My 10 year journey through Satanism

[Blizzard_Owl]

I am coming up on my 10 year anniversary of acknowledging satanism. When i was 12 i found the JOS site, i discovered it after i looked up succubi. I've been on a heck of a journey through the years, falling off and on again; never really sticking to any teachings. I was a kid and never really understood how important spiritualism really is.

Every time i stumbled i always kept getting closer and closer to truly dedicating myself to Satan and his wishes for me. It was only a year ago that i finally made a serious heart felt dedication to our creator.

I constantly took time off and made up excuses, especially after the pet that i loved since childhood died i had lost my only friend, my human friends slipped away and i wasn't the same since.

It took time to recover, but every year i gained a stronger resilience and a smarter mind. I was even faced with the knowledge that i have autism and it made me feel powerless, but i overcame that and didn't let it define me or stop me. Right now i have it clear in my mind how amazing self improvement feels. I found goals that could keep me on this path. I never understood true GREATER PURPOSE before, but as i grew to who i am now; i know what i not only HAVE to do, but WANT to do.

I want some of you to understand that even if you fail yourself at times, you still didn't LOSE yet. There's always a chance to recover and stay faithful to WHO YOU WANT TO BE. Don't ever lose hope or joy, it sounds cheesy but you CAN do anything you set your mind to, and not just your mind but your very soul. Believe me when i say this; even if you think that meditation wont help BELIEVE ME MEDITATION HELPS MONUMENTALLY!

Im very glad to be who i am now, and im happy i made the decision to fully come back to Satans side and rejoin my aryan family. I love you all and i hope every one of you can take your advancement seriously and learn as much as you can. I love you all (if anybody even reads this lol)

Hail Satan
Hail Marcosias

*Glory to the gods of earth*

 

[AFODO]

That is great brother. I'm also around the corner of 1 year constant advancement, and I also came to understand what I have to do, which I also love to do.

 

[View of Innocence]

I also reached 10 year anniversary this year since finding the JOS, but I wasnt so young as you were, so I started applying the teachings as soon as I could. And my life did take a massive turn. I live and immerse myself in the demonic world fully. Im a student of the Gods.

 

[Ælberiigor]

Wow ! ten years ! Congratulation !

If I hadn't loosed my time with boring and non inspiring jewified stuff with what I couldn't implicate myself, I had cumulated near that 15 years of efficient meditations.
I'd followed the french translations line of Bardon taken in charge by a sectarian Rosicrucian-like network instead to follow the Wotanism until to meet some boring newagers I couldn't support.

These networks participate actively to vilify Satan without really specified Him while promoting Egyptian roots, high level spirituality and so on. They also consolidate that Nat Soc were evils.
I fought against YHWH without understand this point for 15 years :evil: At end, I'm never loosed myself for long.

As you understood the Holocaust is a trap, soon or late YHWH is fucked :lol:

More... I understood why the extreme/black metal followed me until now.
From the start, I've already been a Nat Soc without know.

 

[blackwizard]

Keep it up brother or sister