Light Yagami
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I will rant a bit, but please, please hear me out.
I am getting extremely frustrated at my inability to properly converse with others about the subject of Hitler, the holohoax, Nazism and such.I HAVE watched documentaries... I HAVE read the Satanic website about Hitler, Nazism and such (but we all know I can't bring up Satanism like that lol; it would have the opposite effect). I HAVE read articles about Nazism and the holohoax.
I get it. I understand it. I believe the holohoax of the jews is a hoax. I understand what National Socialism wanted to accomplish. I do believe in Hitler as our Antichrist. I have no doubts of these things (a few years ago I did have many doubts, and less knowledge).
BUT!!! FUCKING BUT!!!! When the times comes that, for whatever reason (I may, or may not.... most likely I am the cause of this) a conversation about the holohoax stirs up... all my arguments are gone. All my knowledge has vanished. Instant fucking amnesia. I can understand it all in my mind. When I had watched the documentaries and when I had read the articles, EVERY THING made fucking sense! But now?? Now I'm left with nothing! I can't even open my mouth!And the other person ALWAYS FUCKING ALWAYS!!!! uses this reason: my great grandfather died in the war against Germany! Or something of that nature. I know the other person is not lying about it and I can not really... I can not give them any (any, any at all) reason as to what Germany wanted to do, and how they were trying to save us all. In all honesty, I am not educated enough about this either (why did the people of my country had to die in this war, if these people were not jews? Yes, I most certainly know hardly enough).
I understand I shouldn't start a conversation at all, seeing how I hardly have enough knowledge about it.But... I am upset at myself. Today, a conversation of that nature stirred up, and I was saying "I need historical evidence to prove me that the holocaust happened" and the other person asks "Alright. What historical evidence do you need? If you say that you do not count people's testimonies as facts, then what do you need?" and... I had nothing to say. I literally had NOTHING to say!
I don't doubt our High Priest/esses' words (about Nazism, and such and such) and they HAVE given us evidence about the things they say (either through documentaries, the Black Sun website and such and such, there are numerous articles and evidence about all the things they support) but, in all reality, if it wasn't for my religion, if it wasn't for Spiritual Satanism, I wouldn't even DARE touch the subject of Nazism and Hitler. I wouldn't even CARE about it. But I do, because I know the true face of the jews and what they're trying to accomplish (and of course it goes much deeper than that).BUT HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU SAY ALL THAT TO ANYONE?? You can't! You shouldn't! (I mean, you should be careful as to what you say to whom)
I am very frustrated.
Even if the subject is not about Hitler or Nazism... If the subject is HISTORICAL, EVEN IF IT'S ABOUT FUCKING XIANITY, I am left with no words...I KNOW how xianity has stolen ALL of its concepts by religions (the Pagan religions) preceding it. I know that even xianity's symbols are Pagan in origin, but xianity converted/distorted them (like the cross and such).
I've read the entire exposingchristianity website, and certain articles I've read more than once or twice.
But when someone starts talking about HISTORY... My country's history and they tie christianity somehow in there... and they say things I have absolutely NO knowledge about.... I am just left speechless. And angry. Very angry. Outraged, furious. I fucking burn with anger, I wanna break the other person's skull. Why? BECAUSE THEY'RE FUCKING SMART, AND THEY STILL BELIEVE IN THAT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!And I am left there, speechless. Nothing to say, nothing to do.
Then, spirituality...... Dear god... DEAR GOD!
I meditate for some years now. More than four years.I most certainly know the basics about meditations, how energy works and so on.
I have understood some allegorical symbolism (not even half of it, and the ones I've understood, I needed to examine them many times before I was able to do so) in regards to spirituality, chakras, energy, male/female energies and such and such.
Then, here comes someone along my way. Someone, who meditates. God knows what he/she does. But... he/she tells me stuff... I have nothing to respond with. I have absolutely no knowledge about them! I was so foolish, thinking I could, somehow, help this person out, or educate them since they were interested about it. Foolish and ignorant. I thought I have knowledge? Where is my knowledge now?
Yet, everything is in my mind. Everything is in my subconscious. I understand how things work, but I have no knowledge of the things the other person talks about. And even the things I KNOW, I can not actually give a concrete explanation of them! Or proof! How do you go about proving that astral projection exists? Did you just read an article about it? You'll need some science here. And what if the other person knows more behind this, than you do?
And so, once more... where do I stand? With fucking nothing to say, I stand like an idiot, wondering why do I even open my mouth.
I am very frustrated. At myself. I can't blame anyone else.
I just can not understand.... how can I fix that? How many more years do I need? What are even the AREAS that I need to study on???? History??? Politics??? Spirituality?? And WHICH spirituality?? Ancient India? Ancient Egypt??And where do I even FIND THE FUCKING SOURCE THAT IS NOT JEWISH CORRUPTED???!
MAN AM I FUCKING ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The above that I wrote are *not* always the case. There are many people that I helped in regards to meditations, or they even became Spiritual Satanists etc. But even today, four out of five of these people don't support Nazism and Hitler. And yes, they are Spiritual Satanists. They have not studied enough and such and such... but the worst thing is that I, WHO HAVE FUCKING STUDIED, can not explain to them the truth.
I am at a loss of words. Standing like an idiot.
I know better not to open my mouth again but still... I am very frustrated, at my inability to FUCKING REMEMBER!!!!!!! I am very frustrated at my ignorance of the knowledge the OTHER people have.
How can you know everything? And if not everything, then WHAT do you know? What do you NEED to know?? Since one subject ALWAYS jumps to another (you talk about xianity and you ALWAYS end up talking about history! Because xianity CAN be debunked historically!), if you don't know everything, then what DO you know? How can you converse? How can you persuade the other person, or at least give them a different point of view? If you know HALF of what they know, and even the things YOU know, you know them based on a gut feeling, based on someone else's words, and even the information you've read, you just can't fucking remember!!! Is there even a point of owning a freakin' tongue??????
Alright, rant is over. Any, any, any kind of advice or opinion on this is appreciated.All I know is that I won't be opening my mouth again, as I've gotten tired of bringing myself to such a humiliating situation. It's a promise to myself, unless my instinct tells me otherwise.
I am getting extremely frustrated at my inability to properly converse with others about the subject of Hitler, the holohoax, Nazism and such.I HAVE watched documentaries... I HAVE read the Satanic website about Hitler, Nazism and such (but we all know I can't bring up Satanism like that lol; it would have the opposite effect). I HAVE read articles about Nazism and the holohoax.
I get it. I understand it. I believe the holohoax of the jews is a hoax. I understand what National Socialism wanted to accomplish. I do believe in Hitler as our Antichrist. I have no doubts of these things (a few years ago I did have many doubts, and less knowledge).
BUT!!! FUCKING BUT!!!! When the times comes that, for whatever reason (I may, or may not.... most likely I am the cause of this) a conversation about the holohoax stirs up... all my arguments are gone. All my knowledge has vanished. Instant fucking amnesia. I can understand it all in my mind. When I had watched the documentaries and when I had read the articles, EVERY THING made fucking sense! But now?? Now I'm left with nothing! I can't even open my mouth!And the other person ALWAYS FUCKING ALWAYS!!!! uses this reason: my great grandfather died in the war against Germany! Or something of that nature. I know the other person is not lying about it and I can not really... I can not give them any (any, any at all) reason as to what Germany wanted to do, and how they were trying to save us all. In all honesty, I am not educated enough about this either (why did the people of my country had to die in this war, if these people were not jews? Yes, I most certainly know hardly enough).
I understand I shouldn't start a conversation at all, seeing how I hardly have enough knowledge about it.But... I am upset at myself. Today, a conversation of that nature stirred up, and I was saying "I need historical evidence to prove me that the holocaust happened" and the other person asks "Alright. What historical evidence do you need? If you say that you do not count people's testimonies as facts, then what do you need?" and... I had nothing to say. I literally had NOTHING to say!
I don't doubt our High Priest/esses' words (about Nazism, and such and such) and they HAVE given us evidence about the things they say (either through documentaries, the Black Sun website and such and such, there are numerous articles and evidence about all the things they support) but, in all reality, if it wasn't for my religion, if it wasn't for Spiritual Satanism, I wouldn't even DARE touch the subject of Nazism and Hitler. I wouldn't even CARE about it. But I do, because I know the true face of the jews and what they're trying to accomplish (and of course it goes much deeper than that).BUT HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU SAY ALL THAT TO ANYONE?? You can't! You shouldn't! (I mean, you should be careful as to what you say to whom)
I am very frustrated.
Even if the subject is not about Hitler or Nazism... If the subject is HISTORICAL, EVEN IF IT'S ABOUT FUCKING XIANITY, I am left with no words...I KNOW how xianity has stolen ALL of its concepts by religions (the Pagan religions) preceding it. I know that even xianity's symbols are Pagan in origin, but xianity converted/distorted them (like the cross and such).
I've read the entire exposingchristianity website, and certain articles I've read more than once or twice.
But when someone starts talking about HISTORY... My country's history and they tie christianity somehow in there... and they say things I have absolutely NO knowledge about.... I am just left speechless. And angry. Very angry. Outraged, furious. I fucking burn with anger, I wanna break the other person's skull. Why? BECAUSE THEY'RE FUCKING SMART, AND THEY STILL BELIEVE IN THAT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!And I am left there, speechless. Nothing to say, nothing to do.
Then, spirituality...... Dear god... DEAR GOD!
I meditate for some years now. More than four years.I most certainly know the basics about meditations, how energy works and so on.
I have understood some allegorical symbolism (not even half of it, and the ones I've understood, I needed to examine them many times before I was able to do so) in regards to spirituality, chakras, energy, male/female energies and such and such.
Then, here comes someone along my way. Someone, who meditates. God knows what he/she does. But... he/she tells me stuff... I have nothing to respond with. I have absolutely no knowledge about them! I was so foolish, thinking I could, somehow, help this person out, or educate them since they were interested about it. Foolish and ignorant. I thought I have knowledge? Where is my knowledge now?
Yet, everything is in my mind. Everything is in my subconscious. I understand how things work, but I have no knowledge of the things the other person talks about. And even the things I KNOW, I can not actually give a concrete explanation of them! Or proof! How do you go about proving that astral projection exists? Did you just read an article about it? You'll need some science here. And what if the other person knows more behind this, than you do?
And so, once more... where do I stand? With fucking nothing to say, I stand like an idiot, wondering why do I even open my mouth.
I am very frustrated. At myself. I can't blame anyone else.
I just can not understand.... how can I fix that? How many more years do I need? What are even the AREAS that I need to study on???? History??? Politics??? Spirituality?? And WHICH spirituality?? Ancient India? Ancient Egypt??And where do I even FIND THE FUCKING SOURCE THAT IS NOT JEWISH CORRUPTED???!
MAN AM I FUCKING ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The above that I wrote are *not* always the case. There are many people that I helped in regards to meditations, or they even became Spiritual Satanists etc. But even today, four out of five of these people don't support Nazism and Hitler. And yes, they are Spiritual Satanists. They have not studied enough and such and such... but the worst thing is that I, WHO HAVE FUCKING STUDIED, can not explain to them the truth.
I am at a loss of words. Standing like an idiot.
I know better not to open my mouth again but still... I am very frustrated, at my inability to FUCKING REMEMBER!!!!!!! I am very frustrated at my ignorance of the knowledge the OTHER people have.
How can you know everything? And if not everything, then WHAT do you know? What do you NEED to know?? Since one subject ALWAYS jumps to another (you talk about xianity and you ALWAYS end up talking about history! Because xianity CAN be debunked historically!), if you don't know everything, then what DO you know? How can you converse? How can you persuade the other person, or at least give them a different point of view? If you know HALF of what they know, and even the things YOU know, you know them based on a gut feeling, based on someone else's words, and even the information you've read, you just can't fucking remember!!! Is there even a point of owning a freakin' tongue??????
Alright, rant is over. Any, any, any kind of advice or opinion on this is appreciated.All I know is that I won't be opening my mouth again, as I've gotten tired of bringing myself to such a humiliating situation. It's a promise to myself, unless my instinct tells me otherwise.