Other #77100 What to do after so much fear?

[AskSatanOperator]

One day, when I was 13, I had strong heart pain and palpitation after going to bed. I thought I am having an heart attack so I was scared too much. I went to hospital but luckily, nothing happened. After I came home after hospital, I started to be afraid of death.

I wasn't a SS those days but I was still practiting the meditations on JoS and everything was going great but after that, I become obsessed.

Only four months later, I dedicated and I started meditating. And now, I am a Zevist for 3 years.

But I am not good at visualizing/imagining and when I want to visualize things, I start to see the sun or the energy I am working with in colour gray or black. So I need to find a picture of sun/or the color of the energy on the net and look at it. I meditate 2 hours a day. But looking to the screen is not good for my eyes as I have eye dryness and it gives me a head pain. I am bored of this problem.

What should I do? Please help me.

Regards.

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

One day, when I was 13, I had strong heart pain and palpitation after going to bed. I thought I am having an heart attack so I was scared too much. I went to hospital but luckily, nothing happened. After I came home after hospital, I started to be afraid of death.

I wasn't a SS those days but I was still practiting the meditations on JoS and everything was going great but after that, I become obsessed.

Only four months later, I dedicated and I started meditating. And now, I am a Zevist for 3 years.

But I am not good at visualizing/imagining and when I want to visualize things, I start to see the sun or the energy I am working with in colour gray or black. So I need to find a picture of sun/or the color of the energy on the net and look at it. I meditate 2 hours a day. But looking to the screen is not good for my eyes as I have eye dryness and it gives me a head pain. I am bored of this problem.

What should I do? Please help me.

Regards.

Don't do things that hurt you. If spending too much time in front of a screen is bad for you, just don't do it. You can download pdfs from the site and so on. And anyway if you have to read something specific on the site you can do it for a few minutes without spending too much time in front of the screen. As for the light problem, just vibrate SURYA. Maybe 36 times a set. That way you can count with your fingers. Don't visualize anything, just try to feel the energy cleansing and empowering you for the moment aware that it is positive energy. Be focused with the intention that you are raising positive solar energy. For a while do this. Remember cleansing affirmations and so on. Let me know if after some time it starts to become easier to visualize at least the white gold. Not necessarily the specific colors.

 

[Hyperactive Melon]

One day, when I was 13, I had strong heart pain and palpitation after going to bed. I thought I am having an heart attack so I was scared too much. I went to hospital but luckily, nothing happened. After I came home after hospital, I started to be afraid of death.

I wasn't a SS those days but I was still practiting the meditations on JoS and everything was going great but after that, I become obsessed.

Only four months later, I dedicated and I started meditating. And now, I am a Zevist for 3 years.

But I am not good at visualizing/imagining and when I want to visualize things, I start to see the sun or the energy I am working with in colour gray or black. So I need to find a picture of sun/or the color of the energy on the net and look at it. I meditate 2 hours a day. But looking to the screen is not good for my eyes as I have eye dryness and it gives me a head pain. I am bored of this problem.

What should I do? Please help me.

Regards.

Any type of fear stems from unknown things fear of the unknown to remove that we first open the third eye so that we see the truth as it is and let go of fear

 

[Astrid]

I am not good at visualizing/imagining and when I want to visualize things, I start to see the sun or the energy I am working with in colour gray or black. So I need to find a picture of sun/or the color of the energy on the net and look at it. I meditate 2 hours a day..

Try using the actual energy of the Sun itself -- sitting outside (not for 2 hours though, a few minutes will be enough, e.g., 5 minutes in direct sunlight) and breathing in its pure power into your aura and soul, affirming something positive like "In a beneficial and healthy way for me, the energy of the Sun is completely cleaning/protecting my entire being now and forever" depending on your goals I had the same issue as a beginner and nothing nukes grey/black energy like the one Source of light itself.

In a pinch, get an old-timey incandescent light bulb (NOT an LED light bulb, as these can damage your eyes) and shine it in your CLOSED eyes. Staring directly at screens for extended periods is not beneficial! The light bulb will give your brain the effect of a brilliant shiny white-gold light surrounding you and assist your visualisation.

Never stare with your eyes open at the Sun or a bright light bulb.

After a few focused sessions in the Sun/with the bulb you'll realise that you can visualise the white-gold light much better on demand.

If general visualisation/conjuring mental pictures/imagination is an issue, High Priestess Lydia mentioned that it might be an issue with your astral senses (check the clairvoyance page on the ToZ, particularly concerning the clairvoyance points at the very back of your head, the bottom one in the triad) you can meditate on and empower them further.

You don't have to feel any anxiety, you have the power to heal yourself and build up strong and healthy soul and body