jokerjake6
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Alright my Satanic brethren... I grew up with the christianised idea of Satan, found him and his Demons enigmatic, and even though it was a corrupt idea of Satan back then, always had a respect for him. It wasnt until recently (less than a year but over half) however, that I was enlightened by his truth and brought to Spiritual Satanism. HP Maxine has the training program for hells army, and i have downloaded it directly to the homepage of my iPod so I can take it everywhere, and read it anytime, however, I cant seem for the life of me to grasp falling into a trance. Its not nessixaru for everything but it is something we need to be proficient at, otherwise it wouldnt be the first thing you learn about am i right? I understand the breathing to bring your body to a level of relaxation that will be sufficiant to go into a trance, and it has worked, but only about 4 times in the last eight months! I understand that everyone is different and we all progress at a different rate, but I cant help but feel that this method isnt working for me. I want NOTHING more than to advance my soul to a level that can be helpful to our cause, and im getting frustrated at how long my progress is taking. I have achieved a trance, I kind of know what it feels like, but I also feel powerless in getting there, I cant explain it. Am I being impatient? Should I have more dicipline? WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG? I ry to work on it every chance I get with no avail. Sometimes I use void meditation, but again, I cant shake the feeling that maybe something is holding me back. Would the Gods hold me back if for some reason they felt I wasnt worthy, or ready? Could it be the enemy is afraid of a power im capeable of and put up road blocks for me? I cant imagine my being powerful enough at this point in my life for the enemy to find me that much of a threat. Personally, I dont feel comfortable moving on with the program unil I master the trance state. By mastering it, I mean being able to put myself there at will in just a few moments, and having no question at all that that is what im doing is going into and out of a trance at will. I need help. I dont have the XP, and I cant hear the Gods. I know damn well theyre there. I believe in this cause, and I believe in myself. I dont know, Ive sent Satan power before, and I felt him take it, and it was a feeling Id like to experience again, it sounds contradicting but like i said i have had a little luck in the past and i just want the ability to come back and STAY. Any ideas?