Gear88 said:
@Black Dragon
Look I would LOVE to help myself and receive help. I believe I deserve it maybe even go so far as to demand it. But not with meditation I don't want to burden people with my problems. Same reason I don't summon the Gods or if I have in the past only a few times probably 6-7 times. Why should I summon a being of higher power when I answer my own questions. Several times I just talk out loud to this supposed entity/person who wishes to hear me out and I'm basically answering my own questions. There is a reason why I state "I know everything" perhaps it's a negative affirmation and I use it as a crutch not to study just intuit with my mind.
I feel personally since I can't void nor trance that meditation is fake. I've never been able to meditate properly. Probably one of the reasons I like mantra or physical stuff like yoga even though I hate doing physical activities. At least something is done, calming meditations or sitting meditations didn't do it for me.
I sit down all these thoughts pop in, fantasies, I literally hate relaxing and calming myself down. It's weird.
And no I don't slander the very means of things if it doesn't work, it doesn't work what can I say lie to myself.
Living is so tiring if meditation worked I wouldn't be on the forums. I'd simply be in my own World figuring stuff out on my own maybe summoning Demons/Gods or whatever but even then I don't like doing that.
Either way if meditation is to work for me I gotta void and trance without that it doesn't work it's just mental imagining. I guess you can argue I've been meditating everyday of my life imagining all this stuff growing up.
I never had fun with meditation if anything meditating everyday is just a chore much like mantra on chakras way too much time it takes up. I don't feel different or better. As a matter of fact my parents have heard me meditate and I come out more pist off and more angry even having my father going "How can you meditate and calm yourself down and all you do is scream and tell us bad words and anger at us".
Well because everything pisses me off, I'm always pist off. What can I say I'm an angry soul.
Either way every day is lunacy even spending 2 minutes trying to void is pure agony. I don't like meditating it never worked.
If you look at people who suffer seriously in some way, they usually have a mindset that relates to their problems. People who attract abuse are usually very forgiving, sensitive and meek. People with money issues usually have a scarcity mindset and many don't believe they deserve wealth and material comforts. And so on. There are other ways bad karma can come about (curses for example) but the above is a common way. Have you ever noticed that the things you affirm on yourself pretty much relate with your life? This can go back lifetimes which is why it is severe for you. This is not even the enemy but yourself doing black magic on your own soul for what appears to be lifetimes.
If you want the Gods to help you out of the hole you are in, show them you want out of it. For example, if you have serious poverty issues, the Gods can provide for you but how much will that really help you? The problem is continuous as it is strongly fated and why should the Gods have to deal with that yet they have provided the knowledge by which you can deal with it? Why should their precious and much needed energy be used to help someone who can help their own self? Here, you can do daily cleaning and a full 40 or 90 day working to remove poverty from your soul. Then you can do a working to attract a decent job, workings for material gain and so on. I assure you, the Gods will personally add their own blessings to such a person because even less energy will be needed here and you appreciated the knowledge provided.
The reason why so much work will be needed to restore humanity is because people don't know how to help themselves. If all humans knew about the original teachings of the Gods and applied them, this earth would go back to the golden age in one or two millennia or less. But everybody out there can barely even feel their soul, some don't even know they have a soul. So they live recklessly and pile spiritual dross on their souls (add the enemy's curses) and we keep suffering in an endless cycle.
You want to help yourself, the teachings of the Gods are the only way to help yourself. I would suggest you state this affirmation a few times daily, 'I do not have any negative attitudes towards meditation and I am completely willing to do it consistently'. This is simple and doesn't require any energy work. Try to calm your mind a bit before you state it. It doesn't have to be like in void meditation. It will knock off all subconscious obstacles you have created against meditation and you will be much more willing to try it. You can use 9 reps as this number can be used for ending things. After a few weeks you should notice a change in your attitude towards meditation.
Trust me when I tell you the Gods DO want to help humanity but you need to be cooperative otherwise they can't force their help on you. This is like trying to chew food for someone. If the Gods didn't want to help, you wouldn't even know about them.
I also had the same problem with calming the mind. Certain signs on my chart, and the elements in my chart too. Nowadays I can enter a deep trance if I want to, because of consistently practicing void meditation. There are no time limits Gear. You just do it and you bloom in your own time.
Yes, it works. You have people like HPHC who are naturally skeptical who lasted in this path and prospered. You have all these advanced members like NakedPluto, Lydia, Shannon and the rest. You literally witnessed them join the JoS as total noobs and look where they are now. Ironically, you have also witnessed HPS Maxine go from fairly advanced back in 2002 to levels very few have reached in modern human history.
Actually you don't have to be in a trance, even mild, to feel the effect of certain mantras. It works better when your mind is empty but you can still get results if you do it with an active mind.
The problem is not meditation but what is in your soul. This is what keeps you in the life you're living. It is not going anywhere and not even death could help you. You have to address it or the cycle will keep going. Meditation past a point is very enjoyable. That is not the point of it anyway and is more of an added benefit.
Channel your anger into meditation. Start fixing your life today.
6The6Return6 said:
I start anyway brother. I hope I'm not a Jew, even though I dream of satanic things in a positive way, golden snake and Satan. I am in doubt.
A jew will know it is one. They have a collective consciousness and cannot genuinely be drawn to Satan. Most will even sense a Satanic soul (I experienced this with a Black jew sometime back). It shows how racially aware they are. You know you are a Gentile. Keep doing what you have started and follow the tips I gave you in the other reply like doing your meditations early in the day.