I know the title sounds bad, and it was by design to grab some attention, what I mean is that I feel like most normal people don't meditate, and that I do it because my life is a mess. I don't have an immediate course of action to solve all of the issues that plague me, but at the same it feels like trying to make up for things that I'm missing. If I do a working for intelligence, for example, I feel like all I'm doing is trying to compete with others who don't have to do this to be smart. Same applies to physical strength, or to improving charisma or anything really. I've never seen a normie consciously improve, and I feel like they don't need to. In the course of life of a normal person he or she wouldn't need to do these things. A normal person doesn't need to do spells for charisma, they just have decent personality, or love spells, they just find someone, or money spells, they just earn money one way or another. It just feels like I deviated from the path of a functional human and I need to do this to cure this dysfunction. I sit to meditate and before going into a trance I have to fight these thoughts, it's tiring. By the time I start meditating I already feel like shit. What is a better mindset to have regarding this? I know that if this was as useless as I make it out to be you guys wouldn't be doing it. What's the trick for being able to keep going?