pacharica
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Hello dear friends in Satan,
I have been dealing with alot for the last few years.I have sought answers here on different account,but the answers I get I still doubt.
full story:
I worshipped lalita/kali maa a few years ago,I was also studying the JOS,and agreed with alot of it.
all of a sudden I started getting dreams,from 'kali'that She sacrificed children,and I woke up and looked it up and this was a big thing in bengal at some point.
at that time I decided'kaula'is not for me,tripura sundari is the highest female aspect of paramashiva.
then I got a dream that YAHWEH and abrahamic religion,namely judaism and christianity are also from 'her'.this was weird because this isn't the case.
then one morning,I was sleeping in my bed,and I had a dream where a guru turned into flames when he was giving darshan,and a big black dog attacked him and came to me,and a cartoon-like angel said 'you have been worshipping satan!'and the dog was about to attack me,I called on shiva a few times and nothing happened,I then out of fear called on jesus and the angels stopped and I woke up with the power out in the house.
I repented and was very confused and frightened.I got into a fake evil guru called nithyananda,and even wanted to join his ashram.
I was confused about all this,and decided to give christ-insanity a try,and that night in my dream some entity impersonated my sister and told me to kill myself,i woke up in sleep paralysis and a blonde haired shining figure was at the door,and I got scared and called on jesus and banished it in his name and he went away.
for the next few days,I'd get put in paralysis by beautiful indian women with fair skin and voluptuous figures,I assumed'oh,thats lalita..this whole time christians were right and I was worshipping demons,who must be bad'!
I also saw nithyananda riding on a chariot with the horse being a ugly entity the christians refer to as 'demonic'.
I experienced many attacks for months,and they would always go away when I called on jew-sus.
they would put me in paralysis and impersonate my dying mother,who passed at the time but was rendered sickly and paralyzed due to kidney failure.
they would impersonate my sister and tell me 'Jesus is bad'in paralysis,so i thought'see these evil things hate jesus,that means jesus is the truth and the true God'...
they came to me in a dream and were chasing me with machetes and told me you can worship any God,any angel any prophet but no jesus'...so i thought...see!theyre against jesus...the christians were right!
then I came upon a distressing site called'spiritreports'blogspot which had stories of 'demons and demonesses'and jewsus saved them from these entities,and they were queen of the coast and african goddesses,umbainda spirits etc
this site is a tyranical form of jew religion,if you have a fade haircut you go to hell,wear deoderant you go to hell,dye your hair...hell...short sleeves and pants...hell...forget to pay tithes...hell...and they also say they saw people in 'hell''for this.
I having a anxious personality type keep being afraid they're right about all those stories and such,and that despite the torah being a trash book full of errors,that somehow 'jewsus could be the true god'because look at all those testimonies.
before that it was looking at sid roth channel,which the above say is going to burn in hell for being prosperity preachers and work with malevolent entities.they also claim most 'pastors'are in the occult,and utilize help from 'evil entities'for their ministries.
also,some hindu stuff and pagan stuff in general gave off a bad energetic vibe to me,but most of it had wholesome energy.
I have a diagnosed mental disability,and my upbringing in a strict baptist church with fear pushed on me as a young boy changed neural wiring in my brain.so please have some understanding for why I out of fear have joined the enemy at times.the enemy knows this and plays on my fears and disability.
I get thoughts I know are not of my own.
then this site has alot of answers,but I get doubts alot because I haven't read the sources for alot of the jewish occult workings and that they control the jesus egregore in the astral.
I am just confused,and in fear.
out of any kindness you have in your heart please help.
I am not one to beg,I have dignity..but this predicament is mental hell and is affecting my life.
if you have any answers please share.
I am not a troll,but I am in a low place and this has been my authentic experience.
I have been dealing with alot for the last few years.I have sought answers here on different account,but the answers I get I still doubt.
full story:
I worshipped lalita/kali maa a few years ago,I was also studying the JOS,and agreed with alot of it.
all of a sudden I started getting dreams,from 'kali'that She sacrificed children,and I woke up and looked it up and this was a big thing in bengal at some point.
at that time I decided'kaula'is not for me,tripura sundari is the highest female aspect of paramashiva.
then I got a dream that YAHWEH and abrahamic religion,namely judaism and christianity are also from 'her'.this was weird because this isn't the case.
then one morning,I was sleeping in my bed,and I had a dream where a guru turned into flames when he was giving darshan,and a big black dog attacked him and came to me,and a cartoon-like angel said 'you have been worshipping satan!'and the dog was about to attack me,I called on shiva a few times and nothing happened,I then out of fear called on jesus and the angels stopped and I woke up with the power out in the house.
I repented and was very confused and frightened.I got into a fake evil guru called nithyananda,and even wanted to join his ashram.
I was confused about all this,and decided to give christ-insanity a try,and that night in my dream some entity impersonated my sister and told me to kill myself,i woke up in sleep paralysis and a blonde haired shining figure was at the door,and I got scared and called on jesus and banished it in his name and he went away.
for the next few days,I'd get put in paralysis by beautiful indian women with fair skin and voluptuous figures,I assumed'oh,thats lalita..this whole time christians were right and I was worshipping demons,who must be bad'!
I also saw nithyananda riding on a chariot with the horse being a ugly entity the christians refer to as 'demonic'.
I experienced many attacks for months,and they would always go away when I called on jew-sus.
they would put me in paralysis and impersonate my dying mother,who passed at the time but was rendered sickly and paralyzed due to kidney failure.
they would impersonate my sister and tell me 'Jesus is bad'in paralysis,so i thought'see these evil things hate jesus,that means jesus is the truth and the true God'...
they came to me in a dream and were chasing me with machetes and told me you can worship any God,any angel any prophet but no jesus'...so i thought...see!theyre against jesus...the christians were right!
then I came upon a distressing site called'spiritreports'blogspot which had stories of 'demons and demonesses'and jewsus saved them from these entities,and they were queen of the coast and african goddesses,umbainda spirits etc
this site is a tyranical form of jew religion,if you have a fade haircut you go to hell,wear deoderant you go to hell,dye your hair...hell...short sleeves and pants...hell...forget to pay tithes...hell...and they also say they saw people in 'hell''for this.
I having a anxious personality type keep being afraid they're right about all those stories and such,and that despite the torah being a trash book full of errors,that somehow 'jewsus could be the true god'because look at all those testimonies.
before that it was looking at sid roth channel,which the above say is going to burn in hell for being prosperity preachers and work with malevolent entities.they also claim most 'pastors'are in the occult,and utilize help from 'evil entities'for their ministries.
also,some hindu stuff and pagan stuff in general gave off a bad energetic vibe to me,but most of it had wholesome energy.
I have a diagnosed mental disability,and my upbringing in a strict baptist church with fear pushed on me as a young boy changed neural wiring in my brain.so please have some understanding for why I out of fear have joined the enemy at times.the enemy knows this and plays on my fears and disability.
I get thoughts I know are not of my own.
then this site has alot of answers,but I get doubts alot because I haven't read the sources for alot of the jewish occult workings and that they control the jesus egregore in the astral.
I am just confused,and in fear.
out of any kindness you have in your heart please help.
I am not one to beg,I have dignity..but this predicament is mental hell and is affecting my life.
if you have any answers please share.
I am not a troll,but I am in a low place and this has been my authentic experience.