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I have this "am I jewish" worry a lot, so I decided to make a topic about it, I hope it gets approved so we all could talk about it. To be honest, I haven't really seen Father Satan, or any of the gods yet, nor heard them. I do have a weak pineal gland though, Its been over a month now that ive been working furiously on my Pineal gland and 6th chakra. I do kinda 'feel' my pineal gland every now and then, but I don't think my 6th chakra is open yet. When I focus on my pineal gland, I feel a very faint 'pressure' there. It feels like its coming from behind my eyes, a very tiny bit above them, and a little towards the back of my head, rather than in the middle.The reason this whole "am I jewish" thing came up is because I haven't had any contact with demons yet. and I admit that I haven't worked on my other chakras, other than my third eye, 6th, and crown. It feels like I'm being ignored because I haven't had any encounters with demons yet. and its totally my fault too. I don't really know how to do a regular summoning ritual, I don't care how embarrassing it sounds (can someone post a link on how to). Even if I did summon a demon, I wouldn't know what to say or how to act. and I guess this is the reason why, too. I don't think I'm all that ready.I don't know if I have jewish blood in me or not, I don't know very much at all about my family history, my great grandfather on my dad's side was a German.That's pretty much all I know.and seeing the way I look at the world and life itself, its very unlikely that I have jewish blood. I feel a strange empathy and simpathy for people and animals in the world that are suffering. When I was young, about 15 or so I tried Christianity, but as we all know, the fake 'jesus' character hates your guts. So that failed. Then I turned to the Norse Paganism religion, with Odin, Thor, etc. after about 2 years of that, I then got into Wicca, then I noticed I was strangely drawn to witchcraft, magick, the occult, etc. After a while of that, I finally got into Satanism. Now I didn't know a damn thing about Satanism back then, I was into the 'Christian version' of Satanism I guess you could call it, the kind that believes Satan and demons are evil. I cant remember how I came across the JoS site. I was searching for information about Satan one night, ready to "sell my soul" then I found the Joy of Satan. I'm so happy I did. Its really changed my life and I love reading about Father Satan, and reading the high priests sermons about him.But I cant stand not being able to see or hear him or his demons, it makes me worried about the whole "Am I jewish" thing. and that they're ignoring me because of it. But again, the way I see the world and life, I truly don't think I am. I have Mercury&Saturn in conjuction in my birth chart, so im a pessimist and always think the worst, plus it effects my speech a little. I get locked up in conversations sometimes and cant think of anything to say. Like in this topic, I'm not really good at explaining things and can go off-topic a lot. I guess its because I'm just not open enough yet, and it makes me worried. I do see signs while I'm on the internet from Father Satan. I see the number 666 a lot, and youtube videos titled: "Satan Loves You".Has anyone else had the "am I jewish" worry? Ive been a JoS member for a few years now and I believe if I did have jewish blood in me, then Father Satan or any of the gods would have destroyed me by now. I feel a very loving connection to Satan and the gods, not a day goes by that I don't think about them. Just wanted to know if anyone else is having this "am I jewish" problem. Is it some kind of psychic attack?I read somewhere in the groups that its a common attack against SS.