This is like thinking you are "disappointing the President by being a bad citizen". The Gods care just like a leader cares about his people, but they are not emotionally affected by our bad decisions, they have better things to do.
You should want to improve for your own sake. While this attitude can perhaps lead you to improve, based on how I see it this is only leading you towards further self-hate. Development usually comes from a framing of self-love, because the wide majority of bad habits come from a sense of lack, considering oneself undeserving, or engrained habitual beliefs about oneself like "I'm just lazy" or "I'm just a bad person." This simply becomes a self-fulfilling loop.