Fuchs said:
She told me off all the men she had sex with, with me she had the best sex. As I said she also said she only loved me despite cheating. A other practical example:
We were on a holiday vacation I payed for her fully. During the vacation she told me she needs space from me and I want to much sex with her. Everyday she went alone camel riding. Later I found out she fucked with the camel rider guy/guys.
Respectful greetings, Fuchs,
I hate to comment but, may I ask you if this is the same woman from back when a girl whom you were together with, kissed a black guy in front of you at a party? And she is now having sex with camel riders, despite claiming she's had the best sex with you out of everyone? It sounds to me like she's just saying that to keep you on a leash. Plus she's apparently into race-mixing.
Has this essentially continued on for over a year? You deserve freedom and to work towards it. Unbind from this individual. Listen to the others and work upon your inner world, and you will strengthen yourself beyond the desires to dish out justice against such petty low-lives. Somebody like that woman, meanwhile, will continue to spiral downwards until they hit rock bottom, and only in the end do they realize what kind of grave they've dug for themselves. I've seen it firsthand.
Justice is a true form of punishment, but if you've spent so much energy for this long, when you could have separated and grown on your own, I personally do not believe your energies are being funneled to the appropriate priorities. I hope you manage to detach and grow once and for all. I also don't intend to encourage turning the other cheek, but rather to inform you that there are greater priorities for your energies and effort, that you can direct your focus towards.
I myself was once hard-bound to an insane desire for revenge for 7 years, and I know what the desire to punish feels like more than anyone, minus Wildfire, probably. But Fuchs, you must understand that you truly possess a superior future as an SS, with the tools, knowledge and community to strengthen yourself past the reach of people like this parasitic woman you speak of.
Wish you well.