Meditations #76326 Seeing the gods?

[AskSatanOperator]

Hi, I don't know why, I cannot see nothing, like I don't have that ability to see the gods, but I feel the chils in all the body sometimes, maybe because I used drugs for years?

It block the spiritual development?

I can hear like a radio, intrusive thoughts, and stupid thoughts, sometimes I think I'm hearing other people thoughts.
My sister was looking for me the other day and she call me on the phone, before she call me, I was thinking exactly about that, that she was looking for me. But I didn't see no god yet, not that I remember.
And sometimes I start to think I'm a Jew and I almost give up and the other day I was almost destroying one sigil, because of this thoughts, I guess they are intrusions, attacks, because I just can't give up

 

[OttoHart]

You're most likely not a jew, this is a common issue.
Directly seeing and hearing the Gods truthfully is advanced, and you're likely quite spiritually damaged from your drug history.

Just keep pushing with the basic practices, aura cleaning and protection, yoga, trance training, void meditation (which will directly help you gain power over your intrusive thoughts) and God Rituals. For the God Rituals, do not spam them, especially at your level. One a week is plenty.

Regularly talk to the Gods, your Guardian, a particular God you're fond of, Father, etc. by getting an image of their sigil, breathing in the energy similar to foundation meditation, and just talking.
Communicate what you're thankful for, what went well, what went badly, what your goals are, your troubles etc., and you will feel like you are being heard.
Think of them like loving parents and mentors.

Personally, as a person who used to also hold onto a huge amount of trauma, Father Satan and Lady Astarte acted as a spiritual father and mother whose love and acceptance kept me going, and now after some months of meditation and communication, I've fixed quite a bit of my mental and emotional issues.

Surprise, however, I still don't receive direct messages from them, besides being able to clearly discern their energy and how it feels.
This is normal. Genuinely hearing and seeing them will take quite a bit and won't directly solve your problems. It's not essential.

 

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It block the spiritual development?

Yes, drugs and these things hurt your being.

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But I didn't see no god yet, not that I remember.

Seeing the gods is a VERY advanced thing. VERY advanced. Because you don't "see" the Gods physically. But you have to be able to see them, yes, but in the astral plane and not in the material plane.

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And sometimes I start to think I'm a Jew

You jumped too quickly to a conclusion by really evading too many logical steps in between. So it's not a valid conclusion.

I almost give up and the other day

Instead of giving yourself away, enhance your astral senses and train yourself to use them.

Meditating on Your Clairvoyance Points

Opening and Meditating on Your Clairaudience Points

Chakra Breathing by Azazel

Meditating on Chakra Sounds by Azazel

Good exercises are also from:

First Month

destroying one sigil

It is useless for you to be angry on a God. It is not the God's fault that your astral senses are not trained by default.

they are intrusions, attacks, because I just can't give up

Control your mind:

Satanic Void Meditation

To be able to see the Gods could take you even years. Even many. Remember to associate this with constant work on the chakras; they are connected:

Basic Meditation Program