Catalincata94
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So there was a sermon on JOS website somewhere about unwanted entitys and that you need to not to respound to it in any way but what is when your mind still talks back to it?? So this way i achieve nothing because my fuking mind speaks back to it and or it makes me talk back or it just mimicking my voice and i think it's an thougthform because of some people that pray for me and confusion but can't do fancy stufs like invoking elements for biding ritual and yes of course it works widouth but if it's weaker this way what am i to achieve if it's too week?
So no games for me and music and art work if its an entity just avoiding right brain activities.
And getting left brain activities like hanging with friends but no friends for me, but i want friends but i also hate it if they are christians and having crosses in theyr neck, thats why i left my friends.
The only way it didn't spoke to me was when i was with my cousin fishing. Have no friends and no one invites me any where. Why? Because i tried to kill my self because of stupid beliefs and talking to that thoughtform or fucking entity. But do i want others friendship if they know what i did? No because i dont need their pitty. And dont think they would hang out with me anyway only people who don't know about my dark past (suicide attempt).
Like a year and half ago i tried to search for a job and found one and i got in a conversation with the boss and yeah i honestly told what hapened to me just not about SS of course. And what happened afther that? That was the end of my job he got scared as fuck of me and was in stress.
I live in a village so it's not easy to find new friends here. Everyone know about eveyone everything here.
And find a job. There is no job for me if they find out that i had "schizophrenia" or suicide atempt. Nice no? And homestly my memory isn't so good to go to work right now but i believe that would help me find some friends if i would work somewhere. Here in Romania people with health problems rarely work and also if they know you have some mental problems like memory it's a no from a boss. They don't care to hire someone with any mental problems or physical problems not like in other countries.
So no games for me and music and art work if its an entity just avoiding right brain activities.
And getting left brain activities like hanging with friends but no friends for me, but i want friends but i also hate it if they are christians and having crosses in theyr neck, thats why i left my friends.
The only way it didn't spoke to me was when i was with my cousin fishing. Have no friends and no one invites me any where. Why? Because i tried to kill my self because of stupid beliefs and talking to that thoughtform or fucking entity. But do i want others friendship if they know what i did? No because i dont need their pitty. And dont think they would hang out with me anyway only people who don't know about my dark past (suicide attempt).
Like a year and half ago i tried to search for a job and found one and i got in a conversation with the boss and yeah i honestly told what hapened to me just not about SS of course. And what happened afther that? That was the end of my job he got scared as fuck of me and was in stress.
I live in a village so it's not easy to find new friends here. Everyone know about eveyone everything here.
And find a job. There is no job for me if they find out that i had "schizophrenia" or suicide atempt. Nice no? And homestly my memory isn't so good to go to work right now but i believe that would help me find some friends if i would work somewhere. Here in Romania people with health problems rarely work and also if they know you have some mental problems like memory it's a no from a boss. They don't care to hire someone with any mental problems or physical problems not like in other countries.