Aldrick said:Nikois666 said:Aldrick said:Before I came to Satan, I was taught to summon Angels. They completely ruined my life. When a Demoness was coming to me actually trying to help me. I said what are you some kinda higher Angel? She said DONT CALL ME THAT FILTH!
Later she introduced me Satan, who told me to go online and look up Satanism, and brought me here.
I came to Satan, saying please protect me from these fucking angels.
To our mindset that makes sense. But remember this is all before I read the site. These things are horrendous garbage, I promise you that.
How were you able to communicate with the Demoness? Were your astral senses already open? Or was it something else?
I was born very psychic and then was trained by Spiritualists.
Hopefully I can do that for my kids. I was born with a lot of inner anguish for and concern with things that I hadn't yet actually experienced in life, which I now only remember very little of. Constant overthinking and always being occupied with too real life things for a kid to think about, and in an abstract way that functioned around my depth of understanding as a child. I was terrorised by E.T's at one point and particularly in the weeks after I first found the Joy of Satan. My parents were atheist and materialists but from totally xian families which are now cut off. They had more of a spiritualistic view on life than most other atheists, so I guess I'm better off for that.
One time HPHC wrote something about how the Church had some of our people in it that were disillusioned with them and undermined it from within. That resonated within me a lot, and if it were true for my situation, I hope I didn't get screwed over by that. My current life has been without definitively bad events for the most part, everything has come from my own inhibition and these unconscious hangups which seem to have been from even before childhood. If I had come out of the self-imposed shell like I later did after becoming a Satanist, I would have been a nightmare to people I know :lol:
I think the past life stuff can be described as an inverse ego, what has been built up in the life is inverse upon itself in later lives. I think tight retrograde aspects reveal it in a person.
I have deja vu every other week when thinking and reading about certain things also. There are also phrases from other languages that without hearing them, got stuck in my head at several different occasions. If I did have past lives, I was all over the show.
I need to get over some issues first, but I would raise my kids to a high standard early on when it comes to spirituality. I would do the Berkano working for all of them, their natal chart information with progressive charts, and also they would know something about the ancestors in their line as far back as the mid 19th and late 18th century which I've been able to kinda figure out. The ancestor stuff is so cool looking into it, it makes me wonder if I have any kinsmen and distant cousins who are on this forum here with me!
Satanic bloodlines are a thing right? I wonder how far back some of you are to me and who you are to who is here.