How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

[hoodedcobra666]

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[enemyofjezzuz]

--- In [email protected], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

What did it for me was that I developed a strange hatred for the xian religion one day.  That was way before the Internet, and there was no way I could find the information like I can today.  Later, I got a catalog from a magic supply company, hoping to learn to practice magic.  Of course, what I got from that company was plastic shit that was barely effective as a trick, let alone anything with real magick. Around 14 months after I developed my initial hatred for Christi-SCAM[/B]-ity, one of my teachers had this idiotic idea of putting me with a classmate that was half Jewish.  (I didn't have any way of knowing the fucker was half Jewish at the time--I only know I had a strange association with him and the xian religion).  Not knowing any better, I decided to "give it a try", and it was a whopper of a mistake.  About a month later, the hang-ups with the opposite sex began.  (At least now I know that half kikes are extremely dangerous.)  This took several years to erode, even after the scumbag was gone (moved out of town) the next year. Still averse to Christi-SCAM[/B]-ity, I go a few years later.  As a freshman in high school, I tried eroding those hang-ups.  I figure I had made about half progress, and wouldn't you know.  My grandparents made another idiotic decision--they found this girl that was, it turns out, also estimated half Jewish!  That put the kabosh on any further progress, and all my grandparents were obsessed about was my getting somewhere with that kike.  I don't think the kike intended it to get sexual--merely to put a plug in the way so I couldn't attract legitimate members of the opposite sex (i.e., Gentiles).  Again, no way to defend myself.  Again, no way of knowing she was a kike (just "a reading disability").  I had an uneasy feeling about this girl, even above and beyond a mere relapse of hang-ups from before. The next 3 years were wasted on that.  My grandparents wanted me with this half-Jew, and they made some effort (for instance, my teaching her to read and she teaching me to dance, which would have been a complete Disaster).  In the end, the closest I ever came to going out with this fucker was when I was playing in a video arcade, she came in, and I whooped her ass on Defender by a factor of getting more than 100 times better a score. Not that this was enough.  Influence from this fucker followed me into college--her real intent was a complete success in keeping the opposite sex out of my life.  Each time I returned from college for Christmas vacation, my grandparents were more interested in my seeing that fucker than in anything else--aside the Defender Disaster, I was able to dodge that (probably because she, as a kike, didn't like Christmas as much as I did). Going beyond there, the angels from all this (not to mention angels that were intent on my damnation right from before birth and did all their preparation work to that end) somehow got me into that Joke-hova witless religion.  Despite that they are harshly against magick of any kind, I believe the magick from the kikes I was exposed to (because of external authorities in both cases), the angels around me, and even the hounders that are assigned to hound the flock in the congregations of witlesses all conspired to totally trash my soul.  Ultimately, right hand path struck out--and I learned by doing research on other xian churches that they are not much better than the joke-hova witlesses (milder enforcement, that was about it).  None had answers, and all had work for me to do in Nigeria to piss away my life.  No solutions. Eventually, I was researching reasons to NOT[/B] go back to right-hand path.  I found Joy of Satan in fairly short order doing that--the right hand path had its chance, and bombed it totally.  And I realized that I was not going to be able to fix the damage to my soul (and the damage is extreme, between emotionally abusive parents, those joke-hova's witlesses, and exposure to those filthy kikes because of parents, grandparents, and/or teachers, along with not being able to get involved with the opposite sex to the point where the hang-ups can be exposed and undermined).  If even Father Satan can't fix this, I am probably just plain too far gone and/or the angels are just too much and they are ruining everything as fast as Satan and His Demons can work. Now, if only I had found Father Satan about 9 1/2 months before I was born so I could use black magick on my parents to punish them immediately for abuse, give my teacher bad luck on the spot for putting me with that half-kike in 5th grade, give my grandparents extreme bad luck for pushing the half-kike on me at the end of the 9th grade that fucked up my undermining of the hang-ups, and make the joke-hova's witlesses that snagged me run into severe bad luck directly after calling on me, maybe my soul wouldn't be in such a horrible state of disrepair.  And maybe Father Satan would have had a much easier time preventing the problem or fixing a little problem instead of a whopper. Hail Satan![/B]

 

[hoodedcobra666]

Do this here and don't think anything is irreversible because its not brother. You just need to fight against it, no matter how much tyranny and helplessness or sadness it brings upon you. Do your daily meditations rentlessly and ruthlessly, aside from that, do that 40 day working here:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/40921

I guarantee you [because in my experience it worked] in the days to come you will be extremely happy and absolved from all this dross you may feel. Be strong and you will be happy by being strong. Stay strong and feel free to talk because we're all here to support each other and reach better levels of existence. My childhood was full of half-kikes too and people that only dragged me back and caused me problems. Especially people close to my family. Don't observe the damage done to you, we must all seek our Warrior within that doesn't age, doesn't die and doesn't surrender! You can do this.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "enemyofjezzuz" <denniswhicher@... wrote:



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666"
<hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would
be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan,
so we can promote Satanism better.



What did it for me was that I developed a strange hatred for the xian
religion one day. That was way before the Internet, and there was no
way I could find the information like I can today. Later, I got a
catalog from a magic supply company, hoping to learn to practice magic.
Of course, what I got from that company was plastic shit that was barely
effective as a trick, let alone anything with real magick.

Around 14 months after I developed my initial hatred for
Christi-SCAM-ity, one of my teachers had this idiotic idea of putting me
with a classmate that was half Jewish. (I didn't have any way of
knowing the fucker was half Jewish at the time--I only know I had a
strange association with him and the xian religion). Not knowing any
better, I decided to "give it a try", and it was a whopper of a mistake.
About a month later, the hang-ups with the opposite sex began. (At
least now I know that half kikes are extremely dangerous.) This took
several years to erode, even after the scumbag was gone (moved out of
town) the next year.

Still averse to Christi-SCAM-ity, I go a few years later. As a freshman
in high school, I tried eroding those hang-ups. I figure I had made
about half progress, and wouldn't you know. My grandparents made
another idiotic decision--they found this girl that was, it turns out,
also estimated half Jewish! That put the kabosh on any further
progress, and all my grandparents were obsessed about was my getting
somewhere with that kike. I don't think the kike intended it to get
sexual--merely to put a plug in the way so I couldn't attract legitimate
members of the opposite sex (i.e., Gentiles). Again, no way to defend
myself. Again, no way of knowing she was a kike (just "a reading
disability"). I had an uneasy feeling about this girl, even above and
beyond a mere relapse of hang-ups from before.

The next 3 years were wasted on that. My grandparents wanted me with
this half-Jew, and they made some effort (for instance, my teaching her
to read and she teaching me to dance, which would have been a complete
Disaster). In the end, the closest I ever came to going out with this
fucker was when I was playing in a video arcade, she came in, and I
whooped her ass on Defender by a factor of getting more than 100 times
better a score.

Not that this was enough. Influence from this fucker followed me into
college--her real intent was a complete success in keeping the opposite
sex out of my life. Each time I returned from college for Christmas
vacation, my grandparents were more interested in my seeing that fucker
than in anything else--aside the Defender Disaster, I was able to dodge
that (probably because she, as a kike, didn't like Christmas as much as
I did).

Going beyond there, the angels from all this (not to mention angels that
were intent on my damnation right from before birth and did all their
preparation work to that end) somehow got me into that Joke-hova witless
religion. Despite that they are harshly against magick of any kind, I
believe the magick from the kikes I was exposed to (because of external
authorities in both cases), the angels around me, and even the hounders
that are assigned to hound the flock in the congregations of witlesses
all conspired to totally trash my soul. Ultimately, right hand path
struck out--and I learned by doing research on other xian churches that
they are not much better than the joke-hova witlesses (milder
enforcement, that was about it). None had answers, and all had work for
me to do in Nigeria to piss away my life. No solutions.

Eventually, I was researching reasons to NOT go back to right-hand path.
I found Joy of Satan in fairly short order doing that--the right hand
path had its chance, and bombed it totally. And I realized that I was
not going to be able to fix the damage to my soul (and the damage is
extreme, between emotionally abusive parents, those joke-hova's
witlesses, and exposure to those filthy kikes because of parents,
grandparents, and/or teachers, along with not being able to get involved
with the opposite sex to the point where the hang-ups can be exposed and
undermined). If even Father Satan can't fix this, I am probably just
plain too far gone and/or the angels are just too much and they are
ruining everything as fast as Satan and His Demons can work.

Now, if only I had found Father Satan about 9 1/2 months before I was
born so I could use black magick on my parents to punish them
immediately for abuse, give my teacher bad luck on the spot for putting
me with that half-kike in 5th grade, give my grandparents extreme bad
luck for pushing the half-kike on me at the end of the 9th grade that
fucked up my undermining of the hang-ups, and make the joke-hova's
witlesses that snagged me run into severe bad luck directly after
calling on me, maybe my soul wouldn't be in such a horrible state of
disrepair. And maybe Father Satan would have had a much easier time
preventing the problem or fixing a little problem instead of a whopper.

Hail Satan!

 

[nico.carlton]

I found Satan through researching for the truth. First, I researched a cure for my asthma. Found it. Cured it. Next, I started researching who was behind the troubles of the World. After a month or three, I found Joy of Satan and I have been with the Master God ever since. I asked to 'meet' him and while I was walking to school a 17 year old blonde guy appeared literally out of no where at a busy intersection I was walking through to get to school. It suddenly hit me that this was Satan, that was the sign I had been asking for the previous night.


P.S. Every one read Mein Kampf!!

 

[HPS Lydia]

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Light]

Mine i believe was a matter of luck. I was interesting in demons and i had given up in the fear of hell thing and dedicated my self. Before i dedicated i was interested in finding the truth about "Hell" [Back then i did not know that it meant the base chakra] and the demons. And so one day while browsing i found the link that said "The Truth about Demons" and then i clicked it and guess what? It was Joy of Satan! I read it and everything just made so much sense it was so much interesting than all the crap i have been reading on wiki pedia and Jewish bull shit. Every day i read joy of Satan with passion and i learned until i dedicated my self on 2011 on Earth Day i believe. Then i started my meditations.

The day before i decided to dedicate my self i had a horrible dream. I still believe they were the greys trying to scare me away from dedicating my self. But i still dedicated my self. I can not say now i never felt nothing but now i can say that i have gained a family. A real family.

And till today i consider my self very lucky, i still imagine if i have had not found the link about the truth about demons. I would still be weak and i was going through some hard time with people at  school but later on everything easy off. Right now i have gained my confidence i have lost and also gain something very valuable, knowledge. And i am still going!
 Hail Satan!

From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 9:17 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

I guess most of us have all had a backround or interest in the occult before finding Satan.




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On Thu, Sep 6, 2012 9:17 PM EDT lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum.
Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ.
Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE
FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

I had been practicing Wicca for 15 years.I always knew in my heart that xtians were possessed in some way..For some reason,which I know why now,it just didn't do it for me anymore.So I started getting deep into the occult,like reading Crowley,and other kike stuff.Then I got into the Golden Dawn,and started practicing very blasphemous ceremonial angel magic for about a year or two.Then one day I found myself at the book store,and I saw the Satanic Bible.I brought it home and read through it very quickly.I really liked the concepts in it,but even as I would do black masses,I had this thought that maybe Satan was real all along.I joined Luciferian,and practiced and bought all of the books that had to do with the despicable reversed xtian crap.One day I was on the Satanic International Network,talking to some Luciferian friends of mine,and I saw on a post where someone was talking about Joy of Satan.So I decided to check out the joyofsatan.org,and I too kept reading for hours,because I knew deep inside that I too had found the real truth of who Satan really was. 
 Hail Satan
Brian 

From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 9:53 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  Do this here and don't think anything is irreversible because its not brother. You just need to fight against it, no matter how much tyranny and helplessness or sadness it brings upon you. Do your daily meditations rentlessly and ruthlessly, aside from that, do that 40 day working here:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/40921

I guarantee you [because in my experience it worked] in the days to come you will be extremely happy and absolved from all this dross you may feel. Be strong and you will be happy by being strong. Stay strong and feel free to talk because we're all here to support each other and reach better levels of existence. My childhood was full of half-kikes too and people that only dragged me back and caused me problems. Especially people close to my family. Don't observe the damage done to you, we must all seek our Warrior within that doesn't age, doesn't die and doesn't surrender! You can do this.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "enemyofjezzuz" <denniswhicher@... wrote:



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666"
<hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would
be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan,
so we can promote Satanism better.



What did it for me was that I developed a strange hatred for the xian
religion one day. That was way before the Internet, and there was no
way I could find the information like I can today. Later, I got a
catalog from a magic supply company, hoping to learn to practice magic.
Of course, what I got from that company was plastic shit that was barely
effective as a trick, let alone anything with real magick.

Around 14 months after I developed my initial hatred for
Christi-SCAM-ity, one of my teachers had this idiotic idea of putting me
with a classmate that was half Jewish. (I didn't have any way of
knowing the fucker was half Jewish at the time--I only know I had a
strange association with him and the xian religion). Not knowing any
better, I decided to "give it a try", and it was a whopper of a mistake.
About a month later, the hang-ups with the opposite sex began. (At
least now I know that half kikes are extremely dangerous.) This took
several years to erode, even after the scumbag was gone (moved out of
town) the next year.

Still averse to Christi-SCAM-ity, I go a few years later. As a freshman
in high school, I tried eroding those hang-ups. I figure I had made
about half progress, and wouldn't you know. My grandparents made
another idiotic decision--they found this girl that was, it turns out,
also estimated half Jewish! That put the kabosh on any further
progress, and all my grandparents were obsessed about was my getting
somewhere with that kike. I don't think the kike intended it to get
sexual--merely to put a plug in the way so I couldn't attract legitimate
members of the opposite sex (i.e., Gentiles). Again, no way to defend
myself. Again, no way of knowing she was a kike (just "a reading
disability"). I had an uneasy feeling about this girl, even above and
beyond a mere relapse of hang-ups from before.

The next 3 years were wasted on that. My grandparents wanted me with
this half-Jew, and they made some effort (for instance, my teaching her
to read and she teaching me to dance, which would have been a complete
Disaster). In the end, the closest I ever came to going out with this
fucker was when I was playing in a video arcade, she came in, and I
whooped her ass on Defender by a factor of getting more than 100 times
better a score.

Not that this was enough. Influence from this fucker followed me into
college--her real intent was a complete success in keeping the opposite
sex out of my life. Each time I returned from college for Christmas
vacation, my grandparents were more interested in my seeing that fucker
than in anything else--aside the Defender Disaster, I was able to dodge
that (probably because she, as a kike, didn't like Christmas as much as
I did).

Going beyond there, the angels from all this (not to mention angels that
were intent on my damnation right from before birth and did all their
preparation work to that end) somehow got me into that Joke-hova witless
religion. Despite that they are harshly against magick of any kind, I
believe the magick from the kikes I was exposed to (because of external
authorities in both cases), the angels around me, and even the hounders
that are assigned to hound the flock in the congregations of witlesses
all conspired to totally trash my soul. Ultimately, right hand path
struck out--and I learned by doing research on other xian churches that
they are not much better than the joke-hova witlesses (milder
enforcement, that was about it). None had answers, and all had work for
me to do in Nigeria to piss away my life. No solutions.

Eventually, I was researching reasons to NOT go back to right-hand path.
I found Joy of Satan in fairly short order doing that--the right hand
path had its chance, and bombed it totally. And I realized that I was
not going to be able to fix the damage to my soul (and the damage is
extreme, between emotionally abusive parents, those joke-hova's
witlesses, and exposure to those filthy kikes because of parents,
grandparents, and/or teachers, along with not being able to get involved
with the opposite sex to the point where the hang-ups can be exposed and
undermined). If even Father Satan can't fix this, I am probably just
plain too far gone and/or the angels are just too much and they are
ruining everything as fast as Satan and His Demons can work.

Now, if only I had found Father Satan about 9 1/2 months before I was
born so I could use black magick on my parents to punish them
immediately for abuse, give my teacher bad luck on the spot for putting
me with that half-kike in 5th grade, give my grandparents extreme bad
luck for pushing the half-kike on me at the end of the 9th grade that
fucked up my undermining of the hang-ups, and make the joke-hova's
witlesses that snagged me run into severe bad luck directly after
calling on me, maybe my soul wouldn't be in such a horrible state of
disrepair. And maybe Father Satan would have had a much easier time
preventing the problem or fixing a little problem instead of a whopper.

Hail Satan!

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Tbere are two types of people, those who were had a background in the occult since they were little kids, and others like me who had no experience but something "clicked" on them in a specific point of their lives and drew them in the occult in general and SS, bringing back either suppressed memories or suppressed past life experiences. But there's a common characteristic, both found that xianity was not for them and was rather negative than positive.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:


I guess most of us have all had a backround or interest in the occult before finding Satan.




------------------------------
On Thu, Sep 6, 2012 9:17 PM EDT lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum.
Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ.
Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE
FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Allison P]

Yes, Cobra is right, Brother. This IS fixable. Don't ever think it
isn't, or the fucking angels have won already. You should do the
severing link from HP Vovim Baghie. That helps, and also the working
that Cobra talked about. Stay strong! We and the Gods are always here
for you. Hail Father Satan always!

On 9/6/12, hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:
Do this here and don't think anything is irreversible because its not
brother. You just need to fight against it, no matter how much tyranny and
helplessness or sadness it brings upon you. Do your daily meditations
rentlessly and ruthlessly, aside from that, do that 40 day working here:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/40921

I guarantee you [because in my experience it worked] in the days to come you
will be extremely happy and absolved from all this dross you may feel. Be
strong and you will be happy by being strong. Stay strong and feel free to
talk because we're all here to support each other and reach better levels of
existence. My childhood was full of half-kikes too and people that only
dragged me back and caused me problems. Especially people close to my
family. Don't observe the damage done to you, we must all seek our Warrior
within that doesn't age, doesn't die and doesn't surrender! You can do this.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "enemyofjezzuz" <denniswhicher@...
wrote:



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666"
<hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would
be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan,
so we can promote Satanism better.



What did it for me was that I developed a strange hatred for the xian
religion one day. That was way before the Internet, and there was no
way I could find the information like I can today. Later, I got a
catalog from a magic supply company, hoping to learn to practice magic.
Of course, what I got from that company was plastic shit that was barely
effective as a trick, let alone anything with real magick.

Around 14 months after I developed my initial hatred for
Christi-SCAM-ity, one of my teachers had this idiotic idea of putting me
with a classmate that was half Jewish. (I didn't have any way of
knowing the fucker was half Jewish at the time--I only know I had a
strange association with him and the xian religion). Not knowing any
better, I decided to "give it a try", and it was a whopper of a mistake.
About a month later, the hang-ups with the opposite sex began. (At
least now I know that half kikes are extremely dangerous.) This took
several years to erode, even after the scumbag was gone (moved out of
town) the next year.

Still averse to Christi-SCAM-ity, I go a few years later. As a freshman
in high school, I tried eroding those hang-ups. I figure I had made
about half progress, and wouldn't you know. My grandparents made
another idiotic decision--they found this girl that was, it turns out,
also estimated half Jewish! That put the kabosh on any further
progress, and all my grandparents were obsessed about was my getting
somewhere with that kike. I don't think the kike intended it to get
sexual--merely to put a plug in the way so I couldn't attract legitimate
members of the opposite sex (i.e., Gentiles). Again, no way to defend
myself. Again, no way of knowing she was a kike (just "a reading
disability"). I had an uneasy feeling about this girl, even above and
beyond a mere relapse of hang-ups from before.

The next 3 years were wasted on that. My grandparents wanted me with
this half-Jew, and they made some effort (for instance, my teaching her
to read and she teaching me to dance, which would have been a complete
Disaster). In the end, the closest I ever came to going out with this
fucker was when I was playing in a video arcade, she came in, and I
whooped her ass on Defender by a factor of getting more than 100 times
better a score.

Not that this was enough. Influence from this fucker followed me into
college--her real intent was a complete success in keeping the opposite
sex out of my life. Each time I returned from college for Christmas
vacation, my grandparents were more interested in my seeing that fucker
than in anything else--aside the Defender Disaster, I was able to dodge
that (probably because she, as a kike, didn't like Christmas as much as
I did).

Going beyond there, the angels from all this (not to mention angels that
were intent on my damnation right from before birth and did all their
preparation work to that end) somehow got me into that Joke-hova witless
religion. Despite that they are harshly against magick of any kind, I
believe the magick from the kikes I was exposed to (because of external
authorities in both cases), the angels around me, and even the hounders
that are assigned to hound the flock in the congregations of witlesses
all conspired to totally trash my soul. Ultimately, right hand path
struck out--and I learned by doing research on other xian churches that
they are not much better than the joke-hova witlesses (milder
enforcement, that was about it). None had answers, and all had work for
me to do in Nigeria to piss away my life. No solutions.

Eventually, I was researching reasons to NOT go back to right-hand path.
I found Joy of Satan in fairly short order doing that--the right hand
path had its chance, and bombed it totally. And I realized that I was
not going to be able to fix the damage to my soul (and the damage is
extreme, between emotionally abusive parents, those joke-hova's
witlesses, and exposure to those filthy kikes because of parents,
grandparents, and/or teachers, along with not being able to get involved
with the opposite sex to the point where the hang-ups can be exposed and
undermined). If even Father Satan can't fix this, I am probably just
plain too far gone and/or the angels are just too much and they are
ruining everything as fast as Satan and His Demons can work.

Now, if only I had found Father Satan about 9 1/2 months before I was
born so I could use black magick on my parents to punish them
immediately for abuse, give my teacher bad luck on the spot for putting
me with that half-kike in 5th grade, give my grandparents extreme bad
luck for pushing the half-kike on me at the end of the 9th grade that
fucked up my undermining of the hang-ups, and make the joke-hova's
witlesses that snagged me run into severe bad luck directly after
calling on me, maybe my soul wouldn't be in such a horrible state of
disrepair. And maybe Father Satan would have had a much easier time
preventing the problem or fixing a little problem instead of a whopper.

Hail Satan!

 

[Kait Jordan]

My ex boyfriend had a friend who was into Satanism. It wasn't proper Satanism though, he had a lot of things mixed up. Curious, I looked into it though. At first, I looked at the CoS site then I continued to find random pages from the JoS website as I googled things about it. Then, eventually, both me and my ex boyfriend the dedication ritual from the JoS. Then we moved in together, but he leaned more towards LaVeyen and I went for Spiritual Satanism. So until him and I broke up a year later, I hadn't practised any sort of meditation or anything like that. But after all that was over, I decided to get back into it. And now, here I am. 
Also, unlike most of you, I had no interest in the occult or anything like that before finding this. I was completely new to all of this, but it just seemed right. So I went with it. Because of that though, I do struggle with it a bit, but I'm getting there, 
Hail Satan

On Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 7:34 PM, hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

  I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Mage]

Very cool story.
Inspiring.
Hail Satan

On Sep 6, 2012, at 7:17 PM, "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

  I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[kanemohrra]

Interesting. i decided to deticate after I found JOS six years ago after looking up trying to summon demons. I had been interested in amgic ever since I was a kid. It's quite funny how a kid who thinks anime is sort of like magic starts to relize that it exists yet doesn't know how to find resources. I started looking when I was sixteen.

Ave Satanas!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "nico.carlton" <nico.carlton@... wrote:

I found Satan through researching for the truth. First, I researched a cure for my asthma. Found it. Cured it. Next, I started researching who was behind the troubles of the World. After a month or three, I found Joy of Satan and I have been with the Master God ever since. I asked to 'meet' him and while I was walking to school a 17 year old blonde guy appeared literally out of no where at a busy intersection I was walking through to get to school. It suddenly hit me that this was Satan, that was the sign I had been asking for the previous night.


P.S. Every one read Mein Kampf!!

 

[siscool397]

I was in highschool when he came to me I was interested in telekinesis more then finishing hishschool at the time because all the teachers were doing a lousy job and my mom was constantly bugging me while she was depressed and stupid. nevertheless I was interested in egyption mummies and ufos since I was small and I saw ghosts in my room 3 different times. I read the telekinesis book by katlem gibson and did not move anything with my mind successfully, I did finish the focus excersizes and was able to completely clear my mind. now I had prayed to god many times by that age and got no answer and no help and I figured he just didnt care. it was then I asked myself questions about satan like is he really a bad entity? and I wanted direction so I found the jos website and edited the commitmint prayer to my likeing and with as much respect as possible. read it and for two weeks nothing happend and then one night coming out of a dream im guessing satan pulled my astral body under my bed and suspended itand started talking to me in a demonic tone he said things fast and 4 or 5 words were long one of them was perception and then I got scared because of his voice and he let me come back to my body when I got my emotions in check it was clear he was trying to help and he was giving me advise on more then one thing but the only one thing I did understand was that he told me that weed messes up my perception. it made me feel better about myself and everything else and I hope It happends again. im not sure it will but after I open all my chakras and get better at astral travel ill summon him again for advise. I hope to develop a relationchip with him or a demon or both in the future I just dont think im able to communicate with them effectivly enough now in order to do so. hail satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[ninja2skilled]

I felt drawn to an imagine board that was related to paranormal things i found the things they discussed to be silly and not real like demons being evil succubuses and silly rituals but i knew i was there for a reason i would go there everyday looking for something and after about a week or so of waiting i found it. Someone was advertising JoS and i read it for a few hours and dedicated the next day, knew it was the right decision never second guessed it didn't even have to think about it i KNEW it was the right thing. I've never cared about the christian church I never even knew it was a big thing as a kid was just something people went to on sundays. lol, never understood why people were so scared of hell either if they really were bad people they would go and that god shouldnt be so juvenile as to send good people to hell so i never worried about it. I was always kind of spiritual as a kid drawn to occult things always knew they were real in some form just that people didn't know how to do it properly at the moment so people disregarded it, alot of this set me apart from most people, but im glad i have a place now in satanism

HAIL SATAN!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Timothy1]

I have always been spiritually inclined all my life. I did have new-age beliefs a while back but that changed when I woke up in a light trance one day and saw an immensely powerful being come into my room and saturate it with what I can describe as an intense yet calming energy. I tried to get up and get a better look but as I was a serious newbie, I felt the energies of the being connect with mine and it forced me to fall back into bed, momentarily paralysed from the power.


Not long after, I 'accidentally' stumbled onto the joyofsatan website and the rest is history. P.S I have always had an open mind to all possiblities in the world, a sort of 'this can't possibly just be it' sorta thinking. I had also felt as though there had been many great injustices done to the world in the past but I couldn't put my finger on what till now.

Lucius O

HAIL SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[krazymuthauka]

When I was around 18, in the Summer of 2009, I noticed that my premonitions were becoming more vivid and my agnostic beliefs were not satisfying me.

I was hungry for answers and purpose.
I was also tasting and experiencing death in different ways.
I was playing around on the computer with little "test your psychic level" web games then I asked myself where these powers come from and how to enhance them.

I did more research and stumbled across information on the psi ball. The instruction article I read alleged that it could take any individual any amount of time and practice to construct one. Ranging from one day to a couple weeks to be able to form one and feel it.
I tried it and on my first try it was formed. I REALLY felt it. It was surprisingly strong for the first try.
Before I really didn't believe in psy powers even though I knew psy powers were very common in my family.

After a while I did more research and learned about the chakra system.

I learned all that I could from my limited sources and then decided to open one of my chakras. The 3rd eye.
I did the hand position, vibrated "ohm", focused on the spot on my forehead and within the minute I received my first ever conscious telepathic message.
It was a message from Lord Satan. The experience was more like I had knocked down a wall. like figuring out a password and there was a message in my brain that had been waiting for me since birth. He told me," Psychic gifts are real, Son. This is from me Satan your Father. Learn and grow, be happy." His energy was warm and I felt like I was swimming. My heart rate increased. I felt overwhelmed with positive energy and it would've been the first time that I would've shed tears of joy but I rejected Satanism.

That was when I knew there was a high power and Jehovah and his lies were just that, lies. After that day I rejected Xianity and any RHP words and sought to enlighten myself.
I constantly made psi balls and did more and more research on Satanism and learned meditations. I found the JoS site and filled my mind with their information.
I dedicated on November 22nd 2010.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[hoodedcobra666]

Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Dghd Dththjrt]

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[Keaton Shirley]

<td val[/IMG]For me, i was raised a christian. And as far as a childhood goes it was awful. I have completely blocked out any and all memories from my childhood. Im almost 17 and i have almost no memory of being younger than 13. I repressed these memories. But i have one distinct memory of my mother calling Satan evil, and magic. The minute she told me about witchcraft i was intrigued. But i stayed away from it because i just didnt know anything about it. Til this day none of my family knows im a Satanist.
I started out as a LaVeyan satanist a year ago. And then found JoS and read a lot on the site and switched to spiritual Satanism. I give LaVey credit, i still have a great respect for the man. His philosophy is genius. He wasnt afraid to tell people he was a "satanist". Even though he was misguided about Satan. I picked up on meditation and just in the last couple of months i have advanced in meditation extremely quickly. About a week ago my family had pissed me off to an exteme extent. And within a couple days they all had influenza. Except for me. A couple days ago this little shit of a guy was preaching in my school about jewsus. I sat there adding negative energy of all kinds into his aura and by the time he was done preaching he said he had a horrible headache and he felt like he was going to throw up. So from these experiences i can say that my aura is getting much stronger.
Thats pretty much my story. Hail Satan![/TD]

From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Thu, Sep 6, 2012 9:34:36 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!

[/TD]

 

[Mike1]

Well then, my turn.
I was fascinated by the "occult" for as long as I can remember. I bought my first book about the matter when I was 6 or 7. I was reading it over and over again, as at that time, I dind't have an access to the Internet and trying to get anything interesting in a public library in late 80s/early 90s was simply impossible (I guess it isn't much better even now). Even moreso, in a country that had a better things to worry about that filling libraries with "occult" material like Poland.As you can guess, it was a joo-twisted crap, revolving around "jewish kabballah", vibration "god-names" and crap like that. My family is xian (my father is more like crypto-xian) and that's the only thing I knew back then, so I studied this shiet as much as I could. I was trying to understand it, embrace it. Even though, for good or for bad, I didn't have any other sources. However, something always felt... bad, incomplete or simply weird. I couldn't even name it but the feeling was pretty easy to recognize. In one word, all that stuff didn't feel right. The only thing I learned back then, as a 7 or 8 years old kid, was that magic doesn't really exist, it is something as natural to humans as breathing, it's nothing supernatural or extraordinary. And another thig is that in order to do "magic", one only needs his/her own mind and will. That's a good reminder in light of what I've been reading later on, where everyone state that rituals (in general) are absolutely neccessary to any working. No ritual = no effect.
I guess my parents treated that fascination of mine with indulgence. To them, it might have been a temporary fixation, somthing that will pass harmlessly with age. I'm sure they never expected it to become what it is now, over 20 years later.I was always ridiculed and told that I'm too honourable and compassionate for my own good. Honour, compassion and helping others had always been very important to me, even though I didn't understand that back then. I simply was like that. However, under the pressure of society (family/school, telling me it's for my own good) I became sure that getting rid of all emotions and forsaking any honour is the way to. That I'll be better off as a fcking robot, a lying, deceiving, backstabbing rat. And sadly, I was really good at it. I guess I managed to convince my family that I'm an atheist or at the very least, a hardcore materialist. I guess I was dangerously close to that too. Imagine their shock when they finally discovered this year, that I'm a 100% Satanist. My father's reaction? "Eh Michal (with disdain), what happened to you out there?" My mother's reaction? "It's that Satanic internet!"Anyway, to the point: after failing to understand the joo-infested "occult", I came to realization that sonething basic is missing. I came to the conclusion that those "basics" are the ability to controll our own mind/thoughts, feeling/directing the energy, the need to having our chakras open. The neccessity of being able to concentrate/focus, visualize and enetr trance states. Most of the materials I've been reading were as if they were saying: "don't worry about trivialities, You'll be fine; simply do things exactly as we tell You and You'll get it all along the way". So much for the methodical approach :/
And then I've heared about meditation. Feeling that it's all those basics I'm missing, I've decided to give them a go. I wasn't able to do much but keep reading at that time (my high school years), mostly due to the fact that I was living in a campus and had no privacy whatsoever. Afetr graduation, I could finally dive into the world of meditation. It didn't go well, I guess I lacked the motivation and was expecting spectacular results. I was basically an empty shell by that time. What happens next has pretty close ties to religion.As a kid, back when I was so fascinated with the "occult", I also harboured a strange disgust, reclutance towards the religion. At first, it was only towards xianity, in time it enlargened to all major religions. We had, and kids still do have at schools, lessons of xian religion. At public schools of course. Priests and nuns hated me cause I was either causing unrest/havock during classes or I kept asking questions. Pretty unsettling questions (for them). Sunday masses? I had to be practically dragged to those or "convinced" otherwise. Always unpleasantly for me. I always had a strange sympathy towards Satan and Demons. I always felt They aren't treated fairly and that those tales about "god almighty" are nothing but that - just tales. these feeling were growing stronger through the whole time I was in primary school and were even amplified during my time in high school. I attended to the xian high school (run by the church) and that's where I got completely disgusted by the religion as a whole (I kept saying later that I became an atheist thanks to the xian high school). Being not able to cope with the illusions, I had really no other choice but to become an atheist. I was actively disproving and dismissing and ridiculing every aspect of religions and anything "supernatural" as well, like spirituality. I almost became that perfect robot I wrote above. Oddly enough, at the same time I kept reading about gnosis (which I totally abandoned later on as it is simply ridiculous) and about Satan and Satanism, which, instead of scaring/pushing me away, were strangely drawing me in deeper and deeper. Before I knew it, I have read La Veys writings (although concerning these, they always seemed to be somewhat empty and trivial, almost naive), Hitler's Mein Kampf and found myself digging through His speeches and decrees. That also connects to my antisemitism. For as long as I can remember, even before I started studying the "occult", I hated jews. Just that. Even though as a kid I couldn't give any reasons backing up my hate. Everybody around me knew that I'm a hardcore antisemite and as I grew older, they stopped any discussion about the matter because then, I could back up my words.Even though I almost was the "perfect me = a robot", even though I wasn't basically giving a damn about anything and anyone, I wasn't happy. I was just empty. And, as written above, even though I was trying so hard to be a perfect machine, I never stopped reading about ancient times and Satanism. My strange sympathy towards Satan never dissapeared either. So I was vegetating like that thorugh my academic times, readnig here and there from time to time, not really sure what to do with myself and not really caring about it either. As written above, after graduation from high school and getting into the university, I tried meditating but that didn't really work. I was too random with it and could skip even whole weeks. Now I think I was slowly waking up from my coma back then (that's the only fitting description of my state back then). By the time I was done with the University, I wasn't as lethargic and resigned as during it. I also started to read more and practice more. I even had some minor results. I started to believe that the whole xian concept of evil, it's very core is bs. Before I simply abandoned xianity (not that I was ever deep enough) and moved away from it; now I was logically and rationally debunking every aspect of it. For the first time I felt that major religions are not just tales for the retarded or a widespread folk tales. I realised that there may be something or someone sinister behind them.
And then I cape upon JoS website.
Now that was a real shock. I thought I was getting paranoid, conspiracy theories seems to be more and more believable. But while reading JoS, I realized that most of the "conspiracy theories" aren't something to laugh at. That these are actually pretty accurate. I also got my hatred towards jews reinforced. My suspicions about religions identified and named.And my connection to Father Satan realised. Maybe I was looking for something that would only confirm my suspicions and theories but nevertheless, I found truth, peace and my new family.I've found out who Satan really is, I was able to see through that boiling ocean of xian lies, I've found out how to become a God myself.
My feelings, the way I could feel as a child, are slowly coming back to me. I know that I don't *have* to do anything, I do anything because I want to. I feel more at peace, relaxed, not anxious all the time about everything and paranoid. I realised that I don't have to restrain myslef for the good of anyone. I'm starting to understand what true freedom is. Before, I'd be unable to cry or laugh openly, now I just do it - express myself. No more hiding, no more suffocating myself. This path isn't easy, I still have a lot of hangups and difficulties to overcome but it's a lot better to do anything than to sink down and drown in stagnation and hopelesness. If I didn't find JoS, I'm almost certain I'd die an old, bitter, burnt out and alone man's death.Even if I die now, at least I have the satisfaction that I didn't sit my whole life on my four letters; that I didn't surrender myslef to the flow and was struggling to do something for myself.That was doing my part against the joos and that I had even a small contribution to their demise and our Gentile victory.

 Hail Satan and all the true Gods!
Hail Gods of War! 
/Mike
From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 10:34 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Heath Humberson]

I am going to say this much, my interaction with Father Satan didnt start when I cried out for help and when he answered in the most unexpected way, I told him I needed help because I was going through a turmoil and other negativity, I asked sincerely for help in self empowerment and helping me better myself. He has been offering a lot of encouragement and confidence lately and I been noticing a LOT of Demonic activity. I dont know what it is but I been feeling like I am burning even though I am not sick or anything and I feel like I am on fire. I been doing healing on my chakras and I noticed a lot of difference. I also notice I get a tingling in my spine when a demon showed up. It is like just everything is opening up to me. So finally I dedicated myself to Father Satan and I have to say before I came to the JoS, the other forms of Satanism and all seems to be so confusing and conflicted I suppose its designed by the enemy to confuse and mislead which is a tool and I wouldnt be surprised, but I feel at home here. I feel at peace right where I am at. Nothing excites me more when I see Demonic activity happening around me and they also have a sense of humor which is an aspect I enjoy! I just wanted to give a big thanks to HPS Maxine and other HPS and HP for the things you give information about.
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[Zach Munch]

when was around 13 years old i started getting an interest in ghosts and demons, I thought about summoning demons and stuff like that. i didn't know how disrespectful this really was, even though i was trying to be respectful. but since i was not open to the occult i couldn't see anyone or hear anything, there were no signs of any entity. and because of that, my interest in the occult disappeared for a while.(i was a xian since i was born so this was very scary for me and was not something i was used to at all and i was still attending church of my own will, even though it was only because i had some friends that went there)
a little less than a year later though, i started questioning why i even went to church or prayed to "god" when my life was not as good as i wanted it to be and i never saw any signs (other than small coincidences) of this phony's existence.i even started thinking maybe Satan isn't evil. i started looking around online and somehow stumbled on a video or website that showed how many people that this "god" killed in his own book, needless to say i was shocked. then when it said that Satan has killed 2 people in the entire buybull my jaw dropped. why would my creator kill so many people that he himself created? ever since i asked myself that question i tried talking to Satan and felt like i was getting a response but i couldn't tell. so i called myself an atheist, even though i was okay with Satan being real and didn't believe he was evil, and i thought there was something out there that could answer my questions.
this paragraph got way too long so ill just summarize. when i was 16 years old my mom though me and a few friends were going into a vacant house so she called the police on us. really though, we went to a hiding spot in an alley to smoke some marijuana. after we finished we walked inbetween 2 houses to get to walmart quicker.(one of the houses was the vacant one my mom called the police about) three squad cars pull up directly in front of us about 30 feet away. my friend sprints the opposite direction, my other friend and i panic because of that and we start running too (only one of my friends had a reason to run and not the one that ran first) anyway the police eventually gave us tickets and took my two friends to jail because they were 17 and considered adults. the judge gave me community service and i was supposed to go to addicare, but my parents couldn't afford addicare so i had the "choice" to go to some bullshit baptist church and have counseling once a week for 20 weeks.
after the first 2 weeks a realized how jewsus crazy this lady was, so i wanted to play a little joke on her and tell her i'm a satanist. well i told my friend about this idea and he said i should make it more believable by looking up satanism online and reading a little about it, i thought it was a great idea, so i went home and searched the internet. one of the top 3 links was the JoS the name caught my attention so i read it first. i thought what i was reading was just some retarded 30 year old living in his parents basement thinking he could do magic tricks. but i tried to have an open mind, and eventually i read the entire homepage. when i was finished reading i thought to myself, what if this actually IS real? so i read a little more on the JoS and saw a few things i could try, and i tried them and felt something but i just didn't know what, so it made me want to try more meditations and eventually dedicate to out beloved, Father Satan.
i enjoyed reading all of your stories, so i thought id share mine. by the way im only 17 now and have nearly been a dedicated satanist for nearly a year, best year of my life.
hail father Satan and all gods of hell.

On Thu, Sep 6, 2012 at 11:22 PM, the_fire_starter666 <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

  Tbere are two types of people, those who were had a background in the occult since they were little kids, and others like me who had no experience but something "clicked" on them in a specific point of their lives and drew them in the occult in general and SS, bringing back either suppressed memories or suppressed past life experiences. But there's a common characteristic, both found that xianity was not for them and was rather negative than positive.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:


I guess most of us have all had a backround or interest in the occult before finding Satan.




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On Thu, Sep 6, 2012 9:17 PM EDT lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum.
Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ.
Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE
FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

The first thing I remember to do with the Occult is when I was 4 or 5 years old. My brother and I were watching TV and there was something to do with telekinesis on. It struck a chord in me and I asked him if it was real and he said yes. So I grabbed a small item on the table and tried it. I could feel something happening but I wasn't strong enough to do it. All my life I felt different, separate from everyone else, which became a sense of not belonging in this world, like I was the odd one out rather than what I know now, that all those who are without are the ones who don't belong here. I don't remember how it started exactly but in high school I made friends with this guy who had mastered being the misfit to the point where it gave him his place. He told me about Ki manipulation, which he had only just heard about and again it struck me. I began furiously researching it and I literally felt these little areas of my mind opening and spontaneous knowledge and understanding of it was popping open over and over. One night me and him were at a friend's place and I moved energy to make a ball of it between my hands (second time I had tried this) and even the people there who were adamant that it was nonsense could feel it and they got freaked out. I was very misguided, thinking it was all about doing little tricks like this and that I could be like a Dragonball Z fighter with enough practice! Not as powerful, but doing similar things. I played around with it, making these energy balls with both hands, one hand, making them hot, cold, magnetic etc but never had the knowledge to properly develop. It opened a high degree of natural psychic ability too. But being in a xtian indoctrination camp (high school) I was held back and the scum angles etc instilled hang-ups and blocks and I kept procrastinating until I lost all that drive to properly commit to developing this. My research led me to magick too. I remember getting a book online that started out with saying "Magick is the art and science of causing changes to come about in accordance with the will'. I felt like "this is IT. This is me, THIS is what is missing" etc. I immediately understood that it is all about raising and programming energy and has nothing to do with the stupid "spells" floating around online. I again found I had much natural ability, understanding and power but the enemy caused me blood freezing terror with the sick things they made me experience. Being steeped in xtianity for years I felt this forced in blame towards Satan and stopped "messing around" with Magick. My interest in Energy Development didn't stop though even though I was constantly fought for it. I did some cool things like launching a blast of energy at an object and causing it to move as if physically struck (I was a Martial Arts freak), and also successfully performed telekinesis once, and others. I also had a drug problem though so eventually this all got left behind. I had come across the JoyOfSatan website during my research and immediately knew it contained the most advanced and legitimate knowledge and instruction out there on Energy Development. I felt on one side I had found my home but the enemy shat all over me with intense terror for thinking it was good. This is where severe attacks began. From here I was torn to shreds by the fucking worthless cunts I was trying so hard to believe in and serve. The more I went to them, the worse became all I was trying to fix. I saw it for how sick and evil it is when I was sent to a xtian "rehab" centre and suffered abuse that would make you vomit to hear about. After that I was lost, but I had finally turned viciously against xtianity. I searched and searched till it made me sick, but I couldn't stop. I HAD TO find the truth. I KNEW beyond any doubt I was meant for something and that what I thought I'd find with the piece of shit xtian "god" was waiting for me, calling me and that I had no hope if I didn't find it. I came up with my own theories while high as fuck, I tried today's watered down enemy-infested "buddhism" after another enemy trick (a very eerie and "supernatural" experience) but all of it was empty and brought only despair. Things got worse and worse. I was living with my mother who is a possessed puppet for the enemy, corrupted and sick to her core from them. They worked through her to drain me, bind me, torment me and try push me to suicide. The more I moved away from their lies the more they attacked. Eventually out of anger and searing hatred, in rebellion and "FUCK YOU" defiance, the thought popped into my head: JoyOfSatan, do it, take the leap into the enemy of my enemy, go against this destructive evil sick plague to the utmost extreme. I began reading to "think about it" but really, I had made the decision already. I was just pushing myself to go against the indoctrination of xitainity. I chose a Sunday to dedicate, while all the assholes where at chuch, as it was mostly about fighting back for me and this I felt added an extra "Go fuck yourself" to my defying the enemy.
Even though I didn't really know what it was about, and I chose it because I knew only Satan could help me end the torment I was in, and because of my hatred and anger at the enemy, I was unreservedly accepted, and it was the best decision I ever made. The relief, the warmth, the love, the power of self for the first time in my life. I was very scared doing the dedication, but when I burnt the prayer it all dissolved. I just felt like "Hey, My Son, it's ok now. Warm welcome to True Love, to what you've been craving all your life. You're home."
I am moved to tears as I type this. Every aspect of my life has improved so tremendously. I am so far from the aching emptiness of my past that I can barely conceive what it's like to feel that way. I have overcome, learned, grown in every way, so much, and all because of My Almighty and Beloved Father Satan. No words can convey the suffering of my past, and that is nothing compared to all that Satan is and has done for me. I wish I could do justice to describing what He has done for me but it simply is not possible with words. I only hope I make Him proud to call me His Own.
Haha, I just remembered something else. All my life, since I was a kid exploring my city, whenever I got lost or couldn't find a place and got to where I had to accept it, my instinct was always simply to turn left and try again. And it always worked. Turns out it was no different with my Spiritual search, the Left Hand Path is the only one for me, and I found my way home

HAIL FATHER SATAN, ETERNALLY AND INFINITELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Jessica Sisk]

When I was a child, I was always drawn more to the occult side of things. When I was younger I had very few dreams that I could remember, but the that I do is very strange. I was walking on my cousins front lawn and fell down the side into the woods, but I didn't stop falling and I feel into what most would think of as the xian version of 'hell'. I was in nothing but a night gown and had a Teddy bear with me. I was being chased by this big evil looking thing and then I tripped and dropped my Teddy. The next thing I know is my Teddy is turning into this gorgeous man in shining white armor and he fights the monster and defeats it! He then comes over to me and smiles and I woke up!

After a few years, things get back to normal and I just think of it as a mere dream even though it felt so real. My aunt tried taking me to church a few times because my mom worked all the time, but I had really bad anger issues and I would always get worse at church so she soon gave up on that. When I reached high school my anger was back and full blast because my mom had moved me someplace I did not want to be with a "man" that I hated with my whole being! I always really liked anime and manga, and its because of that, that I started thinking that Demons are really cool. It was also because of that, that I read up on Shintoism and became Shinto! I stayed that for a few years and then met a guy that convinced me to go back to xianity, so I did and I didn't really see him a lot after that.

I have always been depressed, to the point they wanted me on 3 different depression meds and an energy med, all when I was only 16. Well, soon after I told my doctor 'screw you I aint takin no more,' and I didn't after that, I also have not been back to her sence. And I have never felt better!

After my graduation from high school, I started to look for work more and I had little luck about it. My friends that were xians asked me come to their church and I agreed, thinking 'well I haven't been in years what could it hurt?' Well they turned out to be penticostals. So I tried it and it only lasted a week, if that long. I like pants and I want to be a make up artist. What good would being a make up artist be when I'm not supposed to wear it? But sadly while I was there I found a job, and still being under xian mind 'control'(I don't know if that would be the right word for it or not), I thought that it was jewfuckva that had helped me get it. Ofcourse now I know it wasn't. Anyway, I got away from that and after 7 months I quiet that job(not the smartest thing to do, but we all make mistakes) and started to search for another, again with no luck.

After a year of no job, still living with my moms dumb ass husband, and trying to get help from that Dee Dee Dee that calls himself a "god", I quickly became depressed and started to wonder if it would be fine to just die and go on to the life after this (I have always believed in reincarnation). So always wanting to meet a demon for real before I died, I decided to try and find a way to summon one that would kill me. So I searched the net and the first thing that popped up on my bing search was Joy of Satan! I read the section on summoning a demon and I had become hooked. And I just kept thinking 'what is this, what does this mean?' So, I continued to read the site and learn what they all meant. I read the exposing Christianity site and I just knew that this is what I had been searching for my whole life! Even when I was in that pent church, I was trying to listen to a sermon and I just had this one thought that kept coming to me, "what if this is all wrong? What if we are worshiping the wrong one? What if Satan is the good guy and this guy is the bad one? And what if these pastor all know it?" But I have always had connection to the spiritual and I have always been very drawn to yoga and meditation, I just have never had the "motivation" to do it. But now that I have found the trueth and I am doing my meditations, I feel so much better. I am looking for a job and I am doing meditations to attract one. I am looking to move with a friend that I have also introduced to SS and she is thinking about becoming one as well. When I get my place it will be like a new start to a new life and I well also have enough privacy to do something like a dedication ritual! When I do my dedication, I want it to signify the beginning of my new life as a true, dedicated Spiritual Satanist!

HAIL SATAN!!
HAIL NEBIROS!!!!
HAIL THE TRUE GODS OF HELL!!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Fri, 07 Sep 2012 01:17:07 -0000To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
  I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Magus Immortalis]

We don't summon Lord Satan.
From: siscool397 <boomer_397@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 10:23:52 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I was in highschool when he came to me I was interested in telekinesis more then finishing hishschool at the time because all the teachers were doing a lousy job and my mom was constantly bugging me while she was depressed and stupid. nevertheless I was interested in egyption mummies and ufos since I was small and I saw ghosts in my room 3 different times. I read the telekinesis book by katlem gibson and did not move anything with my mind successfully, I did finish the focus excersizes and was able to completely clear my mind. now I had prayed to god many times by that age and got no answer and no help and I figured he just didnt care. it was then I asked myself questions about satan like is he really a bad entity? and I wanted direction so I found the jos website and edited the commitmint prayer to my likeing and with as much respect as possible. read it and for two weeks nothing happend and then one night coming out of a dream im guessing satan pulled my astral body under my bed and suspended itand started talking to me in a demonic tone he said things fast and 4 or 5 words were long one of them was perception and then I got scared because of his voice and he let me come back to my body when I got my emotions in check it was clear he was trying to help and he was giving me advise on more then one thing but the only one thing I did understand was that he told me that weed messes up my perception. it made me feel better about myself and everything else and I hope It happends again. im not sure it will but after I open all my chakras and get better at astral travel ill summon him again for advise. I hope to develop a relationchip with him or a demon or both in the future I just dont think im able to communicate with them effectivly enough now in order to do so. hail satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Justine Pena]

I've been drawn to witchcraft ever since I  was a small child. The first time my mom had caught me writing down a "death spell" that focussed on my dad when I was about 6 or 7 (which was complete nonsense at the time since I had no knowledge of true witchcraft)  and she had a talk with me, telling me that witchcraft wasn't real. My mother also disliked the church. when I was small, the adults and children during church would be separated. The lady who taught the children about jewsus in a completely different part of the church was very cruel and cold to me. She would yell at me when she caught me looking at the ground or somewhere else when she was lecturing about how "jewsus loves you" (needless to say I was FAR from interested in what she was talking about) when the class/church session was over she let us out through a different exit (instead of letting us back into the main part of the church to reunite with our parents)  There were many MANY people outside of the church, talking standing around..etc and there was no sight of my mother anywhere. I began to cry and stayed in that one spot hoping she would find me. The next Sunday My mother took me to church and kept me WITH her throughout the session.(I ended up falling asleep because I didn't understand priest and cause he was really boring) and because I wasn't with the other children being brainwashed, the priest at one point ridiculed my mother in front of EVERYONE because I was with her and not at the kiddy session. Ever since then we stopped going to church (she also left because they did not allow her to celebrate halloween, her favorite holiday)
And even before that, I DESPISED christianity. Every time I saw a cross or some jewsus figurine I would make a face at it,stick out my tongue at it, or even spit on it if no one was looking.  I grew up in a forest area completely surrounded by nature (which Is why today I am very drawn to nature and natural things. I was also an only-child which gave me the opportunity to think outside the box and about "life" in private) and I remember at a very young age (6 or 7) looking up to the sky, and cursing out jewsus ( yes, cussing him out at my age lol) Of course I hated jewsus for a completely stupid reason (He didn't "create" me with blonde hair and blue eyes) Around 4th grade when I was 10 (I was already a self-claimed atheist.)  I was caught by the teacher writing a note to my friend about putting a "spell" on a classmate that hated me. The teacher had contacted my mom and I had to make up some BS excuse that I meant to write "sell" not "spell" because I was "selling pencils to classmates that didn't have any" lol. around when I was maybe 11 I painted a picture of the Temple of Zeus.I proudly showed it to my mother who said "No.. honey..we don't believe in that." which completely shattered me inside. I had really did my best on that painting. And around 13 or so, While I was eating oranges I saved the peels, cut them into the needed sizes and shapes and glued them onto a piece of cardboard to make a picture (Kinda like a mosaic, I was very artistic and creative) I didn't know at the time what picture I was gonna create, then and idea suddenly popped into my head. I could make an orange peel mosaic of the Egyptian God Anubis. I had all the right shaped pieces of orange peel for it, so thats what I did. It was very well-done and I was proud of my work, even though my mother was impressed with my work,I was once again shattered by her saying we "did not believe in that"..
In high school since I had a bit more freedom (and the internet) I began to explore the occult and witchcraft. I began my practices as a wiccan, Which was okay at the time but I left that path within a few months since I hated the "harm none" and "3 fold law" crap. If  I were to be attacked I wanted to be able to fight back and defend myself. not just turn the other cheek like dirty christians do. Later I began to take an interest in Satanism, but for the "spooky" factor. and all the "cool" kids wore pentagrams (I was a bit ignorant at the time) I later  came upon the JoS website. I really liked what I was reading and agreed with it fully. I dedicated and unfortunately at the time was COMPLETELY lazy in meditating, the very few times i did. That changed however, I am more dedicated than ever since I got an urge to join the e-groups. I now meditate for 30 minutes-1 hour daily. Although I still have a long way to go I try my best to empower my self and participate in the group rituals we have. In the end, I found that Spiritual Satanism is a TRILLION INFINITY times better than what I was originally seeking. I am still very very happy and thankful that I can be apart of such a great group

 

[Mage]

That is a very moving story, Jessica.
You are definitely on the right path now. 

On Sep 7, 2012, at 2:48 PM, "Jessica Sisk" <jess_sisk@... wrote:

  When I was a child, I was always drawn more to the occult side of things. When I was younger I had very few dreams that I could remember, but the that I do is very strange. I was walking on my cousins front lawn and fell down the side into the woods, but I didn't stop falling and I feel into what most would think of as the xian version of 'hell'. I was in nothing but a night gown and had a Teddy bear with me. I was being chased by this big evil looking thing and then I tripped and dropped my Teddy. The next thing I know is my Teddy is turning into this gorgeous man in shining white armor and he fights the monster and defeats it! He then comes over to me and smiles and I woke up!

After a few years, things get back to normal and I just think of it as a mere dream even though it felt so real. My aunt tried taking me to church a few times because my mom worked all the time, but I had really bad anger issues and I would always get worse at church so she soon gave up on that. When I reached high school my anger was back and full blast because my mom had moved me someplace I did not want to be with a "man" that I hated with my whole being! I always really liked anime and manga, and its because of that, that I started thinking that Demons are really cool. It was also because of that, that I read up on Shintoism and became Shinto! I stayed that for a few years and then met a guy that convinced me to go back to xianity, so I did and I didn't really see him a lot after that.

I have always been depressed, to the point they wanted me on 3 different depression meds and an energy med, all when I was only 16. Well, soon after I told my doctor 'screw you I aint takin no more,' and I didn't after that, I also have not been back to her sence. And I have never felt better!

After my graduation from high school, I started to look for work more and I had little luck about it. My friends that were xians asked me come to their church and I agreed, thinking 'well I haven't been in years what could it hurt?' Well they turned out to be penticostals. So I tried it and it only lasted a week, if that long. I like pants and I want to be a make up artist. What good would being a make up artist be when I'm not supposed to wear it? But sadly while I was there I found a job, and still being under xian mind 'control'(I don't know if that would be the right word for it or not), I thought that it was jewfuckva that had helped me get it. Ofcourse now I know it wasn't. Anyway, I got away from that and after 7 months I quiet that job(not the smartest thing to do, but we all make mistakes) and started to search for another, again with no luck.

After a year of no job, still living with my moms dumb ass husband, and trying to get help from that Dee Dee Dee that calls himself a "god", I quickly became depressed and started to wonder if it would be fine to just die and go on to the life after this (I have always believed in reincarnation). So always wanting to meet a demon for real before I died, I decided to try and find a way to summon one that would kill me. So I searched the net and the first thing that popped up on my bing search was Joy of Satan! I read the section on summoning a demon and I had become hooked. And I just kept thinking 'what is this, what does this mean?' So, I continued to read the site and learn what they all meant. I read the exposing Christianity site and I just knew that this is what I had been searching for my whole life! Even when I was in that pent church, I was trying to listen to a sermon and I just had this one thought that kept coming to me, "what if this is all wrong? What if we are worshiping the wrong one? What if Satan is the good guy and this guy is the bad one? And what if these pastor all know it?" But I have always had connection to the spiritual and I have always been very drawn to yoga and meditation, I just have never had the "motivation" to do it. But now that I have found the trueth and I am doing my meditations, I feel so much better. I am looking for a job and I am doing meditations to attract one. I am looking to move with a friend that I have also introduced to SS and she is thinking about becoming one as well. When I get my place it will be like a new start to a new life and I well also have enough privacy to do something like a dedication ritual! When I do my dedication, I want it to signify the beginning of my new life as a true, dedicated Spiritual Satanist!

HAIL SATAN!!
HAIL NEBIROS!!!!
HAIL THE TRUE GODS OF HELL!!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T<hr>From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] Date: Fri, 07 Sep 2012 01:17:07 -0000To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
  I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Samy]

[/IMG]</var>  Well, Like many of us here, I had an unbelivable interest in the occult. I was about 6, in school, in Saudi Arabia (the jewslime vatican), I would run away from their prayers, or I would at least try, they would always pull me back, as they had guards at the main doors in school. Despite their extreme pulling abilities, I somehow was a little stronger and would escape, only to face the consequences the next day. I always asked my older brother about Satan, and the Demons, he would reply "yes, they are transparent like glass" what an idiot. He also told me that a guy saw a Demon, then I would daydream the whole day about meeting a Demon.  I can clearly recall having terrifying dreams about their allah. I can remember it was my sister (my closest childhood friend, which caused a lot of heat with what was supposed to be a family to me) and I, getting pulled through a door by a grey skeleton ghost thing, and I would call it allah. I would also imagine allah as a horrible ugly hovering black mist that wanted everyone punished. Funny though, my Indonesian nanny stated that I would become a great messenger/warrior in pisslam. I wish I could find her, I would slap her. After my miserable, cold, hollow childhood years passed, we moved permenantley to Ireland. I was about 10, and confused, feeling something is terribly, terribly wrong with everything. I met the man they call my father, and was disgusted. He didn't resemble me at all, especially the fact that I am much more fairer than him. I began to hate everything. The feeling of lonliness and emptiness become more stronger. I was feeling like I was in a dreaam, all of it.  My interest in the occult intensified as I become older. I would spend hours a day watching clips and videos from a website of Demons, UFO's and ghosts. I became obsessed. I would go even further, to the point were I would make room for ghosts in my bed at bedtime, and meditate in a lotus position to "call upon ghosts" lol. I can also remember I stumbled upon a website that gave you a free recipe for a "spell" if you subscribe. And guess what?? I did lol. I wanted to change my eye colour, and the supposed "high priestess" gave me some stupid, foolish words to mummble. Keep in mind, I was like 11 lol, so I got a tiny birthday candleand painted it orange (the colour I wanted my eyes to turn lol), sat down in my sister's toilet, and while taking a crap, I tried the "spell". Do I REALLY need to tell you what happened?? lol. I can also remember calling my brother names while he was praying as to distract him lol, and it always worked  So, By that time, I got my iPod touch, which means I can access the internet. I stumbled on the church of Satan while researching Satanism. I read the homepage quote or whatever, looked at the picture of the masked retards, and slapped myself. I then began to get into the jooish kabalah. Of course , all I got was the usual joo shit, nothing spiritual whatsoever. Actually, there was nothing to begin with, just a wear a red string around your left wrist and I was like WTF??   By the age of 13, we moved town, everything changed again, and I fell deeper into depression. Still, Satanism was on my mind. I was researching Demons, and crashed into kikapedia. It was then when the enemy attacks began, their usual useless and foolish technique..... istilling deep fear. I was looking through the pictures and was frightened, but I looked through them all , all 72, and was like WTF???? I kept on researching. I had this crap of selling my soul to Satan in my mind, but it never felt right. And what do ya know??? I got to the JoS. The next few days, my eyes were glued to the iPod screen, literally. I was in the dark all night long, page by page, I read everything. A month later, I think, I Dedicated, nobody around and with a tealight candle. when the paper burned, I felt like an elephant being lifted off of my shoulders. So today, I am advancing, My 2 little brothers have Dedicated themselves after 2 years of me not telling anyone. I told my sister, and......... Yes, my mother found out.  WHAT I DID, I DO NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The reason I did this was because I knew of their reaction. We weren't brought up in a religious home, as we had parents that are shit, which is a good thing, for me atleast lol. Know, I am happier than ever, I found the reason for everything, I found what I was looking for since I was a little boy.   HAIL SATAN!!!!HAIL AZAZEL!!!!HAIL ENLIL!!!!
From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, 7 September 2012, 7:59
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Mica Enriquez]

Here's a piece.      I guess when i was younger I truly did trust in god, but the feel of the church,and how empty the people seemed. I didn't like how much of a crutch religion was for people. (like the song jesus take the wheel). I felt like people like scape goating the devil for everything after a while and thought it was stupid, that people don't take responsibility for their actions. Not to mention I choked on something during mass one time too. All of the times when i begged and pleaded for change in my family situation, all the nights I cried,begging and pleading, for some comfort and received little to nothing. All of the pain, all of the scars, all of the blood, all of the thoughts of suicide, and feelings of alienation. I was so alone...and god was nowhere. Jesus was nowhere. Thinking of that stupid poem about the footsteps and how the guy was supposedly carried. There was only ever me. I rejected them, ( my family, jeebus, god, theism in general) and found new strength within myself. I chose not to. I grew the willpower to keep going on. Then I found father, and he helped me * ahem* 'pull myself up by my own bootstraps' and He kept me from that terrible word and from returning into that dark pit ever again. I found love, support, understanding that i could get nowhere else. though my clothes are still dark, I keep them as remembrance of my beginnings, as remembrance of the dark places I dwelled before and the one of many who helped me.Because of father I can honestly say that I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. I know the pain from my scars will never go away completely, but he helped me learn that these things will help shape me and give me strength in a way I never thought they could.
My love for him and all of the gods are immeasurable.
Hail Lucifer!Hail Agares!Hail Set!Hail Ereshkigal!Hail Nergal!Hail Azazel!



From: Magus Immortalis <magus.immortalis@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Friday, September 7, 2012 4:37 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  We don't summon Lord Satan.
From: siscool397 <boomer_397@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 10:23:52 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I was in highschool when he came to me I was interested in telekinesis more then finishing hishschool at the time because all the teachers were doing a lousy job and my mom was constantly bugging me while she was depressed and stupid. nevertheless I was interested in egyption mummies and ufos since I was small and I saw ghosts in my room 3 different times. I read the telekinesis book by katlem gibson and did not move anything with my mind successfully, I did finish the focus excersizes and was able to completely clear my mind. now I had prayed to god many times by that age and got no answer and no help and I figured he just didnt care. it was then I asked myself questions about satan like is he really a bad entity? and I wanted direction so I found the jos website and edited the commitmint prayer to my likeing and with as much respect as possible. read it and for two weeks nothing happend and then one night coming out of a dream im guessing satan pulled my astral body under my bed and suspended itand started talking to me in a demonic tone he said things fast and 4 or 5 words were long one of them was perception and then I got scared because of his voice and he let me come back to my body when I got my emotions in check it was clear he was trying to help and he was giving me advise on more then one thing but the only one thing I did understand was that he told me that weed messes up my perception. it made me feel better about myself and everything else and I hope It happends again. im not sure it will but after I open all my chakras and get better at astral travel ill summon him again for advise. I hope to develop a relationchip with him or a demon or both in the future I just dont think im able to communicate with them effectivly enough now in order to do so. hail satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[HPS Lydia]

You tried making your eyes orange? Children are adorable lol. I wanted purple eyes.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Samy <samiabbas66@... wrote:

I would like to start of by saying that, as usual, I knew this thread would start. I get this the whole time, and I am sure many Brothers and Sisters here get the same.
 
 
Well, Like many of us here, I had an unbelivable interest in the occult. I was about 6, in school, in Saudi Arabia (the jewslime vatican), I would run away from their prayers, or I would at least try, they would always pull me back, as they had guards at the main doors in school. Despite their extreme pulling abilities, I somehow was a little stronger and would escape, only to face the consequences the next day. I always asked my older brother about Satan, and the Demons, he would reply "yes, they are transparent like glass" what an idiot. He also told me that a guy saw a Demon, then I would daydream the whole day about meeting a Demon. 
 
I can clearly recall having terrifying dreams about their allah. I can remember it was my sister (my closest childhood friend, which caused a lot of heat with what was supposed to be a family to me) and I, getting pulled through a door by a grey skeleton ghost thing, and I would call it allah. I would also imagine allah as a horrible ugly hovering black mist that wanted everyone punished. Funny though, my Indonesian nanny stated that I would become a great messenger/warrior in pisslam. I wish I could find her, I would slap her.
 
After my miserable, cold, hollow childhood years passed, we moved permenantley to Ireland. I was about 10, and confused, feeling something is terribly, terribly wrong with everything. I met the man they call my father, and was disgusted. He didn't resemble me at all, especially the fact that I am much more fairer than him. I began to hate everything. The feeling of lonliness and emptiness become more stronger. I was feeling like I was in a dreaam, all of it.
 
My interest in the occult intensified as I become older. I would spend hours a day watching clips and videos from a website of Demons, UFO's and ghosts. I became obsessed. I would go even further, to the point were I would make room for ghosts in my bed at bedtime, and meditate in a lotus position to "call upon ghosts" lol. I can also remember I stumbled upon a website that gave you a free recipe for a "spell" if you subscribe. And guess what?? I did lol. I wanted to change my eye colour, and the supposed "high priestess" gave me some stupid, foolish words to mummble. Keep in mind, I was like 11 lol, so I got a tiny birthday candleand painted it orange (the colour I wanted my eyes to turn lol), sat down in my sister's toilet, and while taking a crap, I tried the "spell". Do I REALLY need to tell you what happened?? lol. I can also remember calling my brother names while he was praying as to distract him lol, and it always worked
 
So, By that time, I got my iPod touch, which means I can access the internet. I stumbled on the church of Satan while researching Satanism. I read the homepage quote or whatever, looked at the picture of the masked retards, and slapped myself. I then began to get into the jooish kabalah. Of course , all I got was the usual joo shit, nothing spiritual whatsoever. Actually, there was nothing to begin with, just a wear a red string around your left wrist and I was like WTF??  
 
By the age of 13, we moved town, everything changed again, and I fell deeper into depression. Still, Satanism was on my mind. I was researching Demons, and crashed into kikapedia. It was then when the enemy attacks began, their usual useless and foolish technique..... istilling deep fear. I was looking through the pictures and was frightened, but I looked through them all , all 72, and was like WTF???? I kept on researching. I had this crap of selling my soul to Satan in my mind, but it never felt right. And what do ya know??? I got to the JoS. The next few days, my eyes were glued to the iPod screen, literally. I was in the dark all night long, page by page, I read everything. A month later, I think, I Dedicated, nobody around and with a tealight candle. when the paper burned, I felt like an elephant being lifted off of my shoulders.
 
So today, I am advancing, My 2 little brothers have Dedicated themselves after 2 years of me not telling anyone. I told my sister, and......... Yes, my mother found out. 
 
WHAT I DID, I DO NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The reason I did this was because I knew of their reaction. We weren't brought up in a religious home, as we had parents that are shit, which is a good thing, for me atleast lol.
 
Know, I am happier than ever, I found the reason for everything, I found what I was looking for since I was a little boy.
  
 
HAIL SATAN!!!!
HAIL AZAZEL!!!!
HAIL ENLIL!!!!


________________________________
From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, 7 September 2012, 7:59
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]



 

Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "lydia_666@" <lydia_666@ wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum.
Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ.
Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE
FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Thanks for sharing as I always find it so interesting how others in other countries across the water from me found Satan.Here in the US its all the same for the most part.Not all but most of us were born in xtian familys and found out it was all BS so we ventured out into the occult.But I like to here how people in pisslam countries found Satan.So again thanks for sharing brother.


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From: Samy <samiabbas66@...;
To: [email protected] <[email protected];
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Sat, Sep 8, 2012 9:02:13 PM

<td val[/IMG]   [/IMG]</var>  Well, Like many of us here, I had an unbelivable interest in the occult. I was about 6, in school, in Saudi Arabia (the jewslime vatican), I would run away from their prayers, or I would at least try, they would always pull me back, as they had guards at the main doors in school. Despite their extreme pulling abilities, I somehow was a little stronger and would escape, only to face the consequences the next day. I always asked my older brother about Satan, and the Demons, he would reply "yes, they are transparent like glass" what an idiot. He also told me that a guy saw a Demon, then I would daydream the whole day about meeting a Demon.  I can clearly recall having terrifying dreams about their allah. I can remember it was my sister (my closest childhood friend, which caused a lot of heat with what was supposed to be a family to me) and I, getting pulled through a door by a grey skeleton ghost thing, and I would call it allah. I would also imagine allah as a horrible ugly hovering black mist that wanted everyone punished. Funny though, my Indonesian nanny stated that I would become a great messenger/warrior in pisslam. I wish I could find her, I would slap her. After my miserable, cold, hollow childhood years passed, we moved permenantley to Ireland. I was about 10, and confused, feeling something is terribly, terribly wrong with everything. I met the man they call my father, and was disgusted. He didn't resemble me at all, especially the fact that I am much more fairer than him. I began to hate everything. The feeling of lonliness and emptiness become more stronger. I was feeling like I was in a dreaam, all of it.  My interest in the occult intensified as I become older. I would spend hours a day watching clips and videos from a website of Demons, UFO's and ghosts. I became obsessed. I would go even further, to the point were I would make room for ghosts in my bed at bedtime, and meditate in a lotus position to "call upon ghosts" lol. I can also remember I stumbled upon a website that gave you a free recipe for a "spell" if you subscribe. And guess what?? I did lol. I wanted to change my eye colour, and the supposed "high priestess" gave me some stupid, foolish words to mummble. Keep in mind, I was like 11 lol, so I got a tiny birthday candleand painted it orange (the colour I wanted my eyes to turn lol), sat down in my sister's toilet, and while taking a crap, I tried the "spell". Do I REALLY need to tell you what happened?? lol. I can also remember calling my brother names while he was praying as to distract him lol, and it always worked  So, By that time, I got my iPod touch, which means I can access the internet. I stumbled on the church of Satan while researching Satanism. I read the homepage quote or whatever, looked at the picture of the masked retards, and slapped myself. I then began to get into the jooish kabalah. Of course , all I got was the usual joo shit, nothing spiritual whatsoever. Actually, there was nothing to begin with, just a wear a red string around your left wrist and I was like WTF??   By the age of 13, we moved town, everything changed again, and I fell deeper into depression. Still, Satanism was on my mind. I was researching Demons, and crashed into kikapedia. It was then when the enemy attacks began, their usual useless and foolish technique..... istilling deep fear. I was looking through the pictures and was frightened, but I looked through them all , all 72, and was like WTF???? I kept on researching. I had this crap of selling my soul to Satan in my mind, but it never felt right. And what do ya know??? I got to the JoS. The next few days, my eyes were glued to the iPod screen, literally. I was in the dark all night long, page by page, I read everything. A month later, I think, I Dedicated, nobody around and with a tealight candle. when the paper burned, I felt like an elephant being lifted off of my shoulders. So today, I am advancing, My 2 little brothers have Dedicated themselves after 2 years of me not telling anyone. I told my sister, and......... Yes, my mother found out.  WHAT I DID, I DO NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The reason I did this was because I knew of their reaction. We weren't brought up in a religious home, as we had parents that are shit, which is a good thing, for me atleast lol. Know, I am happier than ever, I found the reason for everything, I found what I was looking for since I was a little boy.   HAIL SATAN!!!!HAIL AZAZEL!!!!HAIL ENLIL!!!!
From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [email protected] Sent: Friday, 7 September 2012, 7:59
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- [/IMG]mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- [/IMG]mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

[/TD]

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Thanks for sharing.We all have scars from those kike programs that we have to heal from working on our soul.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android [/TD]

From: Mica Enriquez <lerdavian@...;
To: [email protected] <[email protected];
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Sat, Sep 8, 2012 10:00:45 PM

<td val[/IMG]   Here's a piece.      I guess when i was younger I truly did trust in god, but the feel of the church,and how empty the people seemed. I didn't like how much of a crutch religion was for people. (like the song jesus take the wheel). I felt like people like scape goating the devil for everything after a while and thought it was stupid, that people don't take responsibility for their actions. Not to mention I choked on something during mass one time too. All of the times when i begged and pleaded for change in my family situation, all the nights I cried,begging and pleading, for some comfort and received little to nothing. All of the pain, all of the scars, all of the blood, all of the thoughts of suicide, and feelings of alienation. I was so alone...and god was nowhere. Jesus was nowhere. Thinking of that stupid poem about the footsteps and how the guy was supposedly carried. There was only ever me. I rejected them, ( my family, jeebus, god, theism in general) and found new strength within myself. I chose not to. I grew the willpower to keep going on. Then I found father, and he helped me * ahem* 'pull myself up by my own bootstraps' and He kept me from that terrible word and from returning into that dark pit ever again. I found love, support, understanding that i could get nowhere else. though my clothes are still dark, I keep them as remembrance of my beginnings, as remembrance of the dark places I dwelled before and the one of many who helped me.Because of father I can honestly say that I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. I know the pain from my scars will never go away completely, but he helped me learn that these things will help shape me and give me strength in a way I never thought they could.
My love for him and all of the gods are immeasurable.
Hail Lucifer!Hail Agares!Hail Set!Hail Ereshkigal!Hail Nergal!Hail Azazel!



From: Magus Immortalis <magus.immortalis@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Friday, September 7, 2012 4:37 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  We don't summon Lord Satan.
From: siscool397 <boomer_397@...
To: [email protected] Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 10:23:52 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I was in highschool when he came to me I was interested in telekinesis more then finishing hishschool at the time because all the teachers were doing a lousy job and my mom was constantly bugging me while she was depressed and stupid. nevertheless I was interested in egyption mummies and ufos since I was small and I saw ghosts in my room 3 different times. I read the telekinesis book by katlem gibson and did not move anything with my mind successfully, I did finish the focus excersizes and was able to completely clear my mind. now I had prayed to god many times by that age and got no answer and no help and I figured he just didnt care. it was then I asked myself questions about satan like is he really a bad entity? and I wanted direction so I found the jos website and edited the commitmint prayer to my likeing and with as much respect as possible. read it and for two weeks nothing happend and then one night coming out of a dream im guessing satan pulled my astral body under my bed and suspended itand started talking to me in a demonic tone he said things fast and 4 or 5 words were long one of them was perception and then I got scared because of his voice and he let me come back to my body when I got my emotions in check it was clear he was trying to help and he was giving me advise on more then one thing but the only one thing I did understand was that he told me that weed messes up my perception. it made me feel better about myself and everything else and I hope It happends again. im not sure it will but after I open all my chakras and get better at astral travel ill summon him again for advise. I hope to develop a relationchip with him or a demon or both in the future I just dont think im able to communicate with them effectivly enough now in order to do so. hail satan!

--- [/IMG][email protected], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

[/TD]

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]I meant by working on our soul through power meditations.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android [/TD]

From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...;
To: JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups com <[email protected]; lerdavian@... <lerdavian@...;
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Sun, Sep 9, 2012 8:11:51 PM

<td val[/IMG]  

<td val[/IMG]Thanks for sharing.We all have scars from those kike programs that we have to heal from working on our soul.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android [/TD]

From: Mica Enriquez <lerdavian@...;
To: [email protected] <[email protected];
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Sat, Sep 8, 2012 10:00:45 PM

<td val[/IMG]   Here's a piece.      I guess when i was younger I truly did trust in god, but the feel of the church,and how empty the people seemed. I didn't like how much of a crutch religion was for people. (like the song jesus take the wheel). I felt like people like scape goating the devil for everything after a while and thought it was stupid, that people don't take responsibility for their actions. Not to mention I choked on something during mass one time too. All of the times when i begged and pleaded for change in my family situation, all the nights I cried,begging and pleading, for some comfort and received little to nothing. All of the pain, all of the scars, all of the blood, all of the thoughts of suicide, and feelings of alienation. I was so alone...and god was nowhere. Jesus was nowhere. Thinking of that stupid poem about the footsteps and how the guy was supposedly carried. There was only ever me. I rejected them, ( my family, jeebus, god, theism in general) and found new strength within myself. I chose not to. I grew the willpower to keep going on. Then I found father, and he helped me * ahem* 'pull myself up by my own bootstraps' and He kept me from that terrible word and from returning into that dark pit ever again. I found love, support, understanding that i could get nowhere else. though my clothes are still dark, I keep them as remembrance of my beginnings, as remembrance of the dark places I dwelled before and the one of many who helped me.Because of father I can honestly say that I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. I know the pain from my scars will never go away completely, but he helped me learn that these things will help shape me and give me strength in a way I never thought they could.
My love for him and all of the gods are immeasurable.
Hail Lucifer!Hail Agares!Hail Set!Hail Ereshkigal!Hail Nergal!Hail Azazel!



From: Magus Immortalis <magus.immortalis@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Friday, September 7, 2012 4:37 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  We don't summon Lord Satan.
From: siscool397 <boomer_397@...
To: [email protected] Sent: Thursday, September 6, 2012 10:23:52 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  I was in highschool when he came to me I was interested in telekinesis more then finishing hishschool at the time because all the teachers were doing a lousy job and my mom was constantly bugging me while she was depressed and stupid. nevertheless I was interested in egyption mummies and ufos since I was small and I saw ghosts in my room 3 different times. I read the telekinesis book by katlem gibson and did not move anything with my mind successfully, I did finish the focus excersizes and was able to completely clear my mind. now I had prayed to god many times by that age and got no answer and no help and I figured he just didnt care. it was then I asked myself questions about satan like is he really a bad entity? and I wanted direction so I found the jos website and edited the commitmint prayer to my likeing and with as much respect as possible. read it and for two weeks nothing happend and then one night coming out of a dream im guessing satan pulled my astral body under my bed and suspended itand started talking to me in a demonic tone he said things fast and 4 or 5 words were long one of them was perception and then I got scared because of his voice and he let me come back to my body when I got my emotions in check it was clear he was trying to help and he was giving me advise on more then one thing but the only one thing I did understand was that he told me that weed messes up my perception. it made me feel better about myself and everything else and I hope It happends again. im not sure it will but after I open all my chakras and get better at astral travel ill summon him again for advise. I hope to develop a relationchip with him or a demon or both in the future I just dont think im able to communicate with them effectivly enough now in order to do so. hail satan!

--- [/IMG][email protected], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

[/TD]

[/TD]

 

[[email protected]]

Now I started to realize that Father Satan has always been watching over me since my birth!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Thanks for taking the time to share your story.I can relate to a lot of it since I was a deliverance minister at one time myself.I just didn't know any better,and really thought I was doing the right thing by calling demons out of people.The enemy made me think I had power over them,(isn't that silly).When you are that deep into it you can not see the truth.The really sad thing to me though is,you had so many physic abilities when you were a child,that if only were encouraged,(like we will do with our new daughter)rather then stifled,and made to feel that they were wrong,who knows where you would have been with your advancement now.It is plain to me that you were very advanced in previous lives.
 Hail Satan
Brian 

From: seshet.maat <seshet.maat@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, September 9, 2012 4:00 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

 

My story is very long and intricate, but I'll try to keep it brief. I grew up in a normal xian household but started feeling distinctly out of place and as if there's more going on than what I was being told, by the age of 8 I was immensely discontent with just being a normal person, I felt uncomfortable in my own skin and told my mom I am far more than this and that there's a greater purpose to my life. Over the next two years I I became immensely drawn to ancient Egypt, all I wanted was to go there. I spent the nights stargazing for hours, I knew something was literally right in front of me but I couldn't get to it quite yet.

One morning, at the age of 10, something changed. I can't explain exactly how or where but by the day, I gained strange new insights and abilities. I was fascinated by the paranormal and occult and started reading every book I could find in the local library. One morning I woke up with an inexplicable understanding of everything around me. I walked to school and realized I could see life force around me. Trees were no longer just trees, they seemed luminous, I could actually feel and understand every last fibre of living organisms around me. It was at that time that I started having very deep philosophical debates with my teachers and peers, but soon none of them were able to share what I was seeing or thinking, all I got back were blank stares. I went from being an average school kid to excelling, from struggling in maths class to getting up and automatically just knowing there's another formula to solve a math problem. I went from shy and reserved to confident. I had no idea what was happening to me but I felt more connected to a real reality than I ever was. Looking back, I realize I was constantly practising and opening myself to spiritual development, even though at the time it was entirely instinctive for me, it came naturally and was almost magnetic. I had vivid dreams and became more artistic, more spiritual. By the age of twelve I was better than ever. I was exercising four hours a day, flying through books at a crazy pace and had the most insatiable hunger for knowledge about everything, but especially the `forbidden'. My xian parents turned a blind eye to my fixations and let me be.

Then I went to high school and within the first few months, I fell ill. My health kept deteriorating and no doctor could explain why I was going through all these physical aches, pains and headaches. I went from being a happy go lucky kid to one who found it nearly unbearable to walk into a public area, because I could now feel and hear the thoughts and emotions of everyone around me. It was impossible to drown out the noise, all the input from all sides was overwhelming. You can imagine me, in my innocent honesty, trying to explain this to a psychologist. She gave me a blank stare and scribbled something on her notepad. This was to be one of many lessons for me, where I learned not to talk about these things. My mother became increasingly concerned, and as a result, increasingly obsessed with finding answers in her damn church and xian preachers. I was always uneasy with the xian thing but we never really had to get involved that much. But now that I was sick, my mom dragged me off to church every weekend and forced me into xian group meetings as often as she could. I would sit in church and suddenly lose all ability to see or hear. I'd literally have no idea what was going on around me at that stage. They of course took it as an attack from the enemy. Years passed like this, never getting better. I was put on a lot of medication and ended up sleeping my days away. School became neglected as I was in and out of hospital and doctors rooms. Another side effect was that I was facing spiritual attacks and they got worse by the day. It started with negative thoughts and depression and soon I was being strangled at night time by the darkest, most disgusting creatures I could ever imagine. I was visited by angels who told me to stay with jewsus and that it would protect me. I was told that I need to give up all these `evil' activities and stop trying to enhance myself psychically or it would kill me and destroy my soul. I refused. Of everything that happened to me, this was the only thing that felt really important and made me feel like myself. Finally the attacks got so bad that I was convinced I was going to die from sheer terror alone, that's how petrified I was. Visitations happened almost every night, driving my dogs crazy and leaving them howling outside my bedroom window.

Finally my mom dragged me off to her xian horde again and their leader decided that I was possessed with demons. They didn't tell this to me though as they didn't want `the demon' in me to find out and thwart their plans. So my mom took me to church yet again one night and suddenly I got pulled out of my seat by their clergy and dragged off to the front of the church. Eight or nine of their filthy leaders circled around me, putting their disgusting hands all over me and started `praying'. I have no idea how long I was there, but I got shaken, spat on and yelled at, called vulgar names. They finally stopped, believing that they had chased off the evil spirit for the time being. I was broken. By then I didn't even want to keep living, if it wasn't for crazy xians chasing after me wherever I was, trying to ensure that I am rid of my `possession', I was being attacked spiritually. Long story short, they ended baptizing me to `protect' me from what was happening. By that stage I was done, I had no more energy and decided to give in. I made a spiritual announcement to the powers of the astral that I would back off and sit on the sideline, no longer involving myself in anything spiritual, as long as they just leave me alone. After that everything went quiet. All the abilities, the knowledge, the energy I had, was gone. I spent many years searching hopelessly for something to give life meaning and purpose, at times thinking about the spiritual path I left behind, but the fear of the torment kept me from ever looking at it again. Over a decade later I came across the SS path and something clicked into place. I read the JoS and related websites and a lot of it sounded exactly like what I had always felt was real, it felt connected to what I went through. Now, in retrospect, I realize what was happening to me back then, much as it's astonishing to me even now. I'm still furious about all that was taken from me for such a long time, I wasted many years and became a hollow, unthinking shell thanks to xian guilt and fear programming. But thankfully, Father ensured that I returned to my path and I won't ever leave again. Nothing they do can scare me away this time because now I know and have the source with me at all times. Great things are coming, brothers and sisters. Soon.

Hail Father Satan! Hail to all the Mighty Gods!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]My GD told me that too.


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From: inlovewithsatan@... <inlovewithsatan@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Mon, Sep 10, 2012 1:07:36 PM

<td val[/IMG]   Now I started to realize that Father Satan has always been watching over me since my birth!

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[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Thanks for sharing how you were changed by the one and only God Satan.He saved us all in one way or another.


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From: inlovewithsatan@... <inlovewithsatan@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Mon, Sep 10, 2012 1:01:56 PM

<td val[/IMG]   I was raised in a sikh family though family is never too religious. I was totally a "sheep". I cried and cried numerous times infront of that religion's false god picture,recited prayers words,but all I got was nothing,but just tears,pain,frustration! Then on one day i spit on his picture on his face,placed in worship room. I even tried to kill myself several times,swallowed several many pills at time that was kept in FIRST AID box which i don't know what those medicine pills for,though nothing even minor happened to my health. Last year,i was free,i was going to better my life. One evening i was very depressed,was alone at home,i started searching about "how to become a bad guy" lol i was sick of being good to everyone and smiles. Then I don't know what came in my mind that i was eager to search about "devil worship". Then about demons. I don't remember exactly now by what word i searched that i came across JoS. before JoS, i found CoS. Then by reading about demons on JoS, I was very drawn to demons. I liked one demoness which was "marchosias" I started taking her name,after few minutes I felt something like energy pushed me a little bit. I felt dizzy for a while. After that when i read that one should establish relationship with Satan first before summoning any demon,I then started learning about Satan. Got drawn to him then. SOmething unexpected happened,I couldn't control my emotion and fell for a girl. I ruined that best time satan had chosen to call me to his side. I was totally FEARLESS before falling into this error.

[/TD]

 

[Sami Abbas]

You are most welcome big bro
And yes, We are growing in numbers here, especially in Ireland. It is so beautiful seeing this beautiful country, with it's beautiful people coming back to their old ways. 
Also, if you notice Brian, there has been an increase in fellow Brothers and Sisters in Satan in Middle Eastern jewslime countries. This is a HUGE step ahead for us, because we all pretty much know how jewslam works, right? Either conversion or death. So, it is a good thing to hear people are fucking finally waking up. 
You know, some times, after I finish meditating, I have a moment of "oh shit, I have found what I am looking for, BUT, look around you". We are given all this knowledge from the Gods, and even some of us were guided and protected since birth by them. Isn't it only fair to do something in return? 
I have never knew how serious this situation is until the past few months. I mean, it just makes me throw up how our Gentile people are being treated, AND treating each other. 
Sorry about the rant, but it is truly time for us to get up, as a Family, and fight for our People and OUR FUCKING EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!


HAIL SATAN!!!HAIL AZAZEL!!!HAIL ENLIL!!!
Heil the Nazi Heroes!

-Sami

On 9 Sep 2012, at 20:53, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

 

<td val[/IMG]Thanks for sharing as I always find it so interesting how others in other countries across the water from me found Satan.Here in the US its all the same for the most part.Not all but most of us were born in xtian familys and found out it was all BS so we ventured out into the occult.But I like to here how people in pisslam countries found Satan.So again thanks for sharing brother.


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From: Samy <samiabbas66@...;
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url];
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]
Sent: Sat, Sep 8, 2012 9:02:13 PM

<td val[/IMG]   [/IMG]</var>  Well, Like many of us here, I had an unbelivable interest in the occult. I was about 6, in school, in Saudi Arabia (the jewslime vatican), I would run away from their prayers, or I would at least try, they would always pull me back, as they had guards at the main doors in school. Despite their extreme pulling abilities, I somehow was a little stronger and would escape, only to face the consequences the next day. I always asked my older brother about Satan, and the Demons, he would reply "yes, they are transparent like glass" what an idiot. He also told me that a guy saw a Demon, then I would daydream the whole day about meeting a Demon.  I can clearly recall having terrifying dreams about their allah. I can remember it was my sister (my closest childhood friend, which caused a lot of heat with what was supposed to be a family to me) and I, getting pulled through a door by a grey skeleton ghost thing, and I would call it allah. I would also imagine allah as a horrible ugly hovering black mist that wanted everyone punished. Funny though, my Indonesian nanny stated that I would become a great messenger/warrior in pisslam. I wish I could find her, I would slap her. After my miserable, cold, hollow childhood years passed, we moved permenantley to Ireland. I was about 10, and confused, feeling something is terribly, terribly wrong with everything. I met the man they call my father, and was disgusted. He didn't resemble me at all, especially the fact that I am much more fairer than him. I began to hate everything. The feeling of lonliness and emptiness become more stronger. I was feeling like I was in a dreaam, all of it.  My interest in the occult intensified as I become older. I would spend hours a day watching clips and videos from a website of Demons, UFO's and ghosts. I became obsessed. I would go even further, to the point were I would make room for ghosts in my bed at bedtime, and meditate in a lotus position to "call upon ghosts" lol. I can also remember I stumbled upon a website that gave you a free recipe for a "spell" if you subscribe. And guess what?? I did lol. I wanted to change my eye colour, and the supposed "high priestess" gave me some stupid, foolish words to mummble. Keep in mind, I was like 11 lol, so I got a tiny birthday candleand painted it orange (the colour I wanted my eyes to turn lol), sat down in my sister's toilet, and while taking a crap, I tried the "spell". Do I REALLY need to tell you what happened?? lol. I can also remember calling my brother names while he was praying as to distract him lol, and it always worked  So, By that time, I got my iPod touch, which means I can access the internet. I stumbled on the church of Satan while researching Satanism. I read the homepage quote or whatever, looked at the picture of the masked retards, and slapped myself. I then began to get into the jooish kabalah. Of course , all I got was the usual joo shit, nothing spiritual whatsoever. Actually, there was nothing to begin with, just a wear a red string around your left wrist and I was like WTF??   By the age of 13, we moved town, everything changed again, and I fell deeper into depression. Still, Satanism was on my mind. I was researching Demons, and crashed into kikapedia. It was then when the enemy attacks began, their usual useless and foolish technique..... istilling deep fear. I was looking through the pictures and was frightened, but I looked through them all , all 72, and was like WTF???? I kept on researching. I had this crap of selling my soul to Satan in my mind, but it never felt right. And what do ya know??? I got to the JoS. The next few days, my eyes were glued to the iPod screen, literally. I was in the dark all night long, page by page, I read everything. A month later, I think, I Dedicated, nobody around and with a tealight candle. when the paper burned, I felt like an elephant being lifted off of my shoulders. So today, I am advancing, My 2 little brothers have Dedicated themselves after 2 years of me not telling anyone. I told my sister, and......... Yes, my mother found out.  WHAT I DID, I DO NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The reason I did this was because I knew of their reaction. We weren't brought up in a religious home, as we had parents that are shit, which is a good thing, for me atleast lol. Know, I am happier than ever, I found the reason for everything, I found what I was looking for since I was a little boy.   HAIL SATAN!!!!HAIL AZAZEL!!!!HAIL ENLIL!!!!
From: hoodedcobra666 < hoodedcobra666@... To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected] [/url]
Sent: Friday, 7 September 2012, 7:59
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]

  Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- [/IMG]mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- [/IMG]mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people [/TD]

 

[Sami Abbas]

I can't exactly remember sis, I had a lot in my mind back then lol. I was flipping taking a crap lol.
No, see the candle I found was a tiny white one, and my sister would only let me use her orange paint, so hahaha LOL!!!


HAIL SATAN!!!HAIL AZAZEL!!!HAIL ENLIL!!!
Heil the Nazi Heroes!

-Sami

On 9 Sep 2012, at 19:42, "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... wrote:

  You tried making your eyes orange? Children are adorable lol. I wanted purple eyes.

--- [/IMG][email protected][/email][/url], Samy <samiabbas66@... wrote:

I would like to start of by saying that, as usual, I knew this thread would start. I get this the whole time, and I am sure many Brothers and Sisters here get the same.
 
 
Well, Like many of us here, I had an unbelivable interest in the occult. I was about 6, in school, in Saudi Arabia (the jewslime vatican), I would run away from their prayers, or I would at least try, they would always pull me back, as they had guards at the main doors in school. Despite their extreme pulling abilities, I somehow was a little stronger and would escape, only to face the consequences the next day. I always asked my older brother about Satan, and the Demons, he would reply "yes, they are transparent like glass" what an idiot. He also told me that a guy saw a Demon, then I would daydream the whole day about meeting a Demon. 
 
I can clearly recall having terrifying dreams about their allah. I can remember it was my sister (my closest childhood friend, which caused a lot of heat with what was supposed to be a family to me) and I, getting pulled through a door by a grey skeleton ghost thing, and I would call it allah. I would also imagine allah as a horrible ugly hovering black mist that wanted everyone punished. Funny though, my Indonesian nanny stated that I would become a great messenger/warrior in pisslam. I wish I could find her, I would slap her.
 
After my miserable, cold, hollow childhood years passed, we moved permenantley to Ireland. I was about 10, and confused, feeling something is terribly, terribly wrong with everything. I met the man they call my father, and was disgusted. He didn't resemble me at all, especially the fact that I am much more fairer than him. I began to hate everything. The feeling of lonliness and emptiness become more stronger. I was feeling like I was in a dreaam, all of it.
 
My interest in the occult intensified as I become older. I would spend hours a day watching clips and videos from a website of Demons, UFO's and ghosts. I became obsessed. I would go even further, to the point were I would make room for ghosts in my bed at bedtime, and meditate in a lotus position to "call upon ghosts" lol. I can also remember I stumbled upon a website that gave you a free recipe for a "spell" if you subscribe. And guess what?? I did lol. I wanted to change my eye colour, and the supposed "high priestess" gave me some stupid, foolish words to mummble. Keep in mind, I was like 11 lol, so I got a tiny birthday candleand painted it orange (the colour I wanted my eyes to turn lol), sat down in my sister's toilet, and while taking a crap, I tried the "spell". Do I REALLY need to tell you what happened?? lol. I can also remember calling my brother names while he was praying as to distract him lol, and it always worked
 
So, By that time, I got my iPod touch, which means I can access the internet. I stumbled on the church of Satan while researching Satanism. I read the homepage quote or whatever, looked at the picture of the masked retards, and slapped myself. I then began to get into the jooish kabalah. Of course , all I got was the usual joo shit, nothing spiritual whatsoever. Actually, there was nothing to begin with, just a wear a red string around your left wrist and I was like WTF??  
 
By the age of 13, we moved town, everything changed again, and I fell deeper into depression. Still, Satanism was on my mind. I was researching Demons, and crashed into kikapedia. It was then when the enemy attacks began, their usual useless and foolish technique..... istilling deep fear. I was looking through the pictures and was frightened, but I looked through them all , all 72, and was like WTF???? I kept on researching. I had this crap of selling my soul to Satan in my mind, but it never felt right. And what do ya know??? I got to the JoS. The next few days, my eyes were glued to the iPod screen, literally. I was in the dark all night long, page by page, I read everything. A month later, I think, I Dedicated, nobody around and with a tealight candle. when the paper burned, I felt like an elephant being lifted off of my shoulders.
 
So today, I am advancing, My 2 little brothers have Dedicated themselves after 2 years of me not telling anyone. I told my sister, and......... Yes, my mother found out. 
 
WHAT I DID, I DO NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The reason I did this was because I knew of their reaction. We weren't brought up in a religious home, as we had parents that are shit, which is a good thing, for me atleast lol.
 
Know, I am happier than ever, I found the reason for everything, I found what I was looking for since I was a little boy.
  
 
HAIL SATAN!!!!
HAIL AZAZEL!!!!
HAIL ENLIL!!!!


________________________________
From: hoodedcobra666 <hoodedcobra666@...
To: [e[/IMG][email protected][/email][/url]
Sent: Friday, 7 September 2012, 7:59
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: How did I find Satan [And how did you?]



 

Yes I remember being in a xian church around 6 years old and I was starring at a flower holder trying to move it by the 'power of my faith'. I realized it wouldn't work, lol.

I enjoy reading all these stories. Different people different stories. But it seems some people answer the call on their own and get to seek something, others do it in search of justice and a better life or power, others more font of the Truth and protection, others curosity, others are introduced by their friends or other people. Its just how the person is. Others suddenly feel an aweakening love for occultism which probably was asleep on their earlier years or they were manipulated. What matters is that we are all here and under Satan and we seek to expand ourselves

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "lydia_666@" <lydia_666@ wrote:

I was drawn to the occult my whole life. I remembered my past lives, and I tried so hard to telepathically communicate with my soulmate starting when I was like 4 or 5. I also tried telekinesis. Until I got headaches from the effort lol. I always knew there was so much more to the world. I was born psychic, but nobody else in my family was so I had no "mentor" for it, only a bunch of non-believers who kept telling me to stop daydreaming and "come back to reality".

I went to church a few times as a child with my family, but it felt weird. Fake. Wrong. And then my dad told me to read the bible so I can go to "heaven", so I told "god" that I was going to read it to get into "heaven" and if I didn't finish it in one year then he could send me to "hell". Guess what? After a week or so I gave up and started reading interesting books. Lol.

After my brother died, I felt like I had nobody. Nobody else understood me, nobody else believed in me like he did. I was so lost. And then my ex bf brought home a copy of Lavey's Satanic bible. I read it, and loved the logic in it. And I started thinking that maybe this Satan guy is real, and not an evil person like xianity teaches, and maybe there is meaning to life, something to fight for. I figured, the xian "god" never did anything for me, even when I was carsick as a child and prayed that I wouldn't throw up and yet I threw up so he obviously didn't have much power, or maybe he just didn't care about me. I figured maybe Satan would care about me, at least a little. I knew I had nothing to lose.

So, I decided to search online to find out how to properly dedicate myself to Satan. And JoyofSatan was near the top. I loved the name, "Joy", and the fact that it was .org meaning it was an organization and not some crummy website slapped together. So I started reading, and I knew I had found home. And I knew something supernatural was happening, as I would have a thought or wonder about something, and the very next link or the one after had my answer. This actually happened for a month or so, every day.

I then looked at the time and realized I had been reading for a while and my (ex)bf was going to be home soon so I frantically ran around the apartment finding the things to dedicate (red candle, needle, etc) and I dedicated. And I felt a huge weight being lifted off my shoulders.



Hail Father Satan!
Hail Set!


--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@ wrote:

I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.

So here is mine...

Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum.
Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.

As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ.
Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.

I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE
FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.

Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!




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