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Other #77323 I cannot cope with enemy attacks. I don't know how long can I last.

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Greetings.

Let's start with the fact that I wrote this post(https://ancient-forums.com/threads/76089-i-believe-serious-enemy-attack.296941/).

The reason I have to write again is that the problem is not only not solved, but it has gotten drastically worse and other (new) attacks are coming very frequently.

In the thread linked above, the emphasis is mostly on intrusive thoughts, but I am seeing much worse attacks.

Anxiety, panic, coming out of nowhere, but not like the panic attacks known in psychiatry, but persisting for hours(I have had one that lasted more than 10 hours).But at least the constant anxiety is felt, even if not a panic like state.

Aggressiveness and irritability that comes out of nowhere. I would best describe it as hatred and nervousness that extends to everything and everyone, even for nothing. This can be very bad and feels quite unbearable.


Severe lethargy, feeling of weakness.But to such a degree that no amount of rest will help it.But perhaps the best way to describe this phenomenon is that I feel so incredibly sick that it is unbearable, like collapsing in on myself.Within a few hours I am sure it would kill me or I would be in the ER with it in the hospital.

These are driving me completely crazy, I think I'm going insane, because I don't know what to do with them, how to defend myself.

Many times I even think that I am really mentally ill or even physically ill, but after the AoP and the Gods ritual I feel relief almost immediately.
Oh, Brothers and Sisters, if this were really an illness, why does it disappear after the AoP and the Gods ritual, or at least lessen significantly?

My problem is that while it used to be enough to do AoP and maybe a God ritual (if my AoP was low against enemy attacks), now I need at least 5, and often up to 7 God rituals a day to repel enemy attacks.But even then the attack is only stopped for a maximum of 3 hours, after that the aforementioned heavy attacks start almost again. In fact, I often have to perform at least 2, but I've had to perform 3 god rituals to stop the attacks at all, but I repeat, they come back very quickly.I often wake up with anxiety and nervousness even while sleeping.But I can't sleep for 8 hours because the negativity is always there.

My problem with this is that if this continues, either the burnout will kill me, or the enemy attacks, the curses.

Of course I've tried to ignore the attacks, even though I can't defend myself effectively, but it feels so unbearable, mostly as I've written, that I feel incredibly bad, which I experience as completely unbearable.

If this goes on and I don't get help (either here on this forum for some effective solution or help from the gods) then I only have a few days left because the negativity is killing me.And this is not meant to be self pity, but for me it is a reality, fact.

Of course I keep praying to Zeus and my Guardian, but I don't really see any prospects yet.

Can you help? Because if not, it's the end for me (at least in this life).
 
In your previous question, you were already given the answer as to where the problem may be, Ehwaz is not suitable for making an AoP

 
These are driving me completely crazy, I think I'm going insane, because I don't know what to do with them, how to defend myself.
As I said in your previous thread, I firmly believe much of what is happening comes from inside you. From the unconscious.
The enemy may relentlessly attack us, but it seems unlikely to me, they keep hitting so hard on you while no protection seem working (including that from your GD). The Demons do not let the enemy push so hard against us, I know this for experience; unbearable external attacks are stopped by your GD, usually.

Problem is, when the "attack" comes from within yourself. No AoP can block this, as it's your mind turning against you. I think, there are chances this is your case.

People who suffered any trauma, in this or past lives, may have developed a "sub-self", namely a wounded self that is emotional and lives hidden in the subconscious. More than one, also. When one of those selves manifest, you may experience severe anxiety, intense emotions even against yourself, anything that was repressed and forgotten for years, may surface and you feel like you are attacked. It's like the immune system sometimes goes nuts and attacks your own body, for no reasons,

The key in keeping al of this under control is : boost your main self (I mean your ego, to keep your self-esteem and Sun energies high).
This will bash down wounded selves trying to take control of your mind. In the while, you may want to heal them, I would ask guidance to your GD here, it's very needed. Bein alone in this kay lead to insanity, don't hesitate to ask your GD if you are experiencing this, so you know for sure.

Empowering the 3rd chakra is of help here, I personally find very good the Breath of Fire
Physical actions are very useful like having fun, laugh, sports, sex, everything giving pleasure to you ans boosting your main self. Keep up woth yourself.
This is serious, if this is your case. Don't allow the wounded selves to take over completely or insane actions may come for you.
I am, anyway, pretty sure your GD won't allow this, like the Gods did with me.

Calm down, breathe and rebuild your ego a bit so you can stabilize your mind for now.

Feel free to reach me on vent out here, if you want, as sometimes being listened to and understood is very important.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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