ProbablyPositivity
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I am not sure if this is the right place to ask on the forums, as I usually read through others posts. I've been getting back into satanism after a few years of running and depression. Never really dedicated myself fully to it before, though I did the dedication ritual years ago. I have never been this structured in meditation, eating, sleeping, anything, as far back as I can really remember. But with this new dedication, humility has come. I know where my problems are, and that I am not as strong as I would like to be. I feel better each day and more like the person I would like to become. But I know where my problems are, I have issues with visualization and structure.
I've been on an upward swing for about six months, but my father was diagnosed with colon cancer last week. I'm wondering, with the level that I'm at, what I can do with my visualization issues. They are getting better, but are not to where I would like. And I am not yet sure how urgent healing workings would be. I would like to do a sun square and satanama on him and about him, but I am not sure of what to do in terms of affirmations. This has become a time of "do or die," and has really put things into perspective. Even with the upcoming chemo and surgeries, I would like to help him along like he has helped me throughout the years. There are also hundreds praying for him in my grandmother's church, which royally pisses me off. I worry for him, but I am just starting to get my feet on the ground with my own routine and life, and I don't know how much I can realistically give. Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated.
I've been on an upward swing for about six months, but my father was diagnosed with colon cancer last week. I'm wondering, with the level that I'm at, what I can do with my visualization issues. They are getting better, but are not to where I would like. And I am not yet sure how urgent healing workings would be. I would like to do a sun square and satanama on him and about him, but I am not sure of what to do in terms of affirmations. This has become a time of "do or die," and has really put things into perspective. Even with the upcoming chemo and surgeries, I would like to help him along like he has helped me throughout the years. There are also hundreds praying for him in my grandmother's church, which royally pisses me off. I worry for him, but I am just starting to get my feet on the ground with my own routine and life, and I don't know how much I can realistically give. Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated.