kingofrebel said:
My life is too hard . I was raped 7 times until I was 10 years old. At the age of 12, my father was killed by a serial killer. my life was full of poverty and misery. Last month I was cheated by my girlfriend. I started smoking. I don't know what to do, I don't want to be a god. I don't want to do anything, I'm losing myself and disconnected from life, what I did for this. Bad karma? Bad chart? idk humans are disgusting and sickly we don't even deserve to be saved what should i do now im 18 years old btw for this age its too much for me i cannot carry anymore
This is heart breaking. To think that one of my brother suffered like this tightens my chest.
No matter how peaceful our society or the world seems to be at first glance, after you tear open the veil, you will see that behind the veil is a cruel and cold world. Bad things can happen to anyone even if the one is a very good person and good things happen to those who are the scums of the world. There's no rule here except that those with the strength exploit those without.
However, this is a world created by the invasion of enemies.
Naaaa, king of rebel, your name itself is a sign of your rebellion. Rebellion to this world and rebellion to the enemies who made the world to be like this.
If you die to later reincarnate, you wouldn't king of rebellion. The enemy would laugh and drink in celebration if you were to do that. This is not who you are, you are the king of rebellion, you will advance spirtually to the point, the enemy and the world created by them runs away shitless from you.
You will rebel and advance spirtually till the enemies get scared from the depth of their soul when they hear your name. They will say 'The king of rebellion is coming.....Run!'.
Dying to reincarnate later is a extremely harming. For one, you would end up in similar if not worse situation in your next life. Two, you would lose a century of time where you could dedicate yourself to gaining strength with which you would crush your enemies.
I think you should focus on cleaning your aura in the sun everyday for at least 5 minutes or however long as you can.
As for your gf cheating, heh, be glad that you got rid of her. Really, be glad that you are free of people who do not hold any worth to you and that you are absolutely going to find someone who loves you from the bottom of her heart. Indeed, its hurtful when people do that to you but at the end of the day, you should be happy that you are free now and that you are going to find someone special.
For every 10 human beings who are sickly and disgusting, there's 1 good person who is radiant and kind. The worth of 1 such person far surpasses the former 10.
Remember, the Gods are with you.
Quote me as much as you want if you have any questions. I would be really happy if you were to do that.
I will be eagerly waiting for the day your light of rebellion blinds the enemy to death.
Take care.