Hate

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Hello! I do not know what to do, to be honest. I hate myself, I hate my appearance. You might think that I'm making something up or making you feel sorry for me. But objectively, I'm terrible. I am disgusting to myself. I have strabismus in one eye. I hate it, I hate myself for it. In my case, it is not treatable. I am very tired. Yes, I can say that it is not always visible. But people are terrified of me, I'm really a freak. don't think anyone will ever love me. Sorry, it really hurts me to write even this text. Thanks !

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I hate myself,

When someone hates himself it is always because he does not have a good reason to love himself. I hated myself when I was a jerk who did nothing useful except stay in bed and sleep all day and couldn't say a word even in the company of his own group of friends. But I took care of myself. I meditated. I studied. I trained myself. I have cultivated dreams of self-improvement and have goals of great achievements. So today I have only reasons to love myself.

I hate my appearance

You should understand that appearance is not everything. I am a great lover of girls. But you have no idea how many girls who aesthetically are 10/10 I reject because when they talk they are so empty inside that it is reflected even in the way they look physically. I once met a beautiful girl who was really perfect, all my friends were drooling over her because of how beautiful she was. I talked to her and she gave me her cell phone number. As I got to know her better, she was EXTREMELY stupid. This made me completely lose interest even physically. Today I love a girl who is not as pretty, but she is so cheerful, sunny and nice that to me she is the embodiment of perfection and the highest form of beauty.

I'm terrible

It's not the fact of being terrible. You just have to understand that the creative process (i.e., getting better) is an endless process. Fortunately, there is no limit on that. You can always become better. If you feel terrible, keep going. You will become more and more splendid by working at it consistently.

I am disgusting to myself

You may be disgusted now. But if you are here figuring out how to help yourself, it means you love yourself. Because you care about getting better. What are you waiting for? Become something really good, Satanism really offers you all the resources you need for that.

I have strabismus in one eye

Does that make you feel like a perverted monster who has to hide in caves because otherwise people will burn him at the stake? The strabismus? Really?
It can be convincing if you are 14 years old and other 14-year-olds who don't understand a fucking thing about how the universe works use it as an excuse to bully you as if they traded intellectual maturity for Tourette's syndrome. But if you are at least 18 you will know that this is just paranoia.

I hate it, I hate myself for it. In my case, it is not treatable

Look, that is really the worst excuse you could come up with to hate yourself. I really respect how you feel, but I also urge you to be realistic: it really is an excuse without the slightest bit of meaning. Of all that you can become with potential, but what should be the point of focusing on something like this...? I apologize if I am not sympathetic enough, but you really have no idea how deep the futility of the problem you think exists is, a problem located exclusively in your head...

But people are terrified of me, I'm really a freak

Okay, but if one is truly terrified of such a thing one really belongs to the circle of mental misfits who fortunately do not constitute the entirety of the world's population...

don't think anyone will ever love me

My high school history and philosophy teacher had the same problem as you. She was really pretty and not surprisingly really had a lot of lovers. But she was also smart so she was a great refuser of the advances often because she had a lot of personal value that made her even prettier than she already was.

More info:

Obsessing Over Physical Looks; Personality

It’s been said before here in the JoS about how humanity has fallen to a low level. The Sacral chakra rules sexuality, creativity, pleasure. Blockages here result in neuroticism, and this has manifested as a neurotic obsession over physical appearance. When people have no access to their higher...

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[Anemos Aiteros]

Hello! I do not know what to do, to be honest. I hate myself, I hate my appearance. You might think that I'm making something up or making you feel sorry for me. But objectively, I'm terrible. I am disgusting to myself. I have strabismus in one eye. I hate it, I hate myself for it. In my case, it is not treatable. I am very tired. Yes, I can say that it is not always visible. But people are terrified of me, I'm really a freak. don't think anyone will ever love me. Sorry, it really hurts me to write even this text. Thanks !

You should read this:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

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