Tirnenn said:
Going to also note that even before I fell off entirely, my meditations and such were becoming progressively... sloppy, rushed, etc. I feel like PMS had a hand in screwing with that as well, as my sleep schedule flipped itself on its ugly head again (stuff like this really makes me feel dysphoric again, sigh).
Don't beat yourself up so much. Blood deficiency can make you feel fatigued, spaced-out, etc. Not easy to meditate on these circumstances. Furthermore, this blood deficiency will make the PMS worse, or will give you PMS to begin with. I am referring to TCM by the way, which is Traditional Chinese Medicine: a holistic healthy philosophy. Holistic healing is your ticket to health (as for everybody as well).
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Focus on the yoga that you can do and do as much as you can. Yoga is essential for directly healing and empowering the physical body, which is your weak point right now. Each hatha yoga move will add energy into the organs pertaining to the nadis/tissues that it is stretching, for example.
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Next, focus on daily massage of the acupressure points related to your PMS. Start with these points and narrow down a few that seem to help. Some symptoms will get better immediately, whereas others reflect more chronic conditions. However, stimulation of the acupoint will immediately start the healing process of the organ associated with that acupoint.
The "Three yin crossing" point nourishes the liver, spleen, and kidneys at the same time, for example, and is great for restoring blood and liver health, genital/urinary functioning, as well as digestive strength.
Some of the points may feel slightly sore, which is expected. You will sometimes find them inside little spaces of bone or other nooks and crannies, but not always. Using your finger, as long as you push in the general area, you will hit it. Push with moderate strength and rub in small circles or hold. The better the longer, but try at least 2-5 minutes. You can just watch TV while doing this, for example.
These points and yoga will help your blood deficiency (mostly associated with liver), qi deficiency (mostly associated with spleen), and PMS. Furthermore, it should help you fix your sleep schedule, which is critical for maintaining your health. You will eventually learn exactly which points correspond to the symptoms you feel and how to resolve them.
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Diet wise, the keto diet is not ideal for long term health. If you did not suffer from seizures, I would've suggested you go off it immediately. People get success with keto by reducing lots of processed carbs, but healthy carbs are used for energy.
Therefore, a carb restrictive diet can often lead to energy deficiency, which then leads to kidney deficiency as they are forced to compensate.
Meat and vegetables can sort of substitute, so just do your best to eat healthy here. Vegetables are good for detoxing and cleaning the body, and are what you need to eat to lose weight. However, your blood deficiency takes precedence over this, so you should eat more nourishing foods for your blood, even if this seems counter to losing weight. The weight will come off later.
Foods that build blood are any that are red in color or full of chlorophyll. Kale, spinach, red meat, beets, grapes, etc. If you can find it, eat lots of animal liver. This is the single best thing you can eat to replenish the liver (which houses the blood in the body).
Remove the icecream entirely. It does not matter if it is sugar free or not. The sweeteners, plus the coldness, plus whatever ingredients are in it will cause a lot of dampness in the body. This will hurt the spleen and chill the stomach, directly leading to weight gain and sluggishness.
Meats like pork nourish both the kidneys and the blood, and are great for your condition. Eggs help the yin of the body (which helps kidneys). They also build blood and tonify the spleen/stomach. Beef and chicken are also good. All animal meat is generally warming and nourishing.
Fish is also good, although usually less warming. Be wary of crab, clam, and octopus which are cold in nature. Your body type probably needs more warming and yang.
For vegetables, go for spinach or kale (builds blood). The caveat is that all your food should be warm and cooked, including the leafy greens. This means buying chopped, frozen kale, for example, and heating it in a pan. Asparagus is good for the kidney yin. Broccoli/cauliflower will detox and aid the liver.
Be careful of cucumber, celery, raw salads...these can be too cooling and are probably not the best for you.
Pungent veggies like onion, garlic, leeks, green onions are generally ok for kapha imbalance, but not if you are having hot flashes and feeling irritable (yin deficiency).
Consider small amounts of safe carbs like sweet potato or squash to aid your qi and thereby aid the kidneys. Just try like 1 meal with safe carbs every few days and judge how your seizures are. I think this will be the best of both worlds where the seizures don't occur, but the body will not be so stressed out by low carbs.
This is known as carb cycling, if you wish to google more.
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Eye bags/dark circles= kidney deficiency. This will result in genital/urinary issues, fatigue, anxiety, etc. The kidneys are batteries for both yin and yang of the body, so deficient kidneys contributes to a lot.
Eczema: This is considered "heat", which is similar to inflammation and can mean a yin deficiency or hyperactivity of certain organs. This will resolve with early sleep and healing the kidneys, mainly.
Anemia and hair falling out: Blood deficiency. The kidneys, liver, and spleen are responsible for creating and maintaining blood in the body.
Seizures: Liver "wind", which means basically the liver is not doing its job as smoothing out energy transmission in the body. The kidneys are responsible for generating liver tissue, so you can see the interplay here.
Acne: If they are mainly red bumps, then this is from heat. If they are white heads, then this is "dampness". Dampness is a type of pathogen that comes from improper digestion, mainly. The spleen is responsible for properly processing food and removing excess moisture. When it is weak and doesn't do this, then dampness accumulates.
Dampness is a yin pathogen and is associated with kapha imbalance, such as gaining weight.
The point here is that if you focus on spleen health, this is the route to lose weight and get rid of whiteheads. Certain foods in each category are good for removing dampness, so there is no need for keto or other restrictive diets for the purpose of weight loss. You would want to follow a "kapha diet" for this, but focus on the other issues first.
Low thyroid function: Basically yang deficiency of the body.
Allergies: If the allergies occur during digestion, this is due to digestive weakness. Could be either spleen or stomach. If they occur when they touch your skin, this suggest lung/large intestine weakness. The allergies will go away as the digestion improves. You can substitute for these foods anyway, so don't worry too much about it.
Left arm: I assume it will heal better once you have better blood quality. The spleen is responsible for maintaining the tissues, whereas the liver maintains the tendons/ligaments (with blood).
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The above is not to scare you, but rather just so you can see clearly what you are dealing with. The acne and eczema are secondary symptoms and will be fixed once the organ imbalances are corrected. The weight can be fixed easily, but you should focus on healing the organs with heavier foods before you worry about weight loss.
The yoga will directly energize and benefit the organs. Hatha yoga is more yin in nature, and will repair the tissues of the organs. Kundalini yoga, Tibetan 5 Rites, cardio, weight lifting, are all yang style and will benefit the ability of the organs to do their jobs (filtering, digesting, processing, etc).
You should do as many hatha and T5R poses as possible. Don't worry about it feeling incomplete or anything. Every single pose will directly push your body in the right direction, especially combined with acupuncture. You can even do each routine 2x a day, for example.
Also consider some sort of cardio or other movement that you can do. Jumping jacks, walking, pacing around. I am sure you can google or find something. Idk if your apartment has a gym or not. You could get an inexpensive peace of equipment or google for this.
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As far as the meditation goes, this requires a certain amount of willpower to do, which is lacking if you have no prior training, let alone blood and qi deficiency of the body. Do not beat yourself up so much.
What you should focus on is just a very small, yet consistent amount of practice.
Each exercise, such as cleaning or spinning or inhaling, will add to the amount of energy your body obtains from the universe every day. Therefore, a
clean and fast spinning chakra will yield more energy to the body to allow it to heal faster. You should continue these activities, but not so much that you feel drained.
Instead of spinning for 1 minute on each chakra, just do 15 or 30 seconds. Instead of cleaning for 10 minutes, just do it for 5 minutes, and so on.
Start wherever you can comfortably manage. Consider using mantras instead of energy breathing to generate lots of energy. Vibrating takes less willpower than spending time willing energy into you.
Also consider a mantra like SaTaNaMa or a sun mantra like Aum Surya for healing purposes. You don't have to wait for a good astrological date. You can vibrate either of these a small, yet decent amount of times, such as 10x or 20x, then affirm the energy is healing and empowering the physical body.
Void meditation is good for your mental efficiency and willpower and should be practiced as well.
This will allow you to push a little more when you are feeling bad and get the ball rolling. For example, you use this new willpower to do yoga, then you don't feel as bad since your physical body is empowered.
Your physical conditions will make it initially harder for you to advance, but it is NOT impossible. Don't think it is impossible, just keep trying. The way out of your situation is to slowly and surely increase your physical and spiritual energy every day. Don't set yourself up to fail by doing too much.
Whenever you feel bad, just convince yourself to do yoga. You can also do energy breathing while lying in bed, for example. You can also hold acupoints while sitting or lying in bed, while watching youtube or whatever. I am hopeful and confident that you can manage the PMS with acupoints, allowing you better sleep and so forth.
Anyway, good luck.
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