Not a confession just being honest

[Darkwanderer80]

Greetings friends, I have some thoughts to share, I think maybe you can help me understand some things, I have been very well treated since I returned to Jos you guys have been great explaining things I don't understand and clearing my doubts for that I thank you, I'm still very much a novice with much to learn regarding Jos and learn about myself, you guys describe satan as benevolent God loving wise trughtful honest and blazing with light I'm ok with that , but regarding myself I'm a somewhat different individual than most people around me, I work a full time job, pay my taxes I'm a husband a father all normal, the diference is that i am a bit of a introvert/slightly anti social person , maybe because today's society is greatly rooten,I have a rather dark sense of humor, I like bad weather rain thunder storms desolate places I feel a great attraction/affinity towards dark things darkness the void death chaos macabre and many times I feel this wild nearly uncontrollable rage and hatred, I'm certainly not a criminal nor a serial killer or something of the sort I also have good fellings of love and kindness, am I broken by past experiences? Is this normal? does anyone else feel like this? as a Satanist how do I deal with such dark feelings and thoughts? thank you for your patience and time.

Hail Satan.

 

[Henu the Great]

You are what you are. Do you think that others are not interested in similar topics just because we are pro life? Think again. Those interests are largely explained by your natal chart. Then there is the possibility of programming / conditioning which will diminish and be removed as you advance brining your true interests to the surface. Now, I am not saying what you have brought up are not your true interests, but generally speaking stating a possibility for each individual.

 

[Darkwanderer80]

You are what you are. Do you think that others are not interested in similar topics just because we are pro life? Think again. Those interests are largely explained by your natal chart. Then there is the possibility of programming / conditioning which will diminish and be removed as you advance brining your true interests to the surface. Now, I am not saying what you have brought up are not your true interests, but generally speaking stating a possibility for each individual.

Yes I am what I am but how does my nature so dark as it is come together with satans nature so beautiful and perfect? I seem to be the opposite of satan

 

[Aquarius]

I likes those kind of things too when I was yet to dedicate, but it just came to pass after a while of cleaning and meditation. Don't worry about thoughts that you perceive negatively, just let them pass and don't give them too much thought, in time they will disappear.

 

[Henu the Great]

Yes I am what I am but how does my nature so dark as it is come together with satans nature so beautiful and perfect? I seem to be the opposite of satan

Keep advancing and you'll be a perfected being one day too.

 

[DarkPagan666]

Greetings friends, I have some thoughts to share, I think maybe you can help me understand some things, I have been very well treated since I returned to Jos you guys have been great explaining things I don't understand and clearing my doubts for that I thank you, I'm still very much a novice with much to learn regarding Jos and learn about myself, you guys describe satan as benevolent God loving wise trughtful honest and blazing with light I'm ok with that , but regarding myself I'm a somewhat different individual than most people around me, I work a full time job, pay my taxes I'm a husband a father all normal, the diference is that i am a bit of a introvert/slightly anti social person , maybe because today's society is greatly rooten,I have a rather dark sense of humor, I like bad weather rain thunder storms desolate places I feel a great attraction/affinity towards dark things darkness the void death chaos macabre and many times I feel this wild nearly uncontrollable rage and hatred, I'm certainly not a criminal nor a serial killer or something of the sort I also have good fellings of love and kindness, am I broken by past experiences? Is this normal? does anyone else feel like this? as a Satanist how do I deal with such dark feelings and thoughts? thank you for your patience and time.

Hail Satan.

There is nothing wrong with liking rain, thunder, storms or bad weather. Personally, I love storms, as it gives a sense of mood and atmosphere that is cozy, inspiring and a touch of excitement. Dark sense of humor can come from a Mercury/Saturn contact in your natal chart for an example. It is nothing wrong with that. Some have it in their nature to be somewhat intrigued by the dark side of things.

The difference is that the negative's conditioned upon us will be weeded out as we grow and advance through power meditation. If there are certain things that is harmful to us or not actually of us, it will be removed in time as we will outgrow it.

We are all individuals and this is respected.

 

[Shadowcat]

Greetings friends, I have some thoughts to share, I think maybe you can help me understand some things, I have been very well treated since I returned to Jos you guys have been great explaining things I don't understand and clearing my doubts for that I thank you, I'm still very much a novice with much to learn regarding Jos and learn about myself, you guys describe satan as benevolent God loving wise trughtful honest and blazing with light I'm ok with that , but regarding myself I'm a somewhat different individual than most people around me, I work a full time job, pay my taxes I'm a husband a father all normal, the diference is that i am a bit of a introvert/slightly anti social person , maybe because today's society is greatly rooten,I have a rather dark sense of humor, I like bad weather rain thunder storms desolate places I feel a great attraction/affinity towards dark things darkness the void death chaos macabre and many times I feel this wild nearly uncontrollable rage and hatred, I'm certainly not a criminal nor a serial killer or something of the sort I also have good fellings of love and kindness, am I broken by past experiences? Is this normal? does anyone else feel like this? as a Satanist how do I deal with such dark feelings and thoughts? thank you for your patience and time.

Hail Satan.

It sounds personally to me that you have pluto strong in your chart or at least some Scorpio emphasis, or quite possibly Saturn/Capricorn influence. These specifically and the first especially are close with the things you have described. You could have had some bad experiences that have fueled the anger you might be feeling toward certain situations. You do not sound otherwise abnormal at all, just human. Are you by any chance a nighttime person? You could have a lot of water too. Sometimes this can manifest as emptiness or depression of sorts. This might be a sign that you need to find positive ways to sublimate the feminine energies of your soul, as each of us has masculine and feminine aspects of our souls.

 

[Darkwanderer80]

Greetings friends, I have some thoughts to share, I think maybe you can help me understand some things, I have been very well treated since I returned to Jos you guys have been great explaining things I don't understand and clearing my doubts for that I thank you, I'm still very much a novice with much to learn regarding Jos and learn about myself, you guys describe satan as benevolent God loving wise trughtful honest and blazing with light I'm ok with that , but regarding myself I'm a somewhat different individual than most people around me, I work a full time job, pay my taxes I'm a husband a father all normal, the diference is that i am a bit of a introvert/slightly anti social person , maybe because today's society is greatly rooten,I have a rather dark sense of humor, I like bad weather rain thunder storms desolate places I feel a great attraction/affinity towards dark things darkness the void death chaos macabre and many times I feel this wild nearly uncontrollable rage and hatred, I'm certainly not a criminal nor a serial killer or something of the sort I also have good fellings of love and kindness, am I broken by past experiences? Is this normal? does anyone else feel like this? as a Satanist how do I deal with such dark feelings and thoughts? thank you for your patience and time.

Hail Satan.

It sounds personally to me that you have pluto strong in your chart or at least some Scorpio emphasis, or quite possibly Saturn/Capricorn influence. These specifically and the first especially are close with the things you have described. You could have had some bad experiences that have fueled the anger you might be feeling toward certain situations. You do not sound otherwise abnormal at all, just human. Are you by any chance a nighttime person? You could have a lot of water too. Sometimes this can manifest as emptiness or depression of sorts. This might be a sign that you need to find positive ways to sublimate the feminine energies of your soul, as each of us has masculine and feminine aspects of our souls.

Thank you for your honest answer, you could say i have had some bad experiences it's a long sad story though I overcame much of it part of it still taints me from time to time, my sign is Aires (ram), does that explain any of my traits? Yes I am a nighttime person however with a young son to care for more often than not when is night time I'm dead tired