Hello everyone,
This is my first post. I've read much on this site the last two days and will continue to read more.
A bit about me; my mom abandoned her kids and my dad went to prison. The kids ended up in a family's home that was super pentecostal christian. To say it screwed up my mind is an understatement. The fear tactics haunted me for decades (I'm 63).
The church really encouraged us to read the Bible ourselves and so I sat down and read it cover to cover in 3 months.
I was shocked, sickened, and horrified at the bloodshed and just all the bloody rituals. Whenever I'd ask about it I always got, "Well, God is God and he can do as he pleases".
I church hopped for decades trying to find something that made sense. The murders, the Virgin birth, the laws and regulations were so much. Of course, I never felt like I measured up and living in poverty my entire life was my punishment for lack of faith or my sins.
I begged God for decades to help me; deliver me from alcoholism, help me get a better paying job, ect.
But how could I get a better job? It was pounded in my head that I didn't need an education, I needed Jeeeeeesus, and only Jeeeeeesus. I didn't need insurance, I needed faith all would work out.
Well fast forward decades and I have a daughter who won't talk to me nor let me see my grandkids unless I say how high when she says jump.
Then my son and I who are close seldom see each other because he's locked up in a jew's Prison for Prophet, and I have no car to see him, and he's on the other side of Texas.
I couple days ago I was on jewtube and in one comment it had a link to here. Now, I know Christian's would tell me I was playing with fire my even following the link.
Really? My entire life has been a freaking living hell and I think; well, the bible God and his son didn't care enough to lend a helping hand so what do I have to lose?
I don't know where to start, there's so much information here and I know nothing about the runics (spelling?) Or mediatation, or even how to pronounce some of the words used in reversing the bad spells upon us.
I have tried talking to Satan (and I love the picture of the beautiful white man, the painting of him; especially since he's always depicted so vilely ugly) but, I don't know if he hears me. :?
I'm desperate to have this heartache in my soul and heart be healed, and if Satan can help me, I'd be willing to try to get to know him.
When I was 17 I saw The Exorcist and had nightmares about Satan for a decade.
This may seem silly, but my favorite cat ever, Kitty, disappeared a month ago and I'm heartbroken over that.
And my finances are beyond bad. Yes, I have a little house but it's falling apart at the seams. I'd love to move to a nicer area so my son could parole to a better place and so we both could start over.
How do I pray to Satan? Does he care about these issues? I have asked him to help with Kitty, but if he is the true white people's God and creator I want to know him. I don't just want 'things' (yes, I do want help in the areas I mentione but) I want to have a relationship too.
I don't know where to start. Yes, I've read much here, but it doesn't give me a starting point. I'd like direction.
How has being a Satanist helped you? Are your prayers answered? If so, can you give examples?
We were constantly forced to praise God, and sing and pray to him. Do I continue that but switch that to Satan?
Please don't just say, "read the site", I've done little else but that for two days and am more confused then ever.
Will Satan help bring Kitty home?
Thank You for listening.
(This was from the heart and my heart is crying)
Cathy
This is my first post. I've read much on this site the last two days and will continue to read more.
A bit about me; my mom abandoned her kids and my dad went to prison. The kids ended up in a family's home that was super pentecostal christian. To say it screwed up my mind is an understatement. The fear tactics haunted me for decades (I'm 63).
The church really encouraged us to read the Bible ourselves and so I sat down and read it cover to cover in 3 months.
I was shocked, sickened, and horrified at the bloodshed and just all the bloody rituals. Whenever I'd ask about it I always got, "Well, God is God and he can do as he pleases".
I church hopped for decades trying to find something that made sense. The murders, the Virgin birth, the laws and regulations were so much. Of course, I never felt like I measured up and living in poverty my entire life was my punishment for lack of faith or my sins.
I begged God for decades to help me; deliver me from alcoholism, help me get a better paying job, ect.
But how could I get a better job? It was pounded in my head that I didn't need an education, I needed Jeeeeeesus, and only Jeeeeeesus. I didn't need insurance, I needed faith all would work out.
Well fast forward decades and I have a daughter who won't talk to me nor let me see my grandkids unless I say how high when she says jump.
Then my son and I who are close seldom see each other because he's locked up in a jew's Prison for Prophet, and I have no car to see him, and he's on the other side of Texas.
I couple days ago I was on jewtube and in one comment it had a link to here. Now, I know Christian's would tell me I was playing with fire my even following the link.
Really? My entire life has been a freaking living hell and I think; well, the bible God and his son didn't care enough to lend a helping hand so what do I have to lose?
I don't know where to start, there's so much information here and I know nothing about the runics (spelling?) Or mediatation, or even how to pronounce some of the words used in reversing the bad spells upon us.
I have tried talking to Satan (and I love the picture of the beautiful white man, the painting of him; especially since he's always depicted so vilely ugly) but, I don't know if he hears me. :?
I'm desperate to have this heartache in my soul and heart be healed, and if Satan can help me, I'd be willing to try to get to know him.
When I was 17 I saw The Exorcist and had nightmares about Satan for a decade.
This may seem silly, but my favorite cat ever, Kitty, disappeared a month ago and I'm heartbroken over that.
And my finances are beyond bad. Yes, I have a little house but it's falling apart at the seams. I'd love to move to a nicer area so my son could parole to a better place and so we both could start over.
How do I pray to Satan? Does he care about these issues? I have asked him to help with Kitty, but if he is the true white people's God and creator I want to know him. I don't just want 'things' (yes, I do want help in the areas I mentione but) I want to have a relationship too.
I don't know where to start. Yes, I've read much here, but it doesn't give me a starting point. I'd like direction.
How has being a Satanist helped you? Are your prayers answered? If so, can you give examples?
We were constantly forced to praise God, and sing and pray to him. Do I continue that but switch that to Satan?
Please don't just say, "read the site", I've done little else but that for two days and am more confused then ever.
Will Satan help bring Kitty home?
Thank You for listening.
(This was from the heart and my heart is crying)
Cathy