Darkstarowo
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- Sep 7, 2018
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1. As a Satanist I find myself Drawn to both the Upright Pentacle as well as the inverse. To me they both represennt our creator. I have always intuitively liked the Upright one and Have seen it continuously represents the Morning Star, which for me is a positive aspect of Lucifer/ Satan as well as Venus which is the planet of Satan, Venus Travels in a Pentagram Orbit around the sun every 8 years. On top of this I am Aware it is symbolic of the Microcosm Ruling the Microcosm, Spirit over the elements.. this has always led me to like the one better.. is this wrong? I realize on a aesthetic/geometric level it could be sending energies up, doesn't it all depend on intention? For me the positive Light(Knowledge/Power) bearing aspects of Lucifer are clearly defined by this as well as representing our personal power. Would it be considered wrong in this community to dawn the symbol, given this perspective? Thoughts are welcomed.
Secondly,
As far as power meditation is concerned it seems to me that The foundation meditation is one of the more effective and necessary ones for my path. however I find myself drained often by it, I have trouble differentiating between physical and spiritual energy and often time push a little too much, even when attempting to absorb it I will tire myself out, I have heard among spiritual thought that the universe is within us and therefore we are infinite however I am looking for the right perspective to unlock this energy. (In addition there was a portion to this meditation that involved visualizing actual air entering your pores, this one was very effective for me but I can no longer find it, it could have been that It was on a different site or I was imagining it) Your perspective on maintain and generating energy are appreciated.
Third
I have a Large Interest in Ceremonial Magick but with all my heart do not want to disrespect the gods after everything they have done for me. Is there any Satanic Material Involving Ritual Magick that would not offend our gods. I have only found about 2 Rituals so far but I believe that psychologically the extravagance and extra tools may help me get into the correct state of mind to have me overcome my logical paradigms.
Fourth
I have been Studying the Placebo affect and recently stumbled upon a article of the different models of magickal paradigms, it seems that the Energy model and the Psychological models are different, however can be used interchangeably within the Meta Model. It seems to me the Psychological goes along the lines of set it and forget it, similar to the placebo affect in which your expectation and belief along with emotions(or energy) will generate the outcome once it leaves your conscious mind by forgetting (Also Is it completely necessary to forget about your magick for it to become effective.. I feel it isnt but it has worked for me in the past. If so are there Techniques for this because it seems the more I "resist" forgetting the more the thoughts come. I would like to come to the point in the energy model where I can push in vast amounts of energy very quickly and need little information Possibly to be able to work candle magick on demand in case of emergency whether it be combat or otherwise.
Fifth
The Horned god Is suppose to be Representative of Satan and therefore Enki as i Sumeria One of Enkis symbol was the goat. Would It stand to reason that the Horned god Cernunnos would also be referencing him, and as for the goddess does anyone have some thoughts on Aradia, she seems like an interesting figure as far as standing up to the church to teach magick following the inquisition. Would It be suitable to use wiccan rituals with Satan and Lilith standing in for the god and goddess.. I feel uneasy calling them especially if I am still perfecting my craft.
Finally,
I feel as if I am somewhat Re inventing the wheel here.. I was raised christian but have a strong desire to be at one with the gods.. My subconscious is still reprogramming and given my living situation I have a tough time being able to complete 40 day programs for reconditioning my mind. I have been attacked by angels numerous times (Please note the I take full responsibility for this experimentation) but also seen my logickal paradigm overcome my satanic one.. essentially meaning that when shit hits the fan I'm on my own to a degree, I seem to be juggling 3 different Paradigms, the Logical Materialist(Via my father) The Judeo Christian Virus( Via my mother) and The magickal/Satanic (myself) in some form of disheartening Agnosticism.. To be honest its hard because I always prided myself on being very open minded.. but at this point in my life it seems that I cannot gain the benefits of spirituality that way.. they require absolute faith in what you are doing. I don't like forcing my beliefs on others and I value being open minded very much because I was not given that courtesy.. But if I am playing with a virus.. and that virus will ultimately kill me if I even accept it a little bit.. how can I do this.. Quantum physics has experiments such as Schrodinger's Cat as well as theories such as infinite realities and many worlds theory.. and they help me get into magickal and spiritual paradigms because reality is just the way that we define it.. but If I accept one I feel like I have to accept them all. One of the Core tenants on this path is free thought and not proselytizing, but If I stand Idle amongst fools I will become one of them and sometimes its not up to me.. my living situation forces that upon me.. I want to be able to study spirituality quantum physics the occult and play music, not sell my soul away to some wage slavery, but it seems they are contingent upon each other.
I know I have presented a lot here and I apologize for droning on.. but I have no one to talk to about these things.. I have trouble communing with the gods due to the logical paradigm, and the closest person that I can discuss these things with is actually a Christian and childhood friend.. Point being that I trust him.. and when trusting the word of a christian you inevitably get caught up in their beliefs, there is one other person I could discuss things with to a degree but she is female and my girlfriend gets incredibly jealous when I'm on my phone.. Anyway your help is greatly appreciated.
Hail Satan
Thank you Lucifer, Son of the Morning, for everything you have done for me and shown me.
Secondly,
As far as power meditation is concerned it seems to me that The foundation meditation is one of the more effective and necessary ones for my path. however I find myself drained often by it, I have trouble differentiating between physical and spiritual energy and often time push a little too much, even when attempting to absorb it I will tire myself out, I have heard among spiritual thought that the universe is within us and therefore we are infinite however I am looking for the right perspective to unlock this energy. (In addition there was a portion to this meditation that involved visualizing actual air entering your pores, this one was very effective for me but I can no longer find it, it could have been that It was on a different site or I was imagining it) Your perspective on maintain and generating energy are appreciated.
Third
I have a Large Interest in Ceremonial Magick but with all my heart do not want to disrespect the gods after everything they have done for me. Is there any Satanic Material Involving Ritual Magick that would not offend our gods. I have only found about 2 Rituals so far but I believe that psychologically the extravagance and extra tools may help me get into the correct state of mind to have me overcome my logical paradigms.
Fourth
I have been Studying the Placebo affect and recently stumbled upon a article of the different models of magickal paradigms, it seems that the Energy model and the Psychological models are different, however can be used interchangeably within the Meta Model. It seems to me the Psychological goes along the lines of set it and forget it, similar to the placebo affect in which your expectation and belief along with emotions(or energy) will generate the outcome once it leaves your conscious mind by forgetting (Also Is it completely necessary to forget about your magick for it to become effective.. I feel it isnt but it has worked for me in the past. If so are there Techniques for this because it seems the more I "resist" forgetting the more the thoughts come. I would like to come to the point in the energy model where I can push in vast amounts of energy very quickly and need little information Possibly to be able to work candle magick on demand in case of emergency whether it be combat or otherwise.
Fifth
The Horned god Is suppose to be Representative of Satan and therefore Enki as i Sumeria One of Enkis symbol was the goat. Would It stand to reason that the Horned god Cernunnos would also be referencing him, and as for the goddess does anyone have some thoughts on Aradia, she seems like an interesting figure as far as standing up to the church to teach magick following the inquisition. Would It be suitable to use wiccan rituals with Satan and Lilith standing in for the god and goddess.. I feel uneasy calling them especially if I am still perfecting my craft.
Finally,
I feel as if I am somewhat Re inventing the wheel here.. I was raised christian but have a strong desire to be at one with the gods.. My subconscious is still reprogramming and given my living situation I have a tough time being able to complete 40 day programs for reconditioning my mind. I have been attacked by angels numerous times (Please note the I take full responsibility for this experimentation) but also seen my logickal paradigm overcome my satanic one.. essentially meaning that when shit hits the fan I'm on my own to a degree, I seem to be juggling 3 different Paradigms, the Logical Materialist(Via my father) The Judeo Christian Virus( Via my mother) and The magickal/Satanic (myself) in some form of disheartening Agnosticism.. To be honest its hard because I always prided myself on being very open minded.. but at this point in my life it seems that I cannot gain the benefits of spirituality that way.. they require absolute faith in what you are doing. I don't like forcing my beliefs on others and I value being open minded very much because I was not given that courtesy.. But if I am playing with a virus.. and that virus will ultimately kill me if I even accept it a little bit.. how can I do this.. Quantum physics has experiments such as Schrodinger's Cat as well as theories such as infinite realities and many worlds theory.. and they help me get into magickal and spiritual paradigms because reality is just the way that we define it.. but If I accept one I feel like I have to accept them all. One of the Core tenants on this path is free thought and not proselytizing, but If I stand Idle amongst fools I will become one of them and sometimes its not up to me.. my living situation forces that upon me.. I want to be able to study spirituality quantum physics the occult and play music, not sell my soul away to some wage slavery, but it seems they are contingent upon each other.
I know I have presented a lot here and I apologize for droning on.. but I have no one to talk to about these things.. I have trouble communing with the gods due to the logical paradigm, and the closest person that I can discuss these things with is actually a Christian and childhood friend.. Point being that I trust him.. and when trusting the word of a christian you inevitably get caught up in their beliefs, there is one other person I could discuss things with to a degree but she is female and my girlfriend gets incredibly jealous when I'm on my phone.. Anyway your help is greatly appreciated.
Hail Satan
Thank you Lucifer, Son of the Morning, for everything you have done for me and shown me.