This is long, but if you truly want to know me, I open my soul to you in this post. Aside from Satan and the Gods/esses, only one person knows this much about me, and that is my girlfriend (we have been together 10years and she has truly stuck through everything with me). You are my family therefore deserve to know. Thank you in advance if you decide to read this and get to know who I am. I truly poured my heart into this work.
Hello brothers and sisters, I've been having this feeling that I should somewhat explain about myself. I feel that some of you may be thinking: "who is this dude seemingly coming out of nowhere with all these long ass posts without any introduction. I may have over familiarized myself with our family, and for that I do apologize. This post is to rectify that, as was my "Testimony and Thanksgiving" post.
I have been dedicated since April of 2012, & I joined the groups right after dedication. I mostly stayed quite absorbing knowledge and learning as I was new and felt I had really nothing of value to say other than my first introductory post & a few other short little "thank you for this and that" comments regarding new information just showing my appreciation. Now when I dedicated I was so excited to be in the groups in my haste I used my primary email account and had my real name as my name (I know I know fuckin noob lol). After receiving some deceitful emails from infiltrators and possible jews I took the advice that's given over and over to create another email account and use an alias. I did that and, then I just read or "lurked" for those familiar with Internet lingo.
I had a decent little basic meditation & yoga program going as this was before HP HoodedCobra became a High Priest. Everything was fine, except I was using drugs at the time. I had been physically addicted to pain pills and was in an out patient rehab program (most likely ran by dirty shekel hungry kikes) and they had me on Methadone. That shit is the biggest trap ever (Yea, lets get you off opiates by giving you one of the strongest opiates available), GENIUS. Fuckin scumbags. Anyway I worked up the courage and quit cold turkey and fuck me it was pure torture. I wanted to die for over a month and a half. I couldn't meditate I couldn't barely eat I lost a lot of weight (I'm a slim guy as it is about 5'10" 160lbs currently). All I did was continue to read sermons and study what little I could, but no meditations and no spiritual empowerment whatsoever.
It didn't take long for me to relapse. I barely gave my body time to heal. I felt I had to rush back into getting a job, as I was living with my parents and I value my independence. I'm a commercial electrician specializing in lighting (I guess you could say I'm a physical light bringer in a way lol). I've also held other jobs and I've always enjoyed manual labor and working with my hands, even everyone always told me "I was too smart for that and to go to college" I found that insulting. It's very rewarding for me to wipe the sweat off my brow and get my hands dirty. I take pride in my work. Anyway I digress.
I got back on track with meditations and by now HP HoodedCobra was in fact a High Priest (don't know if I ever said it, but congratulations I can only imagine the hard work and sacrifices you've made to become part of our amazing clergy) I started his 40 day program and started looking for Gentile doctors that would help me properly get off of opiates. For those that don't know opiate addiction is physically crippling I don't want to make this post any longer than it has to be, but if you are curious research it. They're one of the most dangerous drug categories physically and definitely spiritually. Anyway, I found out about a place that my cousin's mom owned (she was my aunt by marriage but her and my uncle divorced). All we had to do was fix the floors (it was a trailer) and turn on power. Well, while we were working on it he started bringing around his new girlfriend around. I didn't care for her too much, but I figured, whatever she won't be around for long (he goes through GFs like t-shirts). When she started coming around I found myself wanting to use more often, I started drinking and smoking that fake marijuana shit (spice) which I had been clean from both for years, and until then had no interest in picking back up. I only struggled with opiates. Well when the floors were done my family(my girlfriend and two kids) and I moved in first. For 2 weeks it was just us and everything was going great. We had just bought a new car and now we had our own place again. I, also lost interest in and quit smoking that bullshit and drinking alcohol.
Then my cousin and this new girlfriend moved in (which wasn't even discussed until a few days prior). I didn't like it, but after all the house was owned by his mother, so I felt I should just go along and get along. BIG MISTAKE! During this time I was heavily and I mean heavily attacked. My girlfriend (she is without, but very supportive and agrees with a lot of our views and even acknowledges Satan as positive, she's the only person who knows I'm an SS and has kept it secret and gives me my space during rituals and meditations) recently told me something that scared me. One of her friends is a medium and told her that there was a very negative astral entity that had attached itself to me and was feeding off all the negativity going on around me. Getting stronger and stronger day by day.
I remember at this time I was not myself. I got the furthest into opiate use I had ever gotten. I crossed a line I never thought I would and started injecting pills. This is very very dangerous and even most ADDICTS will tell you not to do this. I was severely depressed and had no control over my emotions and was having sudden outbursts of rage often. I was missing a lot of work which is VERY out of character for me. We were fighting daily and I remember out of nowhere having this disdain for everyone around me that has always supported and loved me. She took our children and left out of fear to her mother's house and I'm glad she did. I never physically hurt them, but she knew I was not myself and she was afraid to tell me about what her psychic friend told me because of my new unpredictability. She's never ever been afraid of me. She just told her mom that we were fighting as her mom isn't spiritual at all and would have called her crazy had she spoken of the entity she learned about from her friend.
I felt alone and angry and depressed. I look back and I know how this entity got to me. Not only did I have virtually no Aura of Protection. I wasn't meditating or anything being an all around shitty Satanist. And to top it all off I now know I was sharing my home with a dirty rotten fuckin kike jew, she claimed to be "part Hispanic" but never mentioned the other part. My mind was so clouded and I was so far from Satan that I couldn't even tell nor do I think I was even looking. Her name was even (Angelica makes me fucking sick that I was so blind to this). This cunt (I'm sorry I would never call a Gentile woman this) even convinced my cousin after a few months to marry it. Trust me when I become more advanced my first attempt at Black Magick will be on this fucking dirty kikefuckstein jewess, if our RTRs don't cause the demise of her fuckin worthless species first.
She finally wormed her way into my cousin's mother's head and convinced her to kick out his sister (her own daughter) from another house she owned, which she gave to her at a low rent because of money troubles (she has two kids as well). After they moved out, even though I spent over $1,000 on the floors and put them in with my cousin with that dirty jewess bitch watching on. His mom would not let me continue to live there because the kike convinced her if she just sold the land she would get more shekels.
So there I was homeless, drug addicted, and alone. I stayed strong my boss let me stay in this little shed where we clock in and out at work. I found a Gentile doctor (he is xian, but not heavily programmed) he genuinely cares for me I can see that by his actions. He is very supportive of my meditation and yoga, and has even let me pay him back when I didn't have the money for a couple of visits and not charged me a couple times. He truly wants to help. He put me on a medication that has a very high success rate and most kike doctors won't even use because they can't trap you with it. He checks up on me and keeps my doses minimal, but effective so I won't withdraw and the ween down for me is unnoticeable. I will be completely off in another 2 months.
I saved enough money to move my family in with one of my girlfriend's co-workers, whom is also Gentile, sadly he is a xian as well, but more of the I say I'm xian so I won't go to "hell" kind, but doesn't really give a shit. He's an older guy, so sadly he kind of just grew up with it.
After all of this I sat down one night & telepathically spoke to Satan. A man to God conversation. I apologized for allowing myself to fall into the same shit over and over again. I told him I would be the best Satanist I could ever be a re-dedication so to speak, but without the ritual as I know my dedication was valid and true and always will be. I looked for signs and started seeing and thinking a lot about how actions speak louder than words. I restarted HP HoodedCobra's 40 day training. Got it crackin on RTRs and online warfare. I started catching up on my emails. I've been relentless for a while and have been progressing at a let's say pleasant rate. I can feel Satan with me again and sometimes when I really listen I can receive telepathic info from Satan. He does have a certain majesty to his messages and a warmth that comes with them. He told me not to dwell on the past only learn from it focus on the now. What are you doing NOW? Are you meditating, empowering yourself, studying? Are you living how you KNOW you should be (meaning doing what's best for me mentally, physically, & spiritually)? Are you fighting for our cause, for our world, for your Satanic family? Are you sharing knowledge and experiences with your family when you feel inspired? I always start my day off with these questions and it keeps me focused.
I've grown so much closer to Satan these past few months than I've ever been. It's beautiful and amazing. That's why my posts have been so long and that's why I feel so familiar. Even though I never spoke much before now, I've always been here. I read all of your posts intently, every single one and i appreciate the knowledge and wisdom and experiences shared here. I always wondered why Father didn't "come to the rescue". He knew I needed that terrible experience so that I knew this is serious business. I really knew nothing of attacks other than experiencing night terrors infested with greys when I was younger, before I knew about any of this. He knows us better than we know ourselves, his wisdom is truly infinite. He knows I'm a stubborn, hard headed person that more often than not needs to learn things the hard way. Even through all of this I never turned from him I never blamed him and I take full responsibility for everything that happened to me and he knows that too.
That's why I made the post about drugs not being a part of Satanism. It was never meant to boss anybody around or act as an authority on SS as I do NOT in anyway shape or form consider myself to be. I was only sharing my experience to help anyone who was in the same boat so they didn't feel alone as I did. To encourage them to stay strong, I know how quickly and sneakily the karma in our birth charts can cause us to do self-destructive things and to know about them is the first step to ridding yourself of them. Knowledge is power, I understand a lot of these sayings now. My progress has been amazing and I am proud of myself.
Again thank you for powering through this long post, but my family deserves to know me the best they can, seeing as we can't physically meet each other right now. One day we will and it will be glorious and on that day the world will know THE JOY OF SATAN!! Hail Satan my brothers and sisters! HAIL HE WHO IS ETERNAL TRUTH!!!
PS: I would, also like to congratulate High Priestess Shannon Outlaw, I am so happy for you and High Priest HoodedCobra making it onto the clergy, I remember seeing both of you before becoming High Priestess & High Priest respectively. I can't imagine the honor it must be.
Hail Satan!!!Hail the Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!May the jew be trampled under Satanic feet!!!
Hello brothers and sisters, I've been having this feeling that I should somewhat explain about myself. I feel that some of you may be thinking: "who is this dude seemingly coming out of nowhere with all these long ass posts without any introduction. I may have over familiarized myself with our family, and for that I do apologize. This post is to rectify that, as was my "Testimony and Thanksgiving" post.
I have been dedicated since April of 2012, & I joined the groups right after dedication. I mostly stayed quite absorbing knowledge and learning as I was new and felt I had really nothing of value to say other than my first introductory post & a few other short little "thank you for this and that" comments regarding new information just showing my appreciation. Now when I dedicated I was so excited to be in the groups in my haste I used my primary email account and had my real name as my name (I know I know fuckin noob lol). After receiving some deceitful emails from infiltrators and possible jews I took the advice that's given over and over to create another email account and use an alias. I did that and, then I just read or "lurked" for those familiar with Internet lingo.
I had a decent little basic meditation & yoga program going as this was before HP HoodedCobra became a High Priest. Everything was fine, except I was using drugs at the time. I had been physically addicted to pain pills and was in an out patient rehab program (most likely ran by dirty shekel hungry kikes) and they had me on Methadone. That shit is the biggest trap ever (Yea, lets get you off opiates by giving you one of the strongest opiates available), GENIUS. Fuckin scumbags. Anyway I worked up the courage and quit cold turkey and fuck me it was pure torture. I wanted to die for over a month and a half. I couldn't meditate I couldn't barely eat I lost a lot of weight (I'm a slim guy as it is about 5'10" 160lbs currently). All I did was continue to read sermons and study what little I could, but no meditations and no spiritual empowerment whatsoever.
It didn't take long for me to relapse. I barely gave my body time to heal. I felt I had to rush back into getting a job, as I was living with my parents and I value my independence. I'm a commercial electrician specializing in lighting (I guess you could say I'm a physical light bringer in a way lol). I've also held other jobs and I've always enjoyed manual labor and working with my hands, even everyone always told me "I was too smart for that and to go to college" I found that insulting. It's very rewarding for me to wipe the sweat off my brow and get my hands dirty. I take pride in my work. Anyway I digress.
I got back on track with meditations and by now HP HoodedCobra was in fact a High Priest (don't know if I ever said it, but congratulations I can only imagine the hard work and sacrifices you've made to become part of our amazing clergy) I started his 40 day program and started looking for Gentile doctors that would help me properly get off of opiates. For those that don't know opiate addiction is physically crippling I don't want to make this post any longer than it has to be, but if you are curious research it. They're one of the most dangerous drug categories physically and definitely spiritually. Anyway, I found out about a place that my cousin's mom owned (she was my aunt by marriage but her and my uncle divorced). All we had to do was fix the floors (it was a trailer) and turn on power. Well, while we were working on it he started bringing around his new girlfriend around. I didn't care for her too much, but I figured, whatever she won't be around for long (he goes through GFs like t-shirts). When she started coming around I found myself wanting to use more often, I started drinking and smoking that fake marijuana shit (spice) which I had been clean from both for years, and until then had no interest in picking back up. I only struggled with opiates. Well when the floors were done my family(my girlfriend and two kids) and I moved in first. For 2 weeks it was just us and everything was going great. We had just bought a new car and now we had our own place again. I, also lost interest in and quit smoking that bullshit and drinking alcohol.
Then my cousin and this new girlfriend moved in (which wasn't even discussed until a few days prior). I didn't like it, but after all the house was owned by his mother, so I felt I should just go along and get along. BIG MISTAKE! During this time I was heavily and I mean heavily attacked. My girlfriend (she is without, but very supportive and agrees with a lot of our views and even acknowledges Satan as positive, she's the only person who knows I'm an SS and has kept it secret and gives me my space during rituals and meditations) recently told me something that scared me. One of her friends is a medium and told her that there was a very negative astral entity that had attached itself to me and was feeding off all the negativity going on around me. Getting stronger and stronger day by day.
I remember at this time I was not myself. I got the furthest into opiate use I had ever gotten. I crossed a line I never thought I would and started injecting pills. This is very very dangerous and even most ADDICTS will tell you not to do this. I was severely depressed and had no control over my emotions and was having sudden outbursts of rage often. I was missing a lot of work which is VERY out of character for me. We were fighting daily and I remember out of nowhere having this disdain for everyone around me that has always supported and loved me. She took our children and left out of fear to her mother's house and I'm glad she did. I never physically hurt them, but she knew I was not myself and she was afraid to tell me about what her psychic friend told me because of my new unpredictability. She's never ever been afraid of me. She just told her mom that we were fighting as her mom isn't spiritual at all and would have called her crazy had she spoken of the entity she learned about from her friend.
I felt alone and angry and depressed. I look back and I know how this entity got to me. Not only did I have virtually no Aura of Protection. I wasn't meditating or anything being an all around shitty Satanist. And to top it all off I now know I was sharing my home with a dirty rotten fuckin kike jew, she claimed to be "part Hispanic" but never mentioned the other part. My mind was so clouded and I was so far from Satan that I couldn't even tell nor do I think I was even looking. Her name was even (Angelica makes me fucking sick that I was so blind to this). This cunt (I'm sorry I would never call a Gentile woman this) even convinced my cousin after a few months to marry it. Trust me when I become more advanced my first attempt at Black Magick will be on this fucking dirty kikefuckstein jewess, if our RTRs don't cause the demise of her fuckin worthless species first.
She finally wormed her way into my cousin's mother's head and convinced her to kick out his sister (her own daughter) from another house she owned, which she gave to her at a low rent because of money troubles (she has two kids as well). After they moved out, even though I spent over $1,000 on the floors and put them in with my cousin with that dirty jewess bitch watching on. His mom would not let me continue to live there because the kike convinced her if she just sold the land she would get more shekels.
So there I was homeless, drug addicted, and alone. I stayed strong my boss let me stay in this little shed where we clock in and out at work. I found a Gentile doctor (he is xian, but not heavily programmed) he genuinely cares for me I can see that by his actions. He is very supportive of my meditation and yoga, and has even let me pay him back when I didn't have the money for a couple of visits and not charged me a couple times. He truly wants to help. He put me on a medication that has a very high success rate and most kike doctors won't even use because they can't trap you with it. He checks up on me and keeps my doses minimal, but effective so I won't withdraw and the ween down for me is unnoticeable. I will be completely off in another 2 months.
I saved enough money to move my family in with one of my girlfriend's co-workers, whom is also Gentile, sadly he is a xian as well, but more of the I say I'm xian so I won't go to "hell" kind, but doesn't really give a shit. He's an older guy, so sadly he kind of just grew up with it.
After all of this I sat down one night & telepathically spoke to Satan. A man to God conversation. I apologized for allowing myself to fall into the same shit over and over again. I told him I would be the best Satanist I could ever be a re-dedication so to speak, but without the ritual as I know my dedication was valid and true and always will be. I looked for signs and started seeing and thinking a lot about how actions speak louder than words. I restarted HP HoodedCobra's 40 day training. Got it crackin on RTRs and online warfare. I started catching up on my emails. I've been relentless for a while and have been progressing at a let's say pleasant rate. I can feel Satan with me again and sometimes when I really listen I can receive telepathic info from Satan. He does have a certain majesty to his messages and a warmth that comes with them. He told me not to dwell on the past only learn from it focus on the now. What are you doing NOW? Are you meditating, empowering yourself, studying? Are you living how you KNOW you should be (meaning doing what's best for me mentally, physically, & spiritually)? Are you fighting for our cause, for our world, for your Satanic family? Are you sharing knowledge and experiences with your family when you feel inspired? I always start my day off with these questions and it keeps me focused.
I've grown so much closer to Satan these past few months than I've ever been. It's beautiful and amazing. That's why my posts have been so long and that's why I feel so familiar. Even though I never spoke much before now, I've always been here. I read all of your posts intently, every single one and i appreciate the knowledge and wisdom and experiences shared here. I always wondered why Father didn't "come to the rescue". He knew I needed that terrible experience so that I knew this is serious business. I really knew nothing of attacks other than experiencing night terrors infested with greys when I was younger, before I knew about any of this. He knows us better than we know ourselves, his wisdom is truly infinite. He knows I'm a stubborn, hard headed person that more often than not needs to learn things the hard way. Even through all of this I never turned from him I never blamed him and I take full responsibility for everything that happened to me and he knows that too.
That's why I made the post about drugs not being a part of Satanism. It was never meant to boss anybody around or act as an authority on SS as I do NOT in anyway shape or form consider myself to be. I was only sharing my experience to help anyone who was in the same boat so they didn't feel alone as I did. To encourage them to stay strong, I know how quickly and sneakily the karma in our birth charts can cause us to do self-destructive things and to know about them is the first step to ridding yourself of them. Knowledge is power, I understand a lot of these sayings now. My progress has been amazing and I am proud of myself.
Again thank you for powering through this long post, but my family deserves to know me the best they can, seeing as we can't physically meet each other right now. One day we will and it will be glorious and on that day the world will know THE JOY OF SATAN!! Hail Satan my brothers and sisters! HAIL HE WHO IS ETERNAL TRUTH!!!
PS: I would, also like to congratulate High Priestess Shannon Outlaw, I am so happy for you and High Priest HoodedCobra making it onto the clergy, I remember seeing both of you before becoming High Priestess & High Priest respectively. I can't imagine the honor it must be.
Hail Satan!!!Hail the Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!May the jew be trampled under Satanic feet!!!
![Voice of Enki [JG]](/data/avatars/m/0/84.jpg?1705131368){kind=avatar}
![Karnonnos [JG]](/data/avatars/s/21/21596.jpg?1704756304){kind=avatar}