Shadowcat said:
Abyssos said:
Agreed, I just have one thing to say to the OP:
Cope. Seethe. Dilate. Didn't read + malding + ratio + walmart receipts + gope + not based and poop pilled + sponsored by Home Depot + Goatse + 7 Days Free + Nicholas Cage + Norwood 4 rage.
I'm shitposting to make a point that it's a waste of time to bother reading posts by exposed traitors. It's a waste of time to take them seriously, and it's a waste of our time for them to still be here. Any time someone like Sundara tries to act like they didn't literally turncoat and slander the Gods and our forums, what should really happen is they should get spammed with shitposts and anything that deflects whatever bullshit they're trying to pull.
I did not read any of Sundara's posts. I did not click on this topic to read Sundara's posts. I came here to drop a fat Canadian Fire Hydrant Repository and do the 4Chan dab, and schizo-post that Sundara is seething and coping, seething and coping. The only words I remember seeing are possession and Dr. Phil. We need to make it clear that degenerates like Sundara are not getting attention, and that we are not reading their posts. I will never give traitors any sincere and authentic engagement.
This is the only Dr. Phil episode worth watching.
With all that out of the way, wumbo skippy the chipmunk portable injection compstop coomlordaeron buddy boyo based and racing-streak pilled brutally turd-mogged by black metal screaming Japanese toilet sammy the skillful sock M72 LAW Call of booty 360 dolphin dive quickscope look at me i am sniper watch me lunge MLG.
VOE is right "shitposting" has no place in this forum. Remember also what I told you about your wording and how your message can be received. You will run into less resistance if you refine the way you bring across your points. For those who do not know, HP Cobra has given Sundara another chance here publicly in the forums some time ago. https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=77301#p385381. I do not know how this still stands at this moment.
I gave some critique in the thread about what we would like to see from jos that actually should have fit in the critique thread that came later. I'll reiterate here that this is an example of how certain parts of the forum need to grow up. This shit has to go, as it indeed gives outsiders a bad image of JOS. Don't be a shitposter. If you are going to post something, make sure it is useful for everyone. Don't come here to constantly rant or post useless things, this isn't social media. It is a place to learn about the Gods and serious occult practices. It would also make me personally very happy to see everyone reacting more and engaging in useful topics instead of more so in drama threads.
People can make mistakes and get off track for whatever reason and find a way to fix themselves. Unless they time and time again betray trust and do significant damage to others there could be hope depending on the circumstance. Sometimes things happen and its part of human error.
I realized I was starting to police people too much when it came to catching would-be infiltrators when this is honestly a waste of time. It started especially when I ran into 2-3 so-called SS who turned out to be jews and I started to become hyperdefensive. It was a time waste for others as well. There is no point in this because jews will be rooted out in time always and they will never change no matter how many chances they are given. Time will show and speak for itself if it will show someone is a jew. Unless there is evidence of significant damage done or danger there is no use in screaming "fire."
These are all responses that in my eyes are a bit overkill. Yeah, no need to worry that much BUT - I just found something out - a little more or less than a year ago I was not able to sacrifice much sleep and I was having some trouble sleeping.
I decided to just go in and get something for it and I asked for nothing major. I was told it’s just like Benadryl. “No side effects and non addictive” They also gave me trazodone and I did not take that because I was aware that it is also used as an antidepressant. Let me clarify - this was a willing request of mine. I’m already aware of how bad benzodiazepines are so I generally stay away from those. Only took it once. I actually started taking hydroxyzine frequently around Jan. This year. There wasn’t a lot on the internet about it but now there is. It affects serotonin levels. I just looked it up. It created symptoms in me that were not natural to me. I did not feel like myself after months and I actually thought this was just me. I had no idea.
I haven’t taken it for months and so I decided to take it again the last few days and I feel like some of those weird symptoms are subtly there again. I think I finally figured out what happened at least as far as an extended period of anger. Some of that though, valid enough.
It was fine to have taken it off and on but I was taking this daily for about 4-5 months and in larger doses. I didn’t realize what it could do long term. I also liked it because it is an antihistamine and I this was the only thing that took my allergy symptoms down. So I stopped taking this basically cold turkey as well. Which also had an effect but that worked for me.
The more I stay away from it the better I feel.
I actually DID tell cobra here that I had gotten this. Not that I had to.
I didn’t expect for this stuff make me outright feel suicidal after it had built up in my system. And then after coming off of it, worsening - and so no maybe my sentences aren’t as cohesive as they were or valuable to you. So I like that last paragraph.
I have never been mental, delusional, bipolar, ect. realistically. And hard circumstances have never even bothered me that much, at least not by societies definition, they usually just make me stronger. and so thank you guys for at least letting me talk this out even if it is amongst my own self mostly. But for your guys’ sake and clarity too.
I don’t think I would have actually seen this if I hadn’t but tipped off to be more safe. I’m sad that I’m just now seeing this as having as serious of effects as it has. Because as someone who knows themself… even I’m surprised.
There is a massive war on especially young people with the “mental health movement” and the promotion of psychedelics or pharmaceuticals, or pharmaceutical psychedelics as a cure for invisible or societally inflicted problems, and from doctors and even parents themselves. This medication wouldn’t have been an issue if I had only done it once or twice. Lesson learned. It probably wasn’t the car accident, it was definitely that.
So - less cohesive sentences, suddenly depressed, darker topics, anger and lower moods = serotonin depletion and loss of an ability to even determine the cause of this up until.. literally until hours ago re-researching this.
Now DESPITE THIS - I still stand by some of the info that I’ve said even if it was said in a very “bad” way. But since I’m just realizing this now - because even head injuries are not that serious - I mean they can be but mine was not that bad and I’ve had a lot of these and I always recover fine or don’t have my moods effected.
This medication is labeled as an antihistamine by the way. Or they sold it to me as this.
I have heard that anti depressants are some of the WORST things to take. Especially in a circumstance where it isn’t needed. And apparently this acts as an anti-depressant.
I’d honestly rather die with mental capacity than to succumb to this stuff. Doctors try to put people on these for EVERY minor issue. People just need to be themselves and be strong in that. I had noticed that when I was younger I could take anti depressants for just a couple months, have decent side effects and be fine. The older a person gets I think the more weak a mind gets or it doesn’t recover as quickly.
I’m not some out of control maniac or an addict. I was off by this for a minute.
And I think I already said, in reality I’ve been fine but others noticed just that being as low as I have been is not me. Obviously I’ve said stuff here I wouldn’t say to anyone else. Even under an influence.
There are still people here who cannot even understand the intelligence of actual animals so that is more alarming than my own behavior in my eyes. But - digress. Who knows. Things that affect serotonin are pretty serious. A multitude of factors can affect a persons clarity and mood.
And I’m not explaining this to appease anyone, build trust, or ask for some kind of “worthiness” tag.. It really has no emotional basis here but it is just to inform. This is obviously kind of scary that I am only just now able to see it and that that much self sight can be lost over such a thing.
And like I said, I promise nothing. Because the world is currently like a massive hurricane and Confucius say, shit happen. And if I get the pretend boot over this, do I care? Not literally. If it happens, it happens. That’s NOT what I care about or why I still post. Some sort of a reputation or fear of consequence or negative tag. But I DO care about proper information and the truth of all things. And other people. And how to be better.
“He who cannot obey himself will be commanded.” (Or labeled)
-Nietzsche. Natural law? I’m speaking for myself because it’s also the right thing to do. A person cannot do that if they do not know in the moment. But time gives way to most things.
My friends started warning me about pharmaceuticals MONTHS ago too, like right around this time, and I was like “YEAH guys I agree, this stuff is JUST an antihistamine though stop worrying about it” because I was still affected by it. It’s like a cloud of confusion. THEY noticed though, in hindsight.
Now that I KNOW that this is it though, I will try cease this stuff entirely. Instantly got some important input after telling others about this medication causing extreme depression. with similar experiences on a different platform. Just now. I haven’t been sold on any of the other plausible causes.
Now I hope this actually makes sense. Because this makes sense to me.