queenwallcrawler
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Hello.
I discovered the website, Joy of Satan, earlier this week and have been reading it extensively. I grew up in a devout Catholic household, and finally came to my senses and rejected the belief system when I was 14. I have identified as an agnostic ever since, always believing there is something higher than humankind, but unsure of what it was.
Coming across this site made me feel ready to cry - for years I've seen my childhood belief system has been one gigantic lie, but now I have this overwhelming feeling that I've finally been exposed to the truth. Never has anything made this much sense. I feel almost heavy with knowledge.
As the title of this post states, though, I am an asexual. I am a non-libidoist and experience absolutely no sexual attraction or desire. It is entirely possible that this was heavily influenced by Catholicism, but I've never worried myself over the hows or whys of who I am - this is simply what makes sense to me. However, what I do believe to be a direct result of growing up Catholic is that sex very strongly depresses me. I hate discussing it, and I feel anxious and sad at the very thought of it.
While reading the page dedicated to the history of Satan's name, I found an excerpt stating that sexuality is considered here to be the primary life force, and considered to empower the soul. This greatly worried me.
I would very much like to know the stance on asexuality from people here. I would especially be interested to know if any Demons have acknowledged asexuality/Their view of it - does anyone know if this has happened ?
Thank you for reading this.
tl;dr version : I am interested in Satanism, but am also an asexual. Does this contradict the Spiritual Satanist belief system ?
I discovered the website, Joy of Satan, earlier this week and have been reading it extensively. I grew up in a devout Catholic household, and finally came to my senses and rejected the belief system when I was 14. I have identified as an agnostic ever since, always believing there is something higher than humankind, but unsure of what it was.
Coming across this site made me feel ready to cry - for years I've seen my childhood belief system has been one gigantic lie, but now I have this overwhelming feeling that I've finally been exposed to the truth. Never has anything made this much sense. I feel almost heavy with knowledge.
As the title of this post states, though, I am an asexual. I am a non-libidoist and experience absolutely no sexual attraction or desire. It is entirely possible that this was heavily influenced by Catholicism, but I've never worried myself over the hows or whys of who I am - this is simply what makes sense to me. However, what I do believe to be a direct result of growing up Catholic is that sex very strongly depresses me. I hate discussing it, and I feel anxious and sad at the very thought of it.
While reading the page dedicated to the history of Satan's name, I found an excerpt stating that sexuality is considered here to be the primary life force, and considered to empower the soul. This greatly worried me.
I would very much like to know the stance on asexuality from people here. I would especially be interested to know if any Demons have acknowledged asexuality/Their view of it - does anyone know if this has happened ?
Thank you for reading this.
tl;dr version : I am interested in Satanism, but am also an asexual. Does this contradict the Spiritual Satanist belief system ?