolen from Zeus. "Yahweh" is a cardboard cutout version of Zeus, he's not even a real God.

Inana died and rose from the dead after three days thousands of years before "jesus" came along, now her story, like jesus, was a myth, a spiritual allegory for inner spiritual alchemy. 3 signifies the 3 main stages of alchemy I believe. Inanna however is a real Goddess and like Zeus is truly there for us. The only thing you'll get out of jeebus is an unfalsifiable promise of a good afterlife whilst jeebus himself says you'll suffer in this life and he'll do nothing to help you, in fact calling for you to die for him and live a life of sexless poverty cause this world and everything in it is "evil".

The Gods tell us to live, to thrive. We're basically the only real pro-life religion out there. All other "religions" are either atheist LARPS or anti-life religions that teach slavery and promote self-hate as a virtue.