Well Henu and to a degree answering to Blitz. I believe in updating my databanks and keeping a horizontal and vertical expansion of my knowledge.
For example Yes Henu I've studied affirmations, yes I've done quite a bit of thinking and actions on it. Successful or not I've done it.
But I'm always looking to better improve. Affirmations are personal, it's one reason why I wish the Gods were around physically i.e. literally corporeal on the planet so that my research and questions can be answered even if I posses questions that are ineffable. No amount of text, speech, or physical construct can help me describe it. In my mind I can drown myself and state exactly. The instant I try and blurt it out it is lost in translation.
It's not even simply a mental thing but even psychic and musical. For example I have songs in my head am I a musician, Nope!
But if I had access to a psychic emitter some sort of psytronic device. I could project it into the computer and use AI to create it. For example this is a good video of the usage of AI enhanced tools in fact it's almost blurring the lines into some sort of naturalistic, soul embodiment. Ex:
AI Makes Any Sound A Synth Preset INSTANTLY - Youtube What's next chakra and Universal music tones, combined tones some sort of psychic embodiment of the spiritual and dimensional Universe.
If one definition of wisdom is knowing that you know nothing even if you know stuff. Then I'm not smart nor good with anything. In fact like my friend states most people are the way they are because to know things and be smart requires a Planetary study of Humanities resources. It's one reason why for example I'm intellectually lazy. I study things just as of the time of this post Anandtech released an article on DNA storage. I read and studied the sector zero/sector one SNIA PDF and fascinating. Am I gonna understand it or ever delve into it. Absolutely not. Most people just live content to be alive study exist in their own little world(read prison) and that is it. The Human condition simply exist to pass the time. Too much time on our hands and not enough of it to enjoy. It's akin to sex people want awesome sex the only problem is it was good in our heads when we get down to the physical property it turns into utter meaninglessness and autopilot and just go with the motions.
Remember Henu, Blitz, and others. I live fantastical in my head if you knew my astrological chart particularly when one or a handful of astro websites state be weary of consuming hallucinogenic substances as you already live in a blurred reality blurring the lines of realism and unrealism. It's one reason why one website states you need to engage the carnal body and forget about the soul and mind for a short period of time to balance and ground, center, and stabilize to reality. There IS such a thing as a carnal vessel and it must be worked on.
Unfortunately like the recent post, "Is meditation for losers". I gotta agree with the O.P. I do definitely feel like a loser meditating. Like Blitz replied you need to engage the environment to flow the water, so to speak, of your powers to affect reality. I don't operate that way and I never did. Every moment of existence has been so hyper analyzing and self-conscious.
Like the recent commercials for the Dune second act movie. As the original Dune and the books made on it. I'm simply a Thinking Machine. They created androids destroyed them fucked themselves over unable to navigate for resources and spice and allowed a handful to exist for navigation and stratgem duty. I'm so utterly bored and sick and tired of living, life was never fun and while I do live currently a very hammered down Saturn as hell life trying to improve myself and move through the Aquarian transition of Pluto and in a few years nearing my 40s as the Neptune Opposition(near 42 i.e. 88 year transit) another incident with the planet of delusions, drugs, meditation, and basically a planet of the mysteries of the Universe real or imagined.
I literally sit here simply going. You know I know meditation may potentially be fake or maybe not meant for me. Or maybe I'm just too lazy and too imprisoned in my reality to bother. But all I know is nothing ever came about. And I get you gotta go out there but when you posses a constant mind like the song from Limp Bizkit's Chocolate Starfish and the Hotdog Flavored Water album i.e. third album if I'm not mistaken. As the song goes, I analyze everything or something to that nature that Fred Durst said.
For example I slept only 4 hours at the time of posting this. I stayed awake till 12:45am decided after entering the cat in my room so he isn't alone. And drinking my coffee after making it. By about 3am I heard a cat outside crying so I went outside met the female black tabby bombay who looks exactly like my black tabby bombay cat only with the female cat outside has a poofy tail and my male cat same race has non-poofy tail And met the neighbors moving in thinking it's some Airbnb but wanting to live there for their rent. So I talked to them a bit fed their cat and they left.
Had me the madman cancarian crazy person went to sleep such incident would never happen. Hell maybe their cat runs away she was real sweety, vocal, and friendly.
Every single time something occurs something happens. When I get those gut instincts and I always fail to capitalize on it. In fact one of my things is follow the gut instinct. The other day I saw the neighbors car and I had a sensation and voice in my head go "Wave" around the corner area of my neighborhood. I didn't 5 seconds later she activated her turn signal and went to turn to my neighborhood, she was the neighbor.
I don't know what kind of psychic overdrive I exist. I don't know if it's meditation or natural properties or my metal horse, cancer, pluto in scorpio person with a crazy chart.
But never has any JoS teaching helped. I follow JoS and love this organization and it's people, albeit some are like prudes or puritans to a degree and can't shake off judeo-bolshevism. Just today HistoryLegend was talking about the conflict in Burma/Myanmar terrible can't believe rebels have been fighting for 75+ years now. And I'm like holy shit the entire planet is on a tailspin of death.
I feel more imprisoned, less free, and more confused than ever. In fact I'm one to talk as I do jack shit all day. I just do SS;DD - Same shit; Different day. I'd like to do many things but they are just mental constructs. I simply think therefore I am.
Just today Tim Pool released two videos there is such a thing as NPCs. There is a large population number of people who do not think their minds are blank not even being able to visualize. It reminds me of seeing a pocket article of a 1973 book called When consciousness came to existence or something to that nature. At one point or another man began to think or process and before that ancient civilizations believed the Gods guided or controlled them to a degree to help them out. At one point or another connection of the Gods was lost and man began to be conscious.
I simply wish to know the affirmations to think and contemplate. Do I meditate to a subpar degree sure. Someone said to me you've been dedicated since 2003 20 years how are you not fully kundalini risen. It doesn't work that way hell I don't think most people even hardcore as fuck would be kundalini risen.
I need the Gods present here and now and be told what to do. Although Hitler does state, "Thou shalt obey. Is the worst possible command a Human can be taught. Humans need to be taught commanding and leadership skills to command and lead other Humans".
I know thinking, processing, contemplating and generally everything encompassing the mental realm is not meditation or intent to meditate or intent to live. But I simply want technology to process and go through with.
Science PROVES NPCs ARE REAL, Some People DONT THINK AT ALL, We Call Them Democrats - Yotube
THE DEATH STARE, The Truth About Dying And Seeing Lost Loved Ones, Mr. Bokus Was Ferried Beyond - Youtube
Funny with the way Tim Pool describes his religious views. He speaks exactly like we do or at least open to better philosophical interpretation. Funny if he knew about metagenics and epigenetics, genetics of the biological physical vessel and soul. He'd realize the soul is real and with development of spiritual efforts and if we had access to meditronic devices or psytronic devices or some sort of scrytronic device to scry the Gods and or ourselves and see our spiritual side. He'd realize you don't have to wait to death to experience a phenomena.
Still at the end of the day I respect his views but personally I feel like explaining like I'm talking out my ass and not knowing a damn thing. I've never proven JoS. My National Socialism is this transmogrified notion of not the American Dream, American Lucid Dream, nor American Astral Projection. But the American Reality, *knock on wood*.
I have created my own form of National Socialism encompassing my own views and what I wish NS could be or should be or is potential especially seeing that video from HistoryLegend seeing how poor and destitute the World can be it disgusted me deeply. Perhaps National Socialism is simply don't fuck around doing stupid shit, fix the shit and begin to assist and improve mankind.
As Hitler and Feder and others stated the NSET or National Socialist Economic Theory is there is no theory just don't fuck around with the money and people's livelihood. I wish I knew the reason Dr. Hjalmer Greely Schant was fired in 1939 and replaced I believe with Walther Funk. Why was Dr. Schant fired I get he lorded over the central bank even meeting in 1913 with J.P. Morgan where he's like WTF are you doing your gonna crash the global economy.
I'm embarssed to be a NS and not know shit. But know shit. But then my own drums beat in my own way and have my family when I talk NSy, Anti-kosher, and generally release my charged up pent up discourse. As Ugh stop it your not in reality capitalism is perfect it works or look at it improving or this or that.
I mean hell I invented my own NS like Myla.Limlal the former HP. While other political properties even Marxism was evolving. NS was so destroyed and out and about that it was stuck in the past. It's much like Varg Vickerns despite the fact Burzum is a terrible band, Varg's almost Raw Black Metal death growl/screams are horrible it's akin to my friend stating many raw black metal bands are a headache to listen to it's an aquired taste and perhaps even a re-listen of the album. Varg is a foolish man he wants rural existence newsflash in a proper civilization rural areas use hyperaddvanced technologies to feed the planet. Most people want to live in cities be social and enjoy their lives. We are social creatures and require a tightnight grouping. I mean I respect agriculture and farmers but come on. Even in the Halo series the Bashk AI optimized automated farming on one planet so much in 30 to 40 years they began exporting food to other planets in astro economics.
But I literally invented what I believe NS should be. And then my own family goes if Hitler and Nazis knew about your mental health and knew your inventions and what you believe in. They'd kill you. Or for example Only in America can you get medical, medicaid, social security, and other benefits. My father is like hell the fact we don't pay taxes on milk and other essential products used both in no taxing and in food stamps. He's like I'd love to speak to Javier Milei and explain this property to implement it in Argentina it'll reduce tax revenues but at least people can deflate their spending.
I mean for fucks sake after listening to various things and reading various things on National Socialism. I'm flabbergasted to construct my own views on it.
Maybe I'm an asshole using National Socialism to import and export my crazy views on an unrealistic scale. I simply provide no logic to my NS. It's whatever I feel.
Maybe I'm truly an asshole and maybe I'd hate NS. It's like Heinz Guderian he was an icecold motherfucker. And he said, I hate Erwin Rommel for strategic purposes he shouldn't lead anything larger than a battalion. On the tactical, small scale he is brilliant especially years ago in 2015 when I read about Fingerspitzengehrful or finger-tip feelings. Rommel would just point his fingers go infantry here, 88s here, and a few pak 75s here, and a flanking force of pak 57s and then when the British would engage piecemeal of course and they get raped.
I mean even the attack on France was barely rigged by the Panzerwaffe. Boch and Ruhnsted were winning due to infantry the tanks did something but funny enough even the German propaganda hyped the Panzers. Infantry did most of the heavy lifting. In fact like the bridgeheads at Medina that Belvin Alexander types about in his book which the person failed to mention in the video I saw. A very prominent mistake by the entente.
I know the more information that comes out the better there are still lies about WW2 and Hitler and NS and how their voice was curbstomped out of existence. I'd love to know everything on WW2 hell even Hitler in some cases did stupid shit sending forces to their doom. I don't view Hitler and company as master perfect godlike deities infallable to reality.
But the more I study WW2 and history the more I realize. Fuck I'm utterly incapable of spending time studying to the mildest of capabilities. There is such a humongous volume of data and information that I go how the fuck am I gonna download humanities entire history into my brain. Every day something like hundreds of thousands of hours to millions of hours, billions? trillions of hours are recorded by humanity daily. We produce Zetabytes of data each day.
How the fuck am I gonna download and put in my head the entirety of Humanity?
I feel so stupid even bothering to learn and study and forgoing myself. Typical cancerarian bullshit like Stoics and Marcus Aurelius states. Grow and tend to your own garden more so than others so you can feed yourself. If you help others you'll collapse your garden and others might not help even if you were good and nice to them they might just tell you fuck off so you fucked yourself over and not self-cared.
In other words glass half-full not half-empty, to view the glass as half-empty and help others they'll never complete the glass and put the water to fill your drink. You gotta fill the water yourself before. But no somehow my spiritual self this cancarian self simply wants to help others. I mean do you know how much hours I spend improving technologies and seeing different realities of visions. Imagine taking Naruto the series and making your own episodes with Ai machines and creating better scenes and diologues. Narutu: Shipuden (Gearshift edition), or Naruto: Shippuden (XYZ person remix edition). Etc.etc. like Limp Bizkit's 'Rolliin there's like several version or any other song remixed or recreated or improved. For example: I prefer Kaiserjagerlied from Mavorim due to his dark German voice rather than the Minenwerfer's Alpenpasse version(according to my friend Alpenpasse is their finest work). The Mavorim version is quite superior even if some disagree and prefer the Minenwerfer version.
Not just eidetic memory but eidetic recall. Not just photographic computer storage memory but the ability to recall and explain sublimely to others.
I'm not a God nor probably will reach that point with my own self. Maybe George Lincoln Rockwell is right "We Nazis are Humble". Maybe it's just birth, life, death.
I don't know sheer fact is I don't know.
If you want to know how my brain works it's like Tim said, except in my case it's like a machine processing spiritual stuff. As people state stuff I just contemplate it even at a young age I did like Wayman Stewart's astro site he closed, my mind can confabulate advanced principles that others struggle with. I've studied so much on hallucinogenic substances and cannabis and fractals and geometry I can literally imagine the person tripping and seeing how it looks like to my best of my abilities like the muladhara x-ray vision one man had. On trippingly, blogsite, a guy took quite a bit of acid and his wife when he penetrated like many state she was extremely wet more than usual. He looked at her vagina and saw the entire organ in red and then a bit later saw her entire skeleton in red.
I guess he is sensing the layers of the soul and seeing how Saturn and Muladhara i.e. reddened state control the basic structure of the bones and the degree of the lustfulness and sexualness of the vagina. Hell if I recall I think he even saw his virile member inside of her. One women started coming down but still tripping her lesbian partner inserted a dildo into her and she said it felt huge like abnormally huge.
Sheer fact is I simply want to know. Just to know.
I'm simply a robotic machine I'm certainly not Human. Even as a young boy 7-8-9 years old my go to statement was, "I don't feel anything", "I'm just a robot".
I guess the sensitivity of metal horse cancer and the sensitivty but also extreme control of pluto in scorpio. Sense at an extreme level blurring my own feelings feeling things others miss or even blurring my own feelings or others feelings and pluto in scorpio with extreme sensing but also extreme calmness and control.
Sheer fact is like Wayman Stewart went do people posses a true self? they might think so but your case you posses no true self your just a chameleon you take the most powerful person in the room or you become other people and simply you posses no true self. Which scares the shit out of many people.
I'm simply a chameleon and when I talk to others I become them. People just want to talk to themselves so I just mirror them and become them.
Sheer fact is I'm ranting but I simply want a Godlike, Vrillya understanding of affirmations with visuals. Sometimes I'm like WTF how the fuck do I visualize this affirmation what is the proper yantra of affirmation or the proper property.
Again I simply in most cases leave the affirmation to do whatever it wants without visualizing. Maybe will it in into my soul, brain, body, mind and be done with it.
I'm such a chaotic force or looking for something that simply I posses no capability to understand what some affirmations are.
It's no surprise 20 years and stuck in pre-Kindergarten Satanism room #101.
And yes if your wondering Pluto in Scorpio contiues long after it left the sign it's in essence a revolutionary system almost a permanent marker on humanity and life. And Pluto in Aquarius affecting me being Cancer like my Capricorn friend, Libra mother whom seems to be resisting the changes. Hell I'd like to know and see what my uncle in law my mother's sister's husband would change being Aries.
Anyways I'm ranting.
TLDR: Please provide me with more technology so that I can update my databanks and process affirmations and improve myself. Please excuse my intellectua laziness or hyper obsessive compulsive drive to dig deeper than facevalue.
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