hoodedcobra666
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I open this topic for discussion. I hope many people reply as it would be good and informative so we can notice and know how people find Satan, so we can promote Satanism better.
So here is mine...
Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.
As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.
I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.
Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!
So here is mine...
Since I was around 11 I had a very distinct need to search into the occult [since around that age I wanted to go to tibet, lol], which I was doing constantly, researching. After some years when my urge for this became even greater, when I was around 12 and a half I found Satanism, when my search and thirst for occult power and enlightenment became the center of my life. As about church, I remember that I prayed to the xian 'god' 2 times. One because there was a storm raging and I was dead afraid of storms. The windows were hitting etc, and it was really chaotic and powerful. Nothing typical, way beyond it. I, as a kid, run to that scum blindly, which promised 'help'. Nothing but fear I felt. My fear after praying increased tenfold, to the point I fell on my knees crying and hitting my hands and feet on the floor. The other time I was severely abused by a family member, many years ago. I was sitting on the bed crying to that foolish asshole scum. Nothing happened. I felt no relief. Only more anxiety and more fear. Truly I never felt no connection or anything from that piece of shit. Whenever I was force to attend on masses, I would either vomit, fall asleep or feel feelings of extreme tiredness/sickness, terror and maybe even anger. I could feel a lot of beings and seriously I was looking around in a horrific feeling.
As far as Satan goes, time before I read the website, I didn't understand why people were so against Him. There were times that as a xian I blasphemed Satan [no more than 10 times in my whole life evena as an xian], but afterwards I felt very bad, I felt guilt. But not the guilt that is needed to control. Guilt that comes from within and is your own. I remember asking my xian 'friend' about 'not raging on a war against Satan. Why is there a war against Him. Why don't people leave Satan alone'. Which freaked him out. I never really hated Him. When I was young I was reading some crazy shit from a supposedly ethinic retard. Which was talking about all sorts of 'Elohim' and shit. I was always attracted to the side of the 'bad guys', which were the 'Nephelim', 'The Egyptian Nephelim' etc. I always perceived and saw jewsus as way too weak, not my type of guy. Satan's existence was extremely fascinating to me. All I read on about was the Anti-Christ. Whenever I read about powers of the mind etc, I KNEW instictively for a fact that the door to these is Satan. Then on my own I seeked Satanism and I found the JoS webpage. The feeling I cannot describe. I Was at last at a place where a TRUE GOD who gives a damn about His disciples, real spiritual communication and enlightenment, wish realization and mind discipline were the aims. I got extremely fascinated and I was in total awe. The feeling I remember was when I opened the meditation page, I totally felt blown out of this world. It was just the place for me. For one time I felt someone gave a fuck about Humanity, and I wanted badly to ally to Satan eternally so I can work, advance, get enlightened, get extremely powerful, evolve and promote His Agenda.
I hated the enemy's tricks n' shits which only choose a chosen few and I felt a deep disgust and a 'GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT' feeling whenever I found anything or stumbled upon anything that was jewish. I always despised the jews and as a hearing of this word I felt very strange, something I cannot describe. Spirituality of their side which was infused with 'compassion' and communism did never feel right, I found it boring and meaningless and I felt that it was totally empty. I always felt different. That kind of reserved kid that isn't talking because he knows something that he doesn't know type of thing. I turned my back on this scum liar and hating 'god' of the bible, I let my hate unveil and I will become as the Gods since its a birthright by my own Creator God Satan. For the first time in my life I heared my greatest urge and I freaking never neglected it. Sometimes things can grow hard as this is war, sometimes can grow blissful as this is THE FREAKING TRUTH OF THE WORLD. Thats THAT. My passion for Satan undertaken me and I will never be more thankful that I am today. Even if I died, I could have said I was a brave person who accomplished something and left some sort of mark in this world, truly found God and truly did SOMETHING for themselves.
Thats what Satan gave me, completeness.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!