A SERIOUS PROBLEM!

[BlueWizard]

Hello everyone. Before I start I just want to tell that I wanted to write about this so many times but never found courage to do so. This is a really sensitive topic and I never shared it with anyone.

So, how to start. I am a guy in my 20's now and obviously hormones still working. I get attracted to girls and all that which is completely normal. Yes, I get attracted to girls but recently, well, not quite, like, 3 years ago, first when it started I got attracted to young kids. Not just that, I go out on internet, look at the pictures and sometimes even imagine myself having sex with them. Like, I can't wait to have my own family and that, but how am I supposed to have kids when I can't control myself. Before I continue I just want to tell to whomever is about to respond that I am a jew, only jews do that,.. DON'T, I needed sooo much courage to write this so don't throw me down even more.
Whenever I ask Satan something or just want to tell him how my day went I can feel his energy which is beautiful that I start to cry. So the jew thing doesn't work on me. I am ashamed to even call myself satanist and I know that Gods don't approve of what I do but I absolutely can't control it. The more I do it, the more it takes over me.

As I am not that yet advanced in my meditations, I will try my best to do any meditation or runes to heal myself from this.
All of your help will be much appreciated and I will make sure to repay you best as I can. I will never forget it.

I feel better now that I finally wrote this, only thing left is to press the submit button...

 

[Aquarius]

Do you watch incest-themed porn?

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

Not just incest but how much porn do you watch daily?

 

[13th_Wolf]

Do you have principles? Anything higher you ascribe yourself to?

 

[BlueWizard]

No, I don't watch that kind of porn. Even with the problem I have, I still couldn't watch that.
Sometimes I just wanted to get arrested because that way I would kind of stopped doing it or reduce it in some way.
I mean this is serious mental and I hate myself so many times for doing this but I simply can't stop.
I would never hurt a child but this is just, I don't have words to say it.

Daily, I only watch porn when I have urge to masturbate, which is also starting to get a bit out of hand. Usually once a day, sometimes 2 to 3, but that is not often.

I also spoke with my counsellor about this issue like a week ago, the main one, yes, she is the only person that knows about this atm, and she says that there is an option to use, which basically means I would have to use some sort of drugs, or get drugged, that way I won't only stop with this but my hormones will also get destroyed or whatever. We both were against it and that's why I wanted to get some help here.

 

[Aquarius]

No, I don't watch that kind of porn. Even with the problem I have, I still couldn't watch that.
Sometimes I just wanted to get arrested because that way I would kind of stopped doing it or reduce it in some way.
I mean this is serious mental and I hate myself so many times for doing this but I simply can't stop.
I would never hurt a child but this is just, I don't have words to say it.

Daily, I only watch porn when I have urge to masturbate, which is also starting to get a bit out of hand. Usually once a day, sometimes 2 to 3, but that is not often.

I also spoke with my counsellor about this issue like a week ago, the main one, yes, she is the only person that knows about this atm, and she says that there is an option to use, which basically means I would have to use some sort of drugs, or get drugged, that way I won't only stop with this but my hormones will also get destroyed or whatever. We both were against it and that's why I wanted to get some help here.

You absolutely need to realize you have to stop porn not now, but yesterday. Refer to this post of mine : https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=17&t=44987&p=203405&hilit=porn#p203405

 

[BlueWizard]

Hello everyone. Before I start I just want to tell that I wanted to write about this so many times but never found courage to do so. This is a really sensitive topic and I never shared it with anyone.

So, how to start. I am a guy in my 20's now and obviously hormones still working. I get attracted to girls and all that which is completely normal. Yes, I get attracted to girls but recently, well, not quite, like, 3 years ago, first when it started I got attracted to young kids. Not just that, I go out on internet, look at the pictures and sometimes even imagine myself having sex with them. Like, I can't wait to have my own family and that, but how am I supposed to have kids when I can't control myself. Before I continue I just want to tell to whomever is about to respond that I am a jew, only jews do that,.. DON'T, I needed sooo much courage to write this so don't throw me down even more.
Whenever I ask Satan something or just want to tell him how my day went I can feel his energy which is beautiful that I start to cry. So the jew thing doesn't work on me. I am ashamed to even call myself satanist and I know that Gods don't approve of what I do but I absolutely can't control it. The more I do it, the more it takes over me.

As I am not that yet advanced in my meditations, I will try my best to do any meditation or runes to heal myself from this.
All of your help will be much appreciated and I will make sure to repay you best as I can. I will never forget it.

I feel better now that I finally wrote this, only thing left is to press the submit button...

If I understand your words correctly, this attraction to young kids started about 3 years ago. Were you attracted to anyone before then?
The way you put it makes it sound like it just randomly started happening one day, which sparks my curiosity; could there have been some kind of event in your life that triggered this peculiar preference of yours? It sounds so bizarre for it to just start out of nowhere.

When you say young kids, do you mean teenagers, or younger than that? I've always been most attracted to people my own age so when I was a teenager I used to be attracted to teenagers, but grew out of it as I grew up; so I've always wondered if for adults who are still attracted to teenagers it's like some part of their brain never matured for some reason. But attraction to children younger than that is completely beyond my comprehension. So if that is the case, then please try to explain it to me, as I'm very curious how that is even possible. I'm sure an explanation from someone who actually experiences these things is far more informative to me than anything I could derive from speculation alone.

Either way, I wish you good luck in healing your sexuality. I can imagine how horrible and shameful it must feel to have such disgusting urges. But meditation is excellent for curing mental ailments, so it should help with this too. What matters is that you understand it's a problem and that you're taking steps to fix it.

I don't remember how it all started. But since then it has gotten worse and worse. I really get attracted to teens not young children.

 

[BlueWizard]

No, I don't watch that kind of porn. Even with the problem I have, I still couldn't watch that.
Sometimes I just wanted to get arrested because that way I would kind of stopped doing it or reduce it in some way.
I mean this is serious mental and I hate myself so many times for doing this but I simply can't stop.
I would never hurt a child but this is just, I don't have words to say it.

Daily, I only watch porn when I have urge to masturbate, which is also starting to get a bit out of hand. Usually once a day, sometimes 2 to 3, but that is not often.

I also spoke with my counsellor about this issue like a week ago, the main one, yes, she is the only person that knows about this atm, and she says that there is an option to use, which basically means I would have to use some sort of drugs, or get drugged, that way I won't only stop with this but my hormones will also get destroyed or whatever. We both were against it and that's why I wanted to get some help here.

You absolutely need to realize you have to stop porn not now, but yesterday. Refer to this post of mine : https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=17&t=44987&p=203405&hilit=porn#p203405

Thank you, I will look into it.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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You will ultimately need to do a working to disconnect yourself permanently from porn. In the short term, you can use hypnosis videos if you feel unable to sit still to complete the working. This one works well enough and gives a few days of mental relief when done only once.

Secondly, look into porn software filters of all kinds and install them on every device. These are not meant to be infallible, but rather they put an obstacle that can buy you enough time to regain control of yourself before relapsing.

You will need to do a working to defeat this, then I would imagine a lot of the damage would heal on its own. After that, you can pursue other workings to heal your sexuality. 1st step is killing the porn, though.

Just another thought: You can tell your counselor that you used these hypnosis videos to stop your problem, instead of telling them you did a spiritual working, regardless of whether you actually used them.

 

[SigTyr]

This takes a lot of courage to admit that you have a problem like this.
Is your country dominated by mainstream religion, like xianity?

Why do you think that jews trying to legalize pedophilia?
Why priests rape children?...

Thing is that most of people who are older, already fully submitted to their master. There is literally nothing left in most of them. They feel empty, especially for a people like us.

Young people still got souls and this jewish xianity program is trying to get them young...
It's a bit complicated, but most of the offenders have this xian entity, that are attracted to those souls.
When a young one got raped or seduced, one's astral body is damaged and this allowing to take energy from the soul...and then it's much easier to make this soul submit.
That's why jews are trying to legalize pedophilia...
And not only this... I have young siblings and I was really disturbed with shit they watch on jewtube or those cartoons on kids channel... a lot of sexual messages are there.... This is huge...

In your case the only thing that is wrong with you is that you have this xian parasite.
You need to clean your lower chakras, especially sacral one. You sense souls but this shit makes it sexual...

 

[Voice of Enki [JG]]

This takes a lot of courage to admit that you have a problem like this.
Is your country dominated by mainstream religion, like xianity?

Why do you think that jews trying to legalize pedophilia?
Why priests rape children?...

Thing is that most of people who are older, already fully submitted to their master. There is literally nothing left in most of them. They feel empty, especially for a people like us.

Young people still got souls and this jewish xianity program is trying to get them young...
It's a bit complicated, but most of the offenders have this xian entity, that are attracted to those souls.
When a young one got raped or seduced, one's astral body is damaged and this allowing to take energy from the soul...and then it's much easier to make this soul submit.
That's why jews are trying to legalize pedophilia...
And not only this... I have young siblings and I was really disturbed with shit they watch on jewtube or those cartoons on kids channel... a lot of sexual messages are there.... This is huge...

In your case the only thing that is wrong with you is that you have this xian parasite.
You need to clean your lower chakras, especially sacral one. You sense souls but this shit makes it sexual...

You really need to change your thinking about stuff related to the enemy. Here we understand how the enemy works and functions, we don’t talk in strange larping terms like “xian parasite on the soul”, etc.

One is either influenced by xianity and enemy streams of consciousness, or they aren’t. Enemy thoughtforms can influence people to act certain ways and pursue degenerate, harmful and other kinds of destructive things.

Thoughtforms can attach to ones soul and influence you until they are removed. Regular aura cleaning removes these, and AoP protects you from these.

As to why so many Xian’s are pedophiles and other kinds of degenerate abominations, it’s only natural when one submits their mind and soul to the insanity that xianity entails. Their consciousness is influenced and permeated by the xian crap and filth they ascribe to, so they become just as odious and vile.

I’m not going to explain it fully here because we have it explained very thoroughly and in great detail on our websites.

You need to read the JoS and exposing xianity websites and actually get to understand how the enemy functions and learn the proper way to discuss about them rather than the strange larping and whatever you keep spewing.

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Also there are different reasons as to why one might have a problem being attracted to young teens. It doesn’t have to be due to enemy influence or say, thoughtforms ruining your psyche.

This can be a personal problem caused by for example a porn addiction (one becomes desensitized to regular erotic visuals over time and stronger stimuli are sought after to find stimulation again, which can lead people to feel attracted to more degenerate “fetishes” and interests over time, one of which could be pedophelia”). Another reason could be trauma due to having experienced something like this yourself when you were young, or other kinds of psychological trauma related to ones childhood.

I’m no expert on the psychology behind this, but there are countless different reasons as to why one might develop this sort of mental problem.

If it doesn’t go away with aura cleaning and AoP, this is something most likely completely unrelated to enemy influence and something on the soul that needs to be removed with specific workings.

Like a Munka working. You should start this before you even succeed in detaching from porn.

Do a Munka working to remove any sexual desire towards underage girls from your mind and soul in positive and beneficial ways for you (or both boys and girls if this is part of your problem).

Detaching from porn can be very difficult, before you tackle this, do a Munka working first since this is a serious problem that should be dealt with before it roots itself deeper into your soul.

 

[SigTyr]

This takes a lot of courage to admit that you have a problem like this.
Is your country dominated by mainstream religion, like xianity?

Why do you think that jews trying to legalize pedophilia?
Why priests rape children?...

Thing is that most of people who are older, already fully submitted to their master. There is literally nothing left in most of them. They feel empty, especially for a people like us.

Young people still got souls and this jewish xianity program is trying to get them young...
It's a bit complicated, but most of the offenders have this xian entity, that are attracted to those souls.
When a young one got raped or seduced, one's astral body is damaged and this allowing to take energy from the soul...and then it's much easier to make this soul submit.
That's why jews are trying to legalize pedophilia...
And not only this... I have young siblings and I was really disturbed with shit they watch on jewtube or those cartoons on kids channel... a lot of sexual messages are there.... This is huge...

In your case the only thing that is wrong with you is that you have this xian parasite.
You need to clean your lower chakras, especially sacral one. You sense souls but this shit makes it sexual...

You really need to change your thinking about stuff related to the enemy. Here we understand how the enemy works and functions, we don’t talk in strange larping terms like “xian parasite on the soul”, etc.

One is either influenced by xianity and enemy streams of consciousness, or they aren’t. Enemy thoughtforms can influence people to act certain ways and pursue degenerate, harmful and other kinds of destructive things.

Thoughtforms can attach to ones soul and influence you until they are removed. Regular aura cleaning removes these, and AoP protects you from these.

As to why so many Xian’s are pedophiles and other kinds of degenerate abominations, it’s only natural when one submits their mind and soul to the insanity that xianity entails. Their consciousness is influenced and permeated by the xian crap and filth they ascribe to, so they become just as odious and vile.

I’m not going to explain it fully here because we have it explained very thoroughly and in great detail on our websites.

You need to read the JoS and exposing xianity websites and actually get to understand how the enemy functions and learn the proper way to discuss about them rather than the strange larping and whatever you keep spewing.

...

Also there are different reasons as to why one might have a problem being attracted to young teens. It doesn’t have to be due to enemy influence or say, thoughtforms ruining your psyche.

This can be a personal problem caused by for example a porn addiction (one becomes desensitized to regular erotic visuals over time and stronger stimuli are sought after to find stimulation again, which can lead people to feel attracted to more degenerate “fetishes” and interests over time, one of which could be pedophelia”). Another reason could be trauma due to having experienced something like this yourself when you were young, or other kinds of psychological trauma related to ones childhood.

I’m no expert on the psychology behind this, but there are countless different reasons as to why one might develop this sort of mental problem.

If it doesn’t go away with aura cleaning and AoP, this is something most likely completely unrelated to enemy influence and something on the soul that needs to be removed with specific workings.

Like a Munka working. You should start this before you even succeed in detaching from porn.

Do a Munka working to remove any sexual desire towards underage girls from your mind and soul in positive and beneficial ways for you (or both boys and girls if this is part of your problem).

Detaching from porn can be very difficult, before you tackle this, do a Munka working first since this is a serious problem that should be dealt with before it roots itself deeper into your soul.

I don't think I will be able to change my way of thinking, as I see these "creatures" Inside of people, and I known in my circles as a person who specializes on the "exorcism".
I came to JoS prepared, through my journey. I've came from really dark places and I am sharing valuable intel that may help others. I've seen what's enemy really looks like and it's ugly...
And I am not talking about jews, those are just puppets in hands of alien force.

Yes, most of parasites or evil entities can be banished with aura cleaning, but there are so many different parasites and ways to deal with them, that I am actually thinking of writing a book about that. Did you ever faced "fake kundalini" parasite for example? Good luck banishing that.

I still educate myself reading "our websites", but it doesn't really change the way I think. Mostly it just gives me extra details, explain some things I've been curious about or just showing things from different perspectives.

 

[Wayofthegods]

Hello everyone. Before I start I just want to tell that I wanted to write about this so many times but never found courage to do so. This is a really sensitive topic and I never shared it with anyone.

So, how to start. I am a guy in my 20's now and obviously hormones still working. I get attracted to girls and all that which is completely normal. Yes, I get attracted to girls but recently, well, not quite, like, 3 years ago, first when it started I got attracted to young kids. Not just that, I go out on internet, look at the pictures and sometimes even imagine myself having sex with them. Like, I can't wait to have my own family and that, but how am I supposed to have kids when I can't control myself. Before I continue I just want to tell to whomever is about to respond that I am a jew, only jews do that,.. DON'T, I needed sooo much courage to write this so don't throw me down even more.
Whenever I ask Satan something or just want to tell him how my day went I can feel his energy which is beautiful that I start to cry. So the jew thing doesn't work on me. I am ashamed to even call myself satanist and I know that Gods don't approve of what I do but I absolutely can't control it. The more I do it, the more it takes over me.

As I am not that yet advanced in my meditations, I will try my best to do any meditation or runes to heal myself from this.
All of your help will be much appreciated and I will make sure to repay you best as I can. I will never forget it.

I feel better now that I finally wrote this, only thing left is to press the submit button...

What is the age range of children?

 

[Voice of Enki [JG]]

I was hurried when writing this and posted it a little hastily, so it didn’t properly tag OP with the quote. Reposting this (with some addition and adjustment) so OP will see the advice I wrote for him for sure.

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There are different reasons as to why one might have a problem being attracted to young teens. It doesn’t have to be due to enemy influence or say, thoughtforms ruining your psyche.

This can be a personal problem caused by for example a porn addiction (one becomes desensitized to regular erotic visuals over time and stronger stimuli are sought after to find stimulation again, which can lead people to feel attracted to more degenerate “fetishes” and interests over time, one of which could be pedophelia). Another reason could be trauma due to having experienced something like this yourself when you were young, or other kinds of psychological trauma related to ones childhood.

I’m no expert on the psychology behind this, but there are countless different reasons as to why one might develop this sort of mental problem.

If it doesn’t go away with aura cleaning and AoP, this is something most likely completely unrelated to enemy influence and something on the soul that needs to be removed with specific workings.

Like a Munka working. You should start this before you even succeed in detaching from porn.

Do a Munka working to remove any sexual desire towards underage girls from your mind and soul in positive and beneficial ways for you (or both boys and girls if this is part of your problem).

Detaching from porn can be very difficult, before you tackle this, do a Munka working first since this is a serious problem that should be dealt with before it roots itself deeper into your soul.

Masturbation and climax build and release very large quantities of energy, have on your mind when you climax gets empowered by the energy released from climax, so if one has pedophelic desire on their minds when they climax, or watch porn depicting this while climaxing you program your mind to seek out and satisfy this desire.

Applies to both actual illegal child porn, or porn that insinuates/imitates this, like that kind of barely 18 crap where the girls look like underage teenagers.

Therefore it is very important to break that cycle now, before it is engrained too deep as it becomes nigh impossible for an individual to break this if too much energy has gone into programming the mind to seek this out and enjoy this.

While I agree with the advice given by other members here to break your porn addiction as well, I want to point out it is possible to use porn to your benefit in order to revert this desensitization of your mind that porn tends to cause.

If you disallow yourself to masturbate to anything but very normal things, like just girls/woman around your age masturbating normally by themselves for example, you can learn to climax to normal things like that again instead of putting energy towards strange fetishes and the like.

You can imagine yourself having sex with woman you watch masturbate for example, to help you visualize healthy sex with a partner appropriate for you and through this you are empowering a normal desire to have sex with women instead of any pedophelic thoughts. (I will advice you to not visualize having sex with the woman in the video you are watching, or you will inadvertently program yourself to desire the person themselves, just use the visuals as inspiration, like how their body looks and is shaped, the body of a woman your age, rather than any childlike features you are wrongfully attracted to).

Generally it is advised for people to visualize having sex with a partner to your liking when masturbating, using your own mind in leu of porn, however I advice against this if you have an extreme case of self perpetrated degenerate programming due to watching lots of strange porn over the years or having any sort of degenerate sexual desire or interest.

The last thing you want to do is visualize and then as you get close to climax, your preprogrammed desire takes over your thoughts and you climax while visualizing having sex with an underage girl, further programming this upon your mind and soul.

Therefore I personally believe porn can be of benefit to people like you, if you consciously seek out only normal things and climax to ordinary, healthy things to break the harmful desire you programmed onto your mind and soul. In the beginning you might struggle to climax watching normal things if you have only climaxed to more outlandish/strange stuff, but if you push through that you can reprogram your mind to enjoy normal sexual interests again.

After a while try to masturbate while visualizing on your own, and purposefully push away any thoughts or visuals that come to mind which involve something harmful or degenerate, until you reprogram your mind to enjoy and desire healthy sex with woman your age again.

 

[luis]

I think porn is related but not the first issue here. You should do a working to get rid of this. More than 40 days because sexual issue are pretty difficult to remove (not impossible, just do more than 40 days).

I had some sexual issue myself and they are 90% gone now, with all the cleaning I'm doing and a working I did before, yes its not fully gone but its so much better. Its something you will need to work for sometimes because like I said sexual issues are kind powerful and so difficult to remove. Work to clean your sacral chakra too.

 

[Voice of Enki [JG]]

I wrote another reply, this is in addition to what I wrote there. I shouldn't have forgotten about this since this is perfect for issues like you are having.

Take a look at Lydia's recent yoga post on yoga for the sacral chakra: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=48221

This what you are facing is definitely a sacral issue, and Lydia's post is perfect for resolving these kinds of issues. Do the yoga poses suggested by her, especially the swastika pose, since that one is incredibly powerful and very healing for the sacral chakra.

In your case it's perhaps not enough on it's own, so refer to my other post as well. Be aware of the VoC, don't start any working or effort to correct this during a VoC. Make sure you take this seriously and address it quickly.

Good luck to you in resolving this.

 

[BlueWizard]

Thank you everyone for your help, I wasn't able to write earlier but now that i am here again I just want to say that I will definitely try and do a working plus I will try the yoga for the sacral chakra Lydia posted couple of days ago.
Seems like I have to work on my sacral chakra and as some of you mentioned here, deprogram myself.
Thank you all again, really appreciate it.