On Mon, 11/30/15, Simon Jones
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Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Dedication
To:
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Date: Monday, November 30, 2015, 6:07 AM
It
has been roughly 2 and a half years since I last posted,
during that
time I studied Spiritual Satanism left, right, sideways,
backwards and inside
out to fathom every possible meaning to every little
scrupulous detail of the
literature. It didn't matter how often I studied, how
much effort I put in, nor
what I understood, fundamentally there are still too many
unanswered questions
and queries that stop me from dedicating, like shackles
binding me from falling
over the other side of the fence. Unfortunately I am a
cautious character;
until I feel more than positive about a decision, I will
wait, study each side
of each coin to get a personal understanding before diving
in the deep
end. This is a problem I have with Lucifer, how can he
expect I dedicate
the most valuable part of my existence to a being I do not
know personally
there is not trust, essentially I know nothing about him or
the benevolent
demons of the world, all I can do is take the literatures
word for it, in the
hopes that if I dive in the deep end, the sharks will not
gnaw at my soul, and
that I will be condemned to an oblivion I cannot even
possibly comprehend, he
may know me, but from where I'm standing, he’s no more
than a stranger.
Dedicating for me does not seem brave nor courageous, it is
simply a leap of
faith down a relationship that could make or break life as a
whole. The ideology of SS and the principles of
Lucifer are inspiring and
something that I could aspire to if I had that
“assurance” that I’ll be spat
out the other side soul intact, ready to be empowered and
ready to fight. The
idea of Lucifer existing infuriates me, It takes a lot of
effort for me to even
consider getting angry, but this is different, it’s best
described as anger not
my own, or it is but it’s being empowered by something
other than myself. This
anger is not hate, it’s difficult to put into words,
suppose it’s prudent to
say I blame Lucifer for everything, how the world is shaped,
how “weak” he was
before his initial defeat and how he could allow the human
species to develop
in such a spiritually deprived and mindless outlet. It is
far easier to
place blame than to accept inherent responsibility for our
own destruction and
misfortune. This is how I feel from time to time, more
often than not I
have had an “emotional” dream or nightmare, waking up
engulfed in anger,
betrayal, sadness and resentment, being so upset it feels
I've been emotionally
punctured, my body goes into fight or flight mode trying to
hold back the tears
or at least hide them from the world. I can remember how
vivid the dreams are,
all I have to do is think, and the emotions slowly trickle
back, these types of
experiences…are amazing, I love it, could it be a
benevolent entity trying to
communicate through emotion? Possibly, could it be a
fabrication of my own
imagination? Possibly, could it be a malevolent being trying
to subconsciously
re-program me to hate Lucifer and his ilk? Possibly. Saying
that however not
all emotions are dreadful, but they are incredibly intense
that affect me for
days, it reminds me of the very first day I discovered
Satanism that I cling to
selfishly, best described as euphoria, extreme happiness and
comfort with
beneficial “coincidences occurring, nothing could possibly
ruin that time period
even if they tried, this feeling lasted for a week,
decreasing in intensity
after each passing day. Lucifer’s existence could essentially the
best news I could have ever
imagined if it is true, think of the possibilities for
spiritual advancement,
physical and psychological advancement and well-being. It is
such a delightful
feeling that makes me burst with excitement that a God truly
aspires to lead
his people, to educate and to obliterate our enemies for the
betterment of the
world. I think about Satanism once a day it doesn't
matter how well my day has
gone or how badly I will always ponder, I'm not
desperate or obsessed, I just
see Satanism with a “hopeful” outlook that it may be
true; whenever I'm
stressed or simply hoping, I get an inner sense of peace and
clairvoyance when
I read and study, whilst scrolling through endless emails to
see that I'm
clearly not alone in my endeavours, it is indeed
heart-warming. I've been at a
vulnerable state over the past few months, I feel more
“in-tuned” with the
world as cliché as it sounds, I'm more social, more
confident, and more
emotionally engaged, but the feeling is…different from
what I'm used to, I'm
more receptive, it is difficult to describe. Long story
short, description of
myself, University student, 21 years old, hopes and dreams,
I want to be a
Royal Marine officer aspiring to become a commander of the
British Special
Forces, I have left a fair amount of detail out for
speculative and personal
reasons. I have all the necessary tools and equipment to
dedicate and start
meditating; I just need someone to fly kick my soul over to
the other side of
the fence, as I do not know how long this feeling will last.
I need a whip to
smack me in the right direction, before I end up on the
marathon. I apologise for any offence or transgression
caused, and apologies
for the long post, but your influence could be the last
deciding factor.
From Britain with love, Simon.
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Congratulations on your new dedication!!! 
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