Back but, idk what to do

[Reed]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

 

[Serbon]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

Welcome back on the forums Reed. Since you didnt meditate every day, I recommend starting from the beginning again, open your chakras

 

[Henu the Great]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

The answers are in you and the key to opening the doors is yogic practice every single day.

Do you need help how to be more consistent? Because pills will not do the trick.

 

[Soaring Eagle 666]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

Welcome back on the forums Reed. Since you didnt meditate every day, I recommend starting from the beginning again, open your chakras

To test which chakras need work, try breathing white-gold energy into your base chakra and spinning it. You will feel energy start to rise up your spine. If it stops at some point, then the chakra above is blocked. (If you feel almost nothing anywhere, then the base chakra is blocked.)
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Open_Blocked_Chakras.html

it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods..

i.e. hormones? That kind of meds? Yes, it is your decision, but be aware that the effects can be very hard to undo, especially if you're a biological female taking male hormones. Maybe try detaching from feelings of dysphoria. Don't try to act on them or remove them. When you look in the mirror, just say "That's how I look.", and get on with life. You see, even IF being trans is valid, hormones, surgeries, etc, are NOT the way to do it. Biokinesis would be the way to do it, and that's very advanced magick. You would probably need to meditate regularly for decades or more before being capable of that. On the other hand, if being trans is a mental disorder, this will become clear eventually after years of meditation. In either case, the answer is to wait. Remember, there's no rush. As Satanists we have eternity ahead of us.

 

[Dark Blue Eye]

Glade to see you back. I remember you because you asked something about Agares. You got already good advices about meditations and I will only tell about how to release this mental stress. The fact you are lonely is only temporarily. We have more lifes to live and if this is not perfect it's ok. When you will reach a level things will get better and if you want friends you will get them. I am also very friendly, but I rather stay alone then being with toxic people. Loneliness is not so bad, especially when you have Gods that cares about you. Talk to Agares and say about me (using my nickname) then she will know what kind of energies you need to feel

 

[Reed]

Yes I know, biokinesis would be the ideal. But i'm doing a shortcut for this. I did exams for everything first of starting and all is okay. I wouldn't take pills, but i do it for necessity. Thank you everyone ^^. Hope everyone is doing good and let's advance!

Hail Satan
Hail Astarte
Hail Agares

 

[Henu the Great]

Yes I know, biokinesis would be the ideal. But i'm doing a shortcut for this. I did exams for everything first of starting and all is okay. I wouldn't take pills, but i do it for necessity. Thank you everyone ^^. Hope everyone is doing good and let's advance!

Hail Satan
Hail Astarte
Hail Agares

What is this neccessity you are talking about?

You are either biologically male or female. To forcibly change this is foolishness, to put it mildly.

 

[Dark Blue Eye]

Yes I know, biokinesis would be the ideal. But i'm doing a shortcut for this. I did exams for everything first of starting and all is okay. I wouldn't take pills, but i do it for necessity. Thank you everyone ^^. Hope everyone is doing good and let's advance!

Hail Satan
Hail Astarte
Hail Agares

What is this neccessity you are talking about?

You are either biologically male or female. To forcibly change this is foolishness, to put it mildly.

Agree. I think you should start a working to remove this toxic mentality

 

[GoldenxChild1]

Hatha Yoga everyday twice a day will help alleviate the dysphoria. I don't think we've had the pleasure but welcome back.

 

[Henu the Great]

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I'm glad you didn't give up sweetheart, there are others here who are going through the same thing. I'm sorry I know it's hard and I can only imagine how 4 months must feel.

It's okay to take the medicine, you do infact deserve to be happy and healthy.

Being dependant upon medication is hard and scary, and there are some big sacrifices involved. But the important thing is that you are taking the reigns on your own destiny. And our magnum opus does in fact make the "body and soul as one"

So there is hope, and this situation is not forever. Listen closely to your body and do what it tells you in regards to the medication. Start small and work up gradually until you get your hormone levels to a comfortable place. Everything's gonna be okay, we are all here for you.

The ancients Said that people like us were created from the dirt under satans fingernails. So that we could travel to the underworld and bring our Goddess astaroth the water of life.

For this it is said the evil Goddess of the underworld cursed the transgenders to be the dregs of society, and to be outcast and hated by people. But in return inanna blessed us with her protection and love, and gifted us with an ability of hers that is called "seidr" or future seeing.

I'm short we are made by Satan and loved by the gods, even if we have no real friends on earth.. We will one day achieve immortality and join the gods. So don't lose hope <3

It is not okay to take hormone replacement, because that will not solve the underlying issue which seems to be in this case mental confusion. The correct approach would be to focus intensively on cleaning and yoga for one or two years minimun and to observe the change after that. We are not talking about life threatening circumstances, so using the word ‘medicine’ is inappropriate.

Given your tries to subverse our community, this is understandable. It would be better if you would keep these ideas to yourself and focus more on healing yourself before you talk about these sorts of matters.

As for the rest of the rambling, I have to quite frankly say, rubbish.

 

[956GOD]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

Keep.it secret when drinking with friends, even when theyre attached to the matrix, talk sports, it's best to operate in the shadows, and sometimes playing "stupid" will.save your life like it has with me.

 

[Henu the Great]

I'm back on the forum after months. About my spiritual progress.. I did yoga, aura and chakra cleaning, but not everyday. I feel so alone. As i once said here. Like.. I don't have friendships anymore irl. I was thinking this: Once Cobra said that the price to pay in Spiritual Satanism is loneliness. Is it also the case in this context? Anyway.. I hope i didn't lose so many progresses.. Gender dysphoria increases so much this uneasiness. Sorry i didn't want to talk about my condition, but i feel like here it's the only one SS place for venting. I hate being trans. Like, i didn't choose this and i tried magic and every source for stopping being trans. But I can't. I hate this because it limited my life and my spiritual advancement. I walked away from most of ex friends irl because of my condition. Spiritual Satanism saved me and helps with dysphoria, even if it is so hard. Dysphoria prevents me in being constant, but at the same time, in my own personal experience - Spiritual Satanism made me discover who I am. But yes, it's so hard with this condition. So, I decided to take meds for this. This is my responsibility, I know. But Gods.. I tried in every way to stop being like this, but it created in me so much more pain. I just want to live a normal life. Meditation as I said, helped me with this - but not enough for this condition. I'm still sorry for this venting.. It was necessary. Definitely, Spiritual Satanism helps me to cope with this too. Even if not completely.

Keep.it secret when drinking with friends, even when theyre attached to the matrix, talk sports, it's best to operate in the shadows, and sometimes playing "stupid" will.save your life like it has with me.

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