I'm need help.

[Kindness]

Before I start, I really want to apologize for my bad English because English is not my native language, but it's important.
Anyway, hello everyone, I hope you're everyone doing well.
I have a few questions, and I'm really scared of talking about it, but I don't know how to go through this without help.
A little bit about me, before I ask:
- I'm a very disease person:
I have a mentally ill - depression;
A few years I suffer from fatigue (doctors still can't find a biological reason why I'm feeling like that) and thoughts about cancerophobia (I'm afraid that I ill-of cancer) + recently I have headaches, depersonalization and derealization. Every meditation/reading for me is a huge job, because I don`t have enough physical and psychological powers doing them regularly and doing pauses, but I want to be with Gods, even If I lose mind control and have doubts about my way or bad, disgusting thoughts about Gods. (I'm really sorry, because I don't want all of this doubts and thoughts..)
Questions:
1) Two days ago I for the first time made a Final RTR + Killing Tetragrammaton RTR +
Shattering jewish Soul Protection RTR. After all of this my headache was so terrifying, then I tried ritual after this day (I took a pill from headache before ritual) and nothing change. I don't know what to do with that experience, is it because I'm ill or because I have a something jew in my soul?
2) I'm need to stop doing RTR? I want, but I felt shame, afraid to feel pain again, and crying so long after ritual and now. If I'm really a jew, maybe I'm better to die? I don't want to be a jew or have something common with them, but if I'm really are..better to die.
Thank you for attention, and sorry again for my English..
And if you don`t understand my words, please ask about it.

 

[Fuchs]

Before I start, I really want to apologize for my bad English because English is not my native language, but it's important.
Anyway, hello everyone, I hope you're everyone doing well.
I have a few questions, and I'm really scared of talking about it, but I don't know how to go through this without help.
A little bit about me, before I ask:
- I'm a very disease person:
I have a mentally ill - depression;
A few years I suffer from fatigue (doctors still can't find a biological reason why I'm feeling like that) and thoughts about cancerophobia (I'm afraid that I ill-of cancer) + recently I have headaches, depersonalization and derealization. Every meditation/reading for me is a huge job, because I don`t have enough physical and psychological powers doing them regularly and doing pauses, but I want to be with Gods, even If I lose mind control and have doubts about my way or bad, disgusting thoughts about Gods. (I'm really sorry, because I don't want all of this doubts and thoughts..)
Questions:
1) Two days ago I for the first time made a Final RTR + Killing Tetragrammaton RTR +
Shattering jewish Soul Protection RTR. After all of this my headache was so terrifying, then I tried ritual after this day (I took a pill from headache before ritual) and nothing change. I don't know what to do with that experience, is it because I'm ill or because I have a something jew in my soul?
2) I'm need to stop doing RTR? I want, but I felt shame, afraid to feel pain again, and crying so long after ritual and now. If I'm really a jew, maybe I'm better to die? I don't want to be a jew or have something common with them, but if I'm really are..better to die.
Thank you for attention, and sorry again for my English..
And if you don`t understand my words, please ask about it.

Did you do returning curses after FRTR(all 3 combined)? ->
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Returning_Curses.html

You are not a Jew, a jew would not care.

 

[Demonic]

Before I start, I really want to apologize for my bad English because English is not my native language, but it's important.
Anyway, hello everyone, I hope you're everyone doing well.
I have a few questions, and I'm really scared of talking about it, but I don't know how to go through this without help.
A little bit about me, before I ask:
- I'm a very disease person:
I have a mentally ill - depression;
A few years I suffer from fatigue (doctors still can't find a biological reason why I'm feeling like that) and thoughts about cancerophobia (I'm afraid that I ill-of cancer) + recently I have headaches, depersonalization and derealization. Every meditation/reading for me is a huge job, because I don`t have enough physical and psychological powers doing them regularly and doing pauses, but I want to be with Gods, even If I lose mind control and have doubts about my way or bad, disgusting thoughts about Gods. (I'm really sorry, because I don't want all of this doubts and thoughts..)
Questions:
1) Two days ago I for the first time made a Final RTR + Killing Tetragrammaton RTR +
Shattering jewish Soul Protection RTR. After all of this my headache was so terrifying, then I tried ritual after this day (I took a pill from headache before ritual) and nothing change. I don't know what to do with that experience, is it because I'm ill or because I have a something jew in my soul?
2) I'm need to stop doing RTR? I want, but I felt shame, afraid to feel pain again, and crying so long after ritual and now. If I'm really a jew, maybe I'm better to die? I don't want to be a jew or have something common with them, but if I'm really are..better to die.
Thank you for attention, and sorry again for my English..
And if you don`t understand my words, please ask about it.

Best possible route i see is, dissect the problems and tackle them one by one.

First and foremost being, having a positive mindset regarding everything.

Start by doing 40 days program if you havent done that already, after doing yoga use that energy for positive mindset,affirm that you have a positive mindset regarding all situations at all times in a positive safe and healthy way for you.
This will help you keep a positive mindset regarding your situations.

Commit to 40 days program, ask Gods to guide you and they WILL.

You can later use runes and planetary squares to deal with depression and other physical problems.
We are always here to guide and motivate you but YOU HAVE to bring that spark of motivation to be consistent with yourself.

Commit to meditations everyday please. Once you get this ball of positivity going it will eventually get bigger and bigger and problems solving will seem easier. Daily meditations will increase your will and intent to tackle and solve things in a very positive way.

Trust yourself you can solve everything. Its all matter of commiting.

Make a written plan dissect the problems use your judgement as to which problems are bigger and needs to be taken care of first. You got this.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

The reason why your head hurt is because the RTR rituals make your soul become a lot more strong, and it makes more energy flow through your body and your soul. And the chakras in your head are not used to this much energy flowing through them, they are mostly closed and blocked. So it makes a lot of pressure when it is not able to flow.

Work on opening these chakras. When they are more open, there will be no pressure and there will be no pain.

 

[Kindness]

Before I start, I really want to apologize for my bad English because English is not my native language, but it's important.
Anyway, hello everyone, I hope you're everyone doing well.
I have a few questions, and I'm really scared of talking about it, but I don't know how to go through this without help.
A little bit about me, before I ask:
- I'm a very disease person:
I have a mentally ill - depression;
A few years I suffer from fatigue (doctors still can't find a biological reason why I'm feeling like that) and thoughts about cancerophobia (I'm afraid that I ill-of cancer) + recently I have headaches, depersonalization and derealization. Every meditation/reading for me is a huge job, because I don`t have enough physical and psychological powers doing them regularly and doing pauses, but I want to be with Gods, even If I lose mind control and have doubts about my way or bad, disgusting thoughts about Gods. (I'm really sorry, because I don't want all of this doubts and thoughts..)
Questions:
1) Two days ago I for the first time made a Final RTR + Killing Tetragrammaton RTR +
Shattering jewish Soul Protection RTR. After all of this my headache was so terrifying, then I tried ritual after this day (I took a pill from headache before ritual) and nothing change. I don't know what to do with that experience, is it because I'm ill or because I have a something jew in my soul?
2) I'm need to stop doing RTR? I want, but I felt shame, afraid to feel pain again, and crying so long after ritual and now. If I'm really a jew, maybe I'm better to die? I don't want to be a jew or have something common with them, but if I'm really are..better to die.
Thank you for attention, and sorry again for my English..
And if you don`t understand my words, please ask about it.

Did you do returning curses after FRTR(all 3 combined)? ->
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Returning_Curses.html

You are not a Jew, a jew would not care.

No, I didn't return curses. I'll try it, thanks! And thanks for the answer!

 

[Kindness]

Before I start, I really want to apologize for my bad English because English is not my native language, but it's important.
Anyway, hello everyone, I hope you're everyone doing well.
I have a few questions, and I'm really scared of talking about it, but I don't know how to go through this without help.
A little bit about me, before I ask:
- I'm a very disease person:
I have a mentally ill - depression;
A few years I suffer from fatigue (doctors still can't find a biological reason why I'm feeling like that) and thoughts about cancerophobia (I'm afraid that I ill-of cancer) + recently I have headaches, depersonalization and derealization. Every meditation/reading for me is a huge job, because I don`t have enough physical and psychological powers doing them regularly and doing pauses, but I want to be with Gods, even If I lose mind control and have doubts about my way or bad, disgusting thoughts about Gods. (I'm really sorry, because I don't want all of this doubts and thoughts..)
Questions:
1) Two days ago I for the first time made a Final RTR + Killing Tetragrammaton RTR +
Shattering jewish Soul Protection RTR. After all of this my headache was so terrifying, then I tried ritual after this day (I took a pill from headache before ritual) and nothing change. I don't know what to do with that experience, is it because I'm ill or because I have a something jew in my soul?
2) I'm need to stop doing RTR? I want, but I felt shame, afraid to feel pain again, and crying so long after ritual and now. If I'm really a jew, maybe I'm better to die? I don't want to be a jew or have something common with them, but if I'm really are..better to die.
Thank you for attention, and sorry again for my English..
And if you don`t understand my words, please ask about it.

Best possible route i see is, dissect the problems and tackle them one by one.

First and foremost being, having a positive mindset regarding everything.

Start by doing 40 days program if you havent done that already, after doing yoga use that energy for positive mindset,affirm that you have a positive mindset regarding all situations at all times in a positive safe and healthy way for you.
This will help you keep a positive mindset regarding your situations.

Commit to 40 days program, ask Gods to guide you and they WILL.

You can later use runes and planetary squares to deal with depression and other physical problems.
We are always here to guide and motivate you but YOU HAVE to bring that spark of motivation to be consistent with yourself.

Commit to meditations everyday please. Once you get this ball of positivity going it will eventually get bigger and bigger and problems solving will seem easier. Daily meditations will increase your will and intent to tackle and solve things in a very positive way.

Trust yourself you can solve everything. Its all matter of commiting.

Make a written plan dissect the problems use your judgement as to which problems are bigger and needs to be taken care of first. You got this.

Thank you so much, you so kind, I`ll try it!

 

[Kindness]

The reason why your head hurt is because the RTR rituals make your soul become a lot more strong, and it makes more energy flow through your body and your soul. And the chakras in your head are not used to this much energy flowing through them, they are mostly closed and blocked. So it makes a lot of pressure when it is not able to flow.

Work on opening these chakras. When they are more open, there will be no pressure and there will be no pain.

Thank you for advice, I`ll try it. Have a good day!
Hail Satan!

 

[Fuchs]

The reason why your head hurt is because the RTR rituals make your soul become a lot more strong, and it makes more energy flow through your body and your soul. And the chakras in your head are not used to this much energy flowing through them, they are mostly closed and blocked. So it makes a lot of pressure when it is not able to flow.

Work on opening these chakras. When they are more open, there will be no pressure and there will be no pain.

Thank you for advice, I`ll try it. Have a good day!
Hail Satan!

A clean chakra is superior (also safer) compared to a dirty empowered one , also for this reason always do returning curses after FTR (it cleans), it should also help with the energy flow, you are welcome (your last message).