Kramer said:
It's been a long time since I've meditated or done anything about Satanism, like meditation or rituals... Many here have supported me saying that I'm not alone. That the gods are with me even though it feels like I'm alone... But considering the fact that I'm not even meditating, are they really with me? They may have abandoned me since I do nothing. And if they're really still with me even though I can't meditate, I don't understand why my life is so bad and why I don't have support or help at all. Considering I haven't done anything in a few months, it's really possible that they abandoned me.
You are most likely going through a hard planetary transit which is making you feel this way. Yet, what will help this is by meditating and taking other actions, as opposed to being paralyzed with depression.
The Gods most certainly do not abandon you for any reason. The majority of peoples with these relationship problems are caused by us and not them. Yet, you cannot take full blame for karma which you have no solution to, prior to now.
In regards to help or solutions, how can the Gods life you up if you won't even raise your hand to grab theirs? You need to first make and effort with which they can bless you through. Do not expect a firework to go off, and then a bag of gold is found nearby, or something. In reality, they are always helping people along, including you.
What is taking up your time now? You need to force yourself to put down the video games or whatever, and create space with which to meditate. You may not feel it now, but I guarantee that you will feel better and start to get good results as soon as you begin taking care of your soul.
Perhaps you did not feel anything through their sigils, which is normal. Maybe you should try vibrating the names of the Gods directly. You can see with this recently ritual: Vibrate Valefor x20 and feel his energy. This helps create a positive connection, as well as filling you with Godly energy.