Becoming a Satanist Has Ruined My Life, PLease Ban My Account

[Hollowskull666]

I want nothing to do with Joy of Satan or Lucifer anymore. It was a mistake and realize Satan used my childhood trauma against me to decieve me to worship him.

I have been a devout Satanist since 2016 and it has landed me in scary, scary, scary places. It has led me to being human trafficked, homeless, raped multiple times, attacked and bullied everywhere I go, and to havesevere depression and spiritual attacks and be under severe spiritual warfare. Everywhere i go I see creepy ugly looking people who wear satanic symbols. I get bullied all the time despite being kind hearted, and polite unless I have to defend myself.

Last year I decided after only being on the main website to come on ancient forums and the fact people bullied and attacked me on here off the bat just for asking for help should of been my sign to turn to God, but instead I got deeper into Satanism and fought for Satan with all my heart.

Now I know that I have been deceived and lied to. Satanism has made me isolated, depressed, even more suicidal than I was as a child, and is ruining my life. I think spiritual awakening is evil and demonic and designed to make you kill yourself. I have thrown out all my crystals and my tarot deck and occult items and repented to the Lord

I have turned back to satanism and now worship Jesus Christ after deep thought. I was getting attacked in my sleep and the only think that helped was saying in the name of jesus. Doing daily aura cleaning and building, cleansing my soul, returning hexes and spells to senders, doing extreme cord cutting, and rituals for protection on a daily basis for a year now should of made my life better, but nope. im on the verge of suicidal.

Its crazy because when I was really fighting for satan, and I was homeless i would have ppl target me and talk about the devil, one time this guy locked me in a closet and told me the devil is lurking in the corner and terrorized me and wouldnt let me leave. why didnt i see this as a sign to find god?

The only thing that only makes me slightly still believe this website is that I get stalked and harassed by jews and they look very creepy and ugly, but nope. my life is worse than it was when i was a christian as a teenager. i had a horrible childhood and my adulthood is worse.

Please ban my account i want nothing to do with this and im very scared.

You simply lack the strength to protect yourself. Once you overcome your childhood trauma and improve your restore self confidence only then can you defend yourself. Adapt or die.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

This is just pure comedy gold.

This person is being helped even tough she is bashing the gods especially father Satan, She cannot even explain the simplest things like meditations/workings or runes she used even tough she claims to be with Satan for 5 years, She is praising jewsus... And people here are still trying to help her, Even tough all she does is lash out against every SS that tries to help her in any way.

This is done on the chance that they aren't trolling. Either they are trolling and you shoot them down by giving them the solution to the alleged problem, or you actually end up helping them.

Lots of people had blasphemous thoughts before getting seriously into JOS. It is not about what you once thought, but what you are willing to change.

You are right though, the story does not make a whole lot of sense.

nah im out, ban my fucking acount. for a moment fancymancy convinced me to stay and peoples advice here, but al the name calling and false accusations are hurting my mental health severely and i cant be a satanist when these are the people that represent it. ban my account, i want nothing to do with this it if its followers are this fucking disgusting and evil. i dont even know if illl go to christianity again either because their followers are just as bad.

And let me guess, we have to spend another 20 years here writing replies to you, begging you for you to save yourself while you subvert your own self by denying input and wasting everyone's time and energy.

You're banned, you are really parasitic. This mindset is what led you to your position, and it will probably lead you further. The reason we advise against this so strongly is because that's where it leads.

One thing more, your mental health after all of this is solely on your own hands. You don't want to change this, therefore, suffer.

 

[Shadowcat]

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Sly Scorpion is a good caring man and he wants to help people. What is christian about that? There should be more people like him.

He is actually one of the coolest people i have ever talked to. I focused on his energy a few times and it was like a soothing blue blanket. He's a good friend to have around here but like the rest of us he isn't perfect yet. Hes done really awesomely lately shitting all over the enemy which is great.

 

[Shadowcat]

This really is not a nice reply at all to be honest. Sounds like you really have not had much experience with this kind of thing.

Slyscorpion, there's a lot of people who want to see you grow and evolve. You have a savior complex, and you're drawn to these xians with xian energy and victim mindset like a moth to a flame. You keep trying and trying, and thinking that if you just word things in the right way, word it just a little bit better this time to not trigger them and get them to see your point and take your advice, that they will listen and change. I know because I used to do the exact same thing for years with a xian. It's never going to happen. It's a xian game. It doesn't matter how perfectly you word things because they will never change, and you will never get that victory and feel accomplished for helping them to help themself. Because they won't help themselves, ever. They are addicted to their problems. And you are addicted to trying to get them to stop being addicted to their problems and get better. This is a mutual cycle, and xians will always feed on you like this unless YOU change. There's people who see your potential, and they want you to stop dragging yourself down by trying to help hopeless people. You have to accept it that you will never see a person like this change, and you have to let go. There are people who are more deserving of your help that you can ACTUALLY help.

It makes me feel good to help out the victim and the marginalized aspect of society and make them feel better more empowered etc cause I feel like a victim myself and marginalized by the society I live in.

That is the core of this philosophy it has really nothing to do with me being xtian or attracted to anything xtian.

What jrvans well meaning message is however is don't let yourself be walked all over by the people who would take this for granted. Its good to give the benefit of the doubt but to a point. I myself have learned the hard way as well that not everything deserves to be loved and mothered. Its hard. Especially if you have alot of water.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

This is just pure comedy gold.

This person is being helped even tough she is bashing the gods especially father Satan, She cannot even explain the simplest things like meditations/workings or runes she used even tough she claims to be with Satan for 5 years, She is praising jewsus... And people here are still trying to help her, Even tough all she does is lash out against every SS that tries to help her in any way.

The story she is telling is just insane, I don't know what weird world she lives in, But the things happening to her in her stories is just ludicrous. There is one thing that i don't understand, Or possibly have missed. She stated that she is homeless, Later on she says that she is scared to leave her home, So what, is she scared to leave her cardboard box or something? Does her cardboard box also have internet?

On one side i'm amazed that this stuff is allowed here, Especially because its not allowed to bash the gods/Satan or praise jewsus on this forum. But on the other side i just love to read this kind of sht every now and then.

You clearly dont read properly, I SAID WHEN I WAS HOMELESS, NOT IM HOMELESS, BUT WHEN I WAS HOMELESS!!

IM NOT BASHING SATAN IM FUCKING SCARED BECAUSE MY LIFE IS A LIVING HELL, AND ITS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT EVERYONE BLAMES ME AND SCAPEGOATS FOR OTHER PEOPLES FUCKED UP ACTIONS IM NOT MAKING STUPID ACTIONS, IM FUCKING BEING TORMETED AND MISTREADTED EVERYWHERE I GO BY OTHER HUMANS BEINGS

The only way out of this is meditation and fixing your own mind.

It is not by threatening people you will kill yourself or any of the things you are doing now.

The only way out is to fix this for yourself step by step. What people do to you is their own mistake, what you do to not defend yourself or grow out of this, is your mistake.

You're banned since you have been causing endless problems repeatedly, but the situation stands that you still have to save yourself.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Slyscorpion, there's a lot of people who want to see you grow and evolve. You have a savior complex, and you're drawn to these xians with xian energy and victim mindset like a moth to a flame. You keep trying and trying, and thinking that if you just word things in the right way, word it just a little bit better this time to not trigger them and get them to see your point and take your advice, that they will listen and change. I know because I used to do the exact same thing for years with a xian. It's never going to happen. It's a xian game. It doesn't matter how perfectly you word things because they will never change, and you will never get that victory and feel accomplished for helping them to help themself. Because they won't help themselves, ever. They are addicted to their problems. And you are addicted to trying to get them to stop being addicted to their problems and get better. This is a mutual cycle, and xians will always feed on you like this unless YOU change. There's people who see your potential, and they want you to stop dragging yourself down by trying to help hopeless people. You have to accept it that you will never see a person like this change, and you have to let go. There are people who are more deserving of your help that you can ACTUALLY help.

It makes me feel good to help out the victim and the marginalized aspect of society and make them feel better more empowered etc cause I feel like a victim myself and marginalized by the society I live in.

That is the core of this philosophy it has really nothing to do with me being xtian or attracted to anything xtian.

What jrvans well meaning message is however is don't let yourself be walked all over by the people who would take this for granted. Its good to give the benefit of the doubt but to a point. I myself have learned the hard way as well that not everything deserves to be loved and mothered. Its hard. Especially if you have alot of water.

That's a good point. In some situations I really should have not given people a chance when I did especially in the past where I literally had homeless people taking over my place and stealing all sorts of stuff cause I wanted to help people. I have gained ground on knowing what types of people not to hang out with though. I don't even bother now. But this is the internet little risk anything could happen on these forums. So I thought if I could help someone think enough they could get themselves out of a bad situation cool i make the work of the Gods eaiser.

With what Cobra responded too to be honest this is starting to look like something that would be a hopeless waste of time to even try on. To me at least. But I wanted to be nice and empathetic at least try earlier because I dealt with some situations that were not good myself and knew some people that dealt with bad situations So I thought I could help out with that. The only reason I posted here.

Looks like this person won't fix these things.

 

[darkmonkey666]

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Sly Scorpion is a good caring man and he wants to help people. What is christian about that? There should be more people like him.

He is actually one of the coolest people i have ever talked to. I focused on his energy a few times and it was like a soothing blue blanket. He's a good friend to have around here but like the rest of us he isn't perfect yet. Hes done really awesomely lately shitting all over the enemy which is great.

You feel close to the same feeling from Jupiter in Pisces btw. Do the Square one of the times it's there. You probably will like that you will see what I mean.

Glad you think I am cool though.

 

[darkmonkey666]

And yes that is the problem too much water energy and element in my soul especially Pisces and Neptune. If anyone knows stuff that may help that would be great.

Invoking fire no that would not fix it just create an over balance in fire and other issues I have 5 fire placements.

 

[Shadowcat]

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Sly Scorpion is a good caring man and he wants to help people. What is christian about that? There should be more people like him.

He is actually one of the coolest people i have ever talked to. I focused on his energy a few times and it was like a soothing blue blanket. He's a good friend to have around here but like the rest of us he isn't perfect yet. Hes done really awesomely lately shitting all over the enemy which is great.

You feel close to the same feeling from Jupiter in Pisces btw. Do the Square one of the times it's there. You probably will like that you will see what I mean.

Glad you think I am cool though.

I have got a whole schedule of planetary squares. Currently on mars squares, gunna do 2, then i got a moon square after Yule and venus square right before Ostara. I was thinking about jupiter squares ill see if i can fit one in..i need it too tbh

 

[HelmOfLight]

I love you 666fairy

 

[Draconi666]

https://satanslibrary.org/ExposingChristianity/EXPOSING_CHRISTIANITY_MAIN.html
I highly recommend you to study this trough fully. It may deprogram you at some level. You shouldn’t quit satanism I feel it is for you while considering your manner to write but I also think that enemy easly approach because you easly accept everything. You should go deeper into yourself to get the feeling of your own and stick to it. Please don’t worship Christ it is worst mistake you could ever do for this please study exposing christianity, at the bottom of the page it is even mp3 articles to make it more easy for you. Be strong!

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

nah im out, ban my fucking acount. for a moment fancymancy convinced me to stay and peoples advice here, but al the name calling and false accusations are hurting my mental health severely and i cant be a satanist when these are the people that represent it. ban my account, i want nothing to do with this it if its followers are this fucking disgusting and evil. i dont even know if illl go to christianity again either because their followers are just as bad.

Please understand that JOS is under heavy attack and therefore people are forced to keep their guard up.

If you are a genuine SS, then people will welcome you, but that is what people are having a problem determining. Obviously, you know who you are at heart.

If Christianity is just as bad, what is the alternative? It is the ancient religion that all humanity used to follow, which is Satanism. Don't let a few people being mean take that from you.

There are solutions available to you, but you must take your time and stay calm. Don't let one hasty decision wreck your future. You are standing at a crossroads here.

Take a deep breath and realize you went through some bad attacks and bad times. It is not the end of the world. However, giving up on everything will only make things worse.

 

[Account]

I love you 666fairy

Ok...
Do you like unbalanced energies?

 

[HauptSturm]

don't give up

 

[Stormblood]

This is done on the chance that they aren't trolling. Either they are trolling and you shoot them down by giving them the solution to the alleged problem, or you actually end up helping them.

Lots of people had blasphemous thoughts before getting seriously into JOS. It is not about what you once thought, but what you are willing to change.

You are right though, the story does not make a whole lot of sense.

nah im out, ban my fucking acount. for a moment fancymancy convinced me to stay and peoples advice here, but al the name calling and false accusations are hurting my mental health severely and i cant be a satanist when these are the people that represent it. ban my account, i want nothing to do with this it if its followers are this fucking disgusting and evil. i dont even know if illl go to christianity again either because their followers are just as bad.

And let me guess, we have to spend another 20 years here writing replies to you, begging you for you to save yourself while you subvert your own self by denying input and wasting everyone's time and energy.

You're banned, you are really parasitic. This mindset is what led you to your position, and it will probably lead you further. The reason we advise against this so strongly is because that's where it leads.

One thing more, your mental health after all of this is solely on your own hands. You don't want to change this, therefore, suffer.

Worse than Azorm.

 

[darkmonkey666]

nah im out, ban my fucking acount. for a moment fancymancy convinced me to stay and peoples advice here, but al the name calling and false accusations are hurting my mental health severely and i cant be a satanist when these are the people that represent it. ban my account, i want nothing to do with this it if its followers are this fucking disgusting and evil. i dont even know if illl go to christianity again either because their followers are just as bad.

And let me guess, we have to spend another 20 years here writing replies to you, begging you for you to save yourself while you subvert your own self by denying input and wasting everyone's time and energy.

You're banned, you are really parasitic. This mindset is what led you to your position, and it will probably lead you further. The reason we advise against this so strongly is because that's where it leads.

One thing more, your mental health after all of this is solely on your own hands. You don't want to change this, therefore, suffer.

Worse than Azorm.

Yeah I am starting to recognize the victim mentality in people. It doesn't make for a very good life and most the time talking to people about it is useless even if you send them links to articles directly on the same mentality they have (like I did earlier) they don't realize it is a problem or want to get better.

 

[alwayscurious]

Listen mate, you chose to go down this path out of your own free will, you could have chosen to remain an ignorant goyim, a brainwashed idiot with no mind, body and soul, you could have chosen to live a blissful life of ignorance, apathy and self indulgence, you could have chosen to remain a gullible slave to your jewish and gentile masters with no life purpose, but instead you decided to wake up and stop sleeping from reality, instead you had enough of your mental slavery and woke up from the matrix, instead you decided to seek the truth and spread it to the ignorant masses before it is too late, you, yes you, choose to break free. Do you realize how rare it is for people to awake from their chains and break them? Do you realize how hard it is to be a rebel, a warrior, an outcast? Do you realize how much blood, sweat, and tears have been fused together in an effort get rid of the parasites that deceive and destroy us all? Do you realize how much time is left? Do you know what is at stake if all us rebels give up and give in to the enemy and the chaos that lies ahead. No, giving up has never been and will never be an option, we give up now, and we lose the battle, we give up later, and we lose the war. I say to you then, is it worth to give up? is it worth to despair? is it worth to doubt? Only 9 short years are left till the enemy establishes the New World Order in Denver Colorado, 9 YEARS WE WILL NEVER GET BACK, so I say to thee, IS IT WORTH TO GIVE UP, IS IT? NO MATTETR HOW MUCH HARSHIP WE'VE BEEN THROUGH, NO MATTER HOW MUCH RIDICULE WE'VE FACED, NO MATTER HOW MUCH HATE WE HAVE ABSORBED, NOW MUCH LONELINESS WE HAVE SUFFERED, NOW MATTER HOW MANY MISTAKES WE HAVE MADE, NOW MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE WE HAVE FAILED TO AWAKEN, NOW MATTER HOW MUCH THE ENEMY HAS DESTROYED OUR SPECIES, NOW MATTER HOW MUCH MORE THE ENEMY SEEKS TO DESTROY ,WE CANNOT GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!! THE FUTURE OF THIS SPECIES DEPENDS ON US, THE SATANISTS, THE GENTILES AND THE REBEL JEW, WE CANNOT AFFORD TO LOSE, THE RESISTANCE CANNOT AND WILL N0T BE SNUFFED OUT, THE REBELS OF THE PAST ARE COUNTING ON US TO FINISH THEIR MISSION, AND WE MUST BE THE ONES TO FINISH IT!!!!!!

 

[alwayscurious]

YOU'RE A FUCKING SATANIST, SATANISTS ARE SUPPOSED TO PUSH THROUGH TO THE END, WHY DID YOU EVEN COME HERE TO BEGIN IF YOU WANTED TO FAIL, FREEEDOM EQUALS DANGER, FREEDOM EQUALS RISK, FREEDOM EQUALS CHAOS, IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE THAT THEN YOU WILL BE FUCKING LOST FOREVER, YOU HAVE TO DIE A SPIRITUAL DEATH IN ORDER TO BE BORN AGAIN, IN ORDER TO LIVE AGAIN, YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT AND YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT NOW. THE LIFE OF THE REBEL IS NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART. KNOW THIS, AND YOU SHALL SET YOURSELF FREE, NOT ME, NOT SLYSCORPION, NOT ANYONE ELSE.

 

[Voice of Enki [JG]]

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Just a note, the word "spiritual death" is usually used to refer to the second death, the death of the soul.

If this is experienced, it cannot be recovered from, it destroys totally the being.

From what you said, I know you didn't refer to the second death with your statement, but because it can lead to confusion if such a statement is made it is better to either clarify what you mean or use a different wording that does not conflict with existing wordings of certain statements.

Lastly, writing in all caps does not really add to your post. It is more readable and comes across better if you do not use all caps to write what you wish to communicate.

Hail Satan!

 

[alwayscurious]

I mean rebirth.

 

[Larissa666]

This thread amassed almost 100 replies, and in the end it turned out you wasted everyone’s time and energy.

You got so many good advices in here, and yet you decided to ignore all of them.

You have only yourself to blame. Not Father Satan, not other Gods and Goddesses, not Satanic Brothers and Sisters here, but you.


I hope you realize that.

 

[Soulfire]

As a fellow black person from the Caribbean some of the experiences 666fairy had like rape and human trafficking etc. I believe her because these things are very common in the Caribbean especially Jamaica where she is from, also alot of jews went to that country and probably mixed themselves in with the population for all we know but alot of Caribbean Islands are very evil and filled with enemy sorcerers and Jewish energy, I understand that she suffered alot but the way she was constantly blasphemed Satan and the demons was just outright unacceptable and HP. Hooded cobra did the right thing by banning her else she would have continued in spreading negativity and causing confusion especially to newbies who are not very strong minded. Satanism is not for the weak minded, people who don't have enough willpower usually don't make it very far on this path. Hail Satan!

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

And yes that is the problem too much water energy and element in my soul especially Pisces and Neptune. If anyone knows stuff that may help that would be great.

Invoking fire no that would not fix it just create an over balance in fire and other issues I have 5 fire placements.

Try ether and allow it to balance every element, in all ways. Worked great for me, as far as daily balancing goes.

 

[HelmOfLight]

I love you 666fairy

Ok...
Do you like unbalanced energies?

No

 

[darkmonkey666]

And yes that is the problem too much water energy and element in my soul especially Pisces and Neptune. If anyone knows stuff that may help that would be great.

Invoking fire no that would not fix it just create an over balance in fire and other issues I have 5 fire placements.

Try ether and allow it to balance every element, in all ways. Worked great for me, as far as daily balancing goes.

Ok thanks I kind of feel like I fit the description of having too much fire and water. Will try this.

 

[MoonlessNight666]

Weird, I had the very opposite experience from you. Satanism has changed my life in ways I have only dreamt of before by giving me the tools to heal my soul thus improving my personality which in return healed my everyday life

Your desire for sympathy is totally understandable and you may hear not so cool replies from some people over here not because they have anything against your personally but because every now and then some jewish people come here making posts like this to try to scare newcomers away from Satanism and our true Gods and the path of improvement they have laid out in front of us; their children

Does an ''all-loving'' god punishing you in such severe ways by constantly harassing you make any sense to you?

If he is going to punish people for turning to his enemy aka Satanama for seeking better lives then why did he in all this might and wisdom let this world go to shit? Do you see my point here?

Let's assume YHVH is indeed an all-knowing all-powerful god ( he isnt. He is just a thoughtform created by millions of peoples death and mind/soul energy) he first allows his religions to rape and murder billions upon billions of people then he throws a tantrum like a child and actually punishes people furthermore for trying to improve thier own lives? The truth is Abrahamic god wants you to suffer. Because the negative energy you give off when you suffer is how he keeps himself alive. He is a parasite, nothing more. Why do you think he threatens people with eternal torture if we don't slavishly worship him?

Spiritual Satanism has given every individual who has access to the internet the way they can improve their lives. It's not easy at times yes, but it can be as easy as just vibrating 9 Raum before breakfast and 9 after breakfast etc...
You are given the knowledge you just have to apply it lastly I would like to also add this; when I believed in the Abrahamic god I have NEVER felt his energy or felt like he stepped in, however, whenever I focus on Satan with all my mind I can actually feel a presence that is warm and caring who has stepped in for me when I needed him to do so

 

[NinRick]

Weird, I had the very opposite experience from you. Satanism has changed my life in ways I have only dreamt of before by giving me the tools to heal my soul thus improving my personality which in return healed my everyday life

Your desire for sympathy is totally understandable and you may hear not so cool replies from some people over here not because they have anything against your personally but because every now and then some jewish people come here making posts like this to try to scare newcomers away from Satanism and our true Gods and the path of improvement they have laid out in front of us; their children

Does an ''all-loving'' god punishing you in such severe ways by constantly harassing you make any sense to you?

If he is going to punish people for turning to his enemy aka Satanama for seeking better lives then why did he in all this might and wisdom let this world go to shit? Do you see my point here?

Let's assume YHVH is indeed an all-knowing all-powerful god ( he isnt. He is just a thoughtform created by millions of peoples death and mind/soul energy) he first allows his religions to rape and murder billions upon billions of people then he throws a tantrum like a child and actually punishes people furthermore for trying to improve thier own lives? The truth is Abrahamic god wants you to suffer. Because the negative energy you give off when you suffer is how he keeps himself alive. He is a parasite, nothing more. Why do you think he threatens people with eternal torture if we don't slavishly worship him?

Spiritual Satanism has given every individual who has access to the internet the way they can improve their lives. It's not easy at times yes, but it can be as easy as just vibrating 9 Raum before breakfast and 9 after breakfast etc...
You are given the knowledge you just have to apply it lastly I would like to also add this; when I believed in the Abrahamic god I have NEVER felt his energy or felt like he stepped in, however, whenever I focus on Satan with all my mind I can actually feel a presence that is warm and caring who has stepped in for me when I needed him to do so

She was not referring to jews that „attacked“ her, people (me and Ol included) reacted heavily on her views and stuff, since they were pretty much illegal, with no respect, and against the rules. This person also posted her naked ass on the forums as her Profile avatar, and probably thought ppl would enjoy that or stuff like that.

This person is super bi-polar, and pretty much her psyche is wrecked, probably does weed, eventho it is very bad for her, have not taken this path or her life as serious as she should have, and now she blames everything on Satan, and sucks jews dicks again.

Much time and energy was wasted on said individual, we should all try to forget this person, as at the core this is probably not a satanic soul, now she is even without Satan, so she is not of our concerns.

Welcome back btw.