A cry for freedom

[Villainous]

I Don't know where I should begin this but recently I asked a question and a member answered with I should first find the cause of my situation, and yeah I did so, but that's just a begin of something else and now I'm lost, in pain, anger, confusion and so much.

Before i state out my problem let me first state out certain things that have been happening and they've left me with questions before I uncovered the whole truth, first of all it started with a Raven vising me early in the morning whenever I would go to the shop, other times it would be resting on a pole close to my house, and other times whenever I'm in the house I would hear it.

To make this short I'll give an extra one which might be important, instead of writing each and everything. 2 days before my dedication ritual, an entity visited me, I sincerely can't tell if it was a Demon or not or if it was of good will or not, but one thing for sure it was too real, scary ( the thought of it till now still gives me the chills and watery eyes ). I was a bit rude on it but I can't tell if it was my soul fighting it or not but the way it showed up too me was a bit aggressive (my head was pushed to the left, my face got covered with a pillow and my body was on “fire" and I couldn't move or fight back till it left which left me with so much energy, I couldn't sleep ) all I said was “who dares", it replied but honestly I couldn't understand anything it said.

After the dedication things got even more complicated on my end, some too weird and some giving me some hope but I won't state much, but for those who are experienced and wise I did the RTR on the 14th and somehow it depleted my energy and I dosed off immediately and slept for almost 5hrs, it was day time. PS, ( I come from a Christian and my parents are church leaders )

This is where things get weird

To cut the story short, someone answered a question of mine and I had to dig deeper in my life, all I knew is that I have misfortunes running in my life endlessly, and I have had no peace or happiness for ages, I can't even recall the last time I felt the feeling of joy in my life. everything has just been stressfull, depressing and even been haunted by suicidal thoughts almost in a daily basis.

I opened up my heart to Satan and asked him to show me the truth what's really wrong with me, where I did my mistakes and everything, and to my surprise I had my answer in less than 24hrs in a very weird way.

This is the thing, I'm currently on a life and death situation, no food, no money, no job and so much and it has been as such for years, a struggle I would say, bad luck follows me like my shadow, I've had the best chances in life like jobs and promotions but they always get taken away from me abruptly, I've always felt their is more into it but I could never get the answer.

I just discovered a curse runs in my family, or I would say its a generational curse and it falls on certain people in the family and I'm among them, Things got clearer but it just lit up the pain in me too much, I can't handle it anymore.

This is just the start, my eyes got opened and I can now see the others who suffer too in the whole family and most of them are in the dark. making it worse things get too deeper, for those who are weak not to handle it end up loosing their sanity. and for those who survive the torture of it and the misfortunes end up passing it down to the next generation.

Mine activated almost 7 years ago and till now I have struggled through it endlessly, without giving up, till recently when it surpursed my limits. and in one way or the other I can't even tell how I found myself here.

All I want is to be free from it. I want to laugh and smile at least, I miss a good feeling, I'm tired of carrying the burden, I can't even vent it out on anyone, and yeah I wasn't supposed to know but I asked for it and I got my answer, but I don't wanna live with it in me cos it too heavy plus I don't want too pass it down. it needs to end completely.

Anyone who knows the way the forward or what i should do, I would be greatfull.

 

[Blackdragon666]

Have you meditated and developed some level of power? If you have you can try attracting an opportunity to make money. This can help you loads.

Poverty can run in a family for generations. You can be the person to change that and build lasting wealth for your family. It will take a few years of consistent removing the bad energies in your soul replacing them with better ones. What you need now is a source of income to stabilize your life then you can work your way up from there.

You can use sex magic, visualize yourself working a suitable job at the moment of climax. Or you can use runes if you can vibrate mantras.

Waiting for your feedback.

 

[Villainous]

Have you meditated and developed some level of power? If you have you can try attracting an opportunity to make money. This can help you loads.

Poverty can run in a family for generations. You can be the person to change that and build lasting wealth for your family. It will take a few years of consistent removing the bad energies in your soul replacing them with better ones. What you need now is a source of income to stabilize your life then you can work your way up from there.

You can use sex magic, visualize yourself working a suitable job at the moment of climax. Or you can use runes if you can vibrate mantras.

Waiting for your feedback.

Honestly, I have tried meditating as much as I can but I keep on struggling with it due to the current situations, focusing on something and trying to raise some energies is way much tough with the current pressure. my attention keeps on diverting.

I haven't tried out the sex magic and for the runes I don't know which ones I should use. plus I'm struggling with visualizations, I can't tell why but everytime I give it a go it somehow drains me.