i still remember like 2 years ago theres was this meditation i read on JoS i cant remember where but it goes something like this :-you have 3 balls , 2 of the are color white for example and the last one is colored blackyoud have to close your eyes and feel the ball and you need to know by feel what color corresponds to what balli remember also similar meditations were on that page aswell but i cant recall them does any of you know ?and by the way theres this book i forgot its name id like to re-read it if u know it post below , it has something to do with satans servant wrapping something 40 times i cant remember much of it but i think it talks about the battle in garden of eiden or somethingthanks in advance for everyone who replies!