I'm a new ex christian and stil in the house of christians. Their my family I was a very strong christian all my life and helped many of them in battles. Although I did those things I always liked to study more about satan and his demons. I have been in forums and had many conversations with atheists and non christians and still I wanted to get to know Satan. I alwats felt like I wanted to tell christians and god to go f**k themselfs. If been on the wrong side for far too long. I want to be a child of Satan and join the army of hell. I'm 18 and I'm from south africa. I'm in my last high school year and still live with my parents. This is shitt because I'm forced to go to church and I don't want them to know what I'm doing behind them. From all the years prayers I also still need to get the shitt out of my head from christian prayers and shitt. It bothers me and I wish I could start my life over just to get rid of all the bible study and prayers to the false jesus god. They brought fear into me of Satan. Saying He is evil and Hedont care about people. From all the comments of the members in jos I saw that Satan is like a father and I need a father. I want satan to know that. Its so hard to study and be in a christian house. Please I need help and someone or who ever to email me and guide me. I don't care who it is I will do whatever they say. I'm just sick and tired and want to dedicate myself to satan but since I'm in South Africa and here its christian paradise I can't do it in the house and I don't want to cause trouble. I know its dangerous and I don't want my family hurt cause I love them even if they are on the wrong side. if been trying for a long time to join teen4satan and now I'm finaly in it and would like to advance in steps in order to be a true child of satan. Whatever it takes I'll do it. I want to join the army and help in spiritual warfare but first I need help on many things like get my powers up and meet Satan and summon demons to guide me. But since I'm new I am scared and I'm not ashamed about it. I'm mostly scared my family will get hurt because I live with them. Eny help guys? Edward Hail father SATaN!!