Other #76283 This really leaves me with horrible feelings.

[AskSatanOperator]

A brief vent here: I feel envy toward the achievements of people here, even if they’re like brothers and sisters. I feel like an outsider. I've been meditating for a long time, yet there are those who have meditated for only a few months and seem to achieve far more than I have in years. I know everyone is different, but it feels like I’m always the last, like I always have to work much harder than everyone else to achieve anything. It’s truly discouraging at times. My desire to meditate diminishes more and more, and I feel an urge to disconnect from here.
I deeply care for Father Satan, my DG, and my potential Gods friends (though I’m unsure if they consider me a friend or close to them). Yet, I feel that nothing I do is ever enough here, no matter how hard I try. It feels as if I’m speaking with a wall. I’ve received signs, but they don’t seem to compare to the experiences others have. They seem to have tea with the Gods every day, while I merely get a passing glance on the street.
(First time I say this kind of thing, sorry if I offended anyone.)

 

[ramses13th]

Don't compare to others, this is not a race.
Experiences such as "having tea with the Gods" are mostly arrogant delusions.

Open the eyes for your path and listen to your call, ignore others.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I feel envy toward the achievements of people here, even if they’re like brothers and sisters

We are all united here to get the best out of our group. There are no internal rivalries. Because we have the common purpose of making this universe better and better, with us included in this universe.

those who have meditated for only a few months and seem to achieve far more than I have in years

It is not a race to get there first, but a purpose to live better and longer. Here we work to be Gods, not to boast by denigrating others. Take those who are advanced as a good example, no one wants to burden you with their progress, and you would also be pleased to note that those who are advanced have the ability to help you because they have a high spiritual level.

I know everyone is different, but it feels like I’m always the last, like I always have to work much harder than everyone else to achieve anything

Some time ago the girl I love felt attraction for a different guy. At first I was jealous. Then I thought it's okay to think about giving her the best things that I can give her. The focus is always on doing no more and no less than your best to do the right thing for you. Always competing is failing because the best of others is not your best. Maybe others do too much and do it badly, and you do yours and do what is good for you and do it in the best way and have the results you confirm you have.

It’s truly discouraging at times

If you look at what road others are taking, know that there is a potential boulder in front of you, and you will bump into it because you are thinking about watching what others are doing.

My desire to meditate diminishes more and more, and I feel an urge to disconnect from here.

You are making obvious progress from your story, quitting is stupid and bad against yourself. You don't deserve to throw it all away.

they don’t seem to compare to the experiences others have

The gods bestow experiences according to how well we are able to sustain them. That is, those that are good for us in the way that is good for us. A God can impart such a significant example to you and tell you such important things that it will change your life forever just by showing you that there are literally Deities who believe in you and invest in you. Even a small sign of this means exactly that.

They seem to have tea with the Gods every day, while I merely get a passing glance on the street.

This is not the way such things work. When I had the opportunity to perform séances with al Ouija board, it was not something that happened every day. Many months could go by. Anubis does not have coffee with me no matter how nice it would be to spend more time together, there are universal commitments that make individuals busy. If Anubis had time to have breakfast with me every morning, it would mean that he did not have an important role in the cosmos. But he does have the important role. It could also happen that although I had waited several months to divine with the ouija board with Anubis, He did not respond and I had to wait another 24 hours.

 

[Demonic Tech]

"The grass is always greener on the other side"

I'm not too different from you, I too have had experiences but I always feel like they're much less than others.
I cope with this through knowledge, the knowledge that it's all in my head and just one more obstacle to surpass.

As you sure know, some people maintained higher levels of spirituality in past lives, so in this life they start advantaged.
The fact you've joined us already, so soon, way before we were as notorious as now, means you too most likely are not starting from scratch in this life, but unavoidably there will be people that start more ahead than you, but remember this: the overwhelmingly majority of Humanity is starting way, WAY behind you, and me, etc.

The world is full of Andrapoda and you're not one of them.
You're an Initiate to the Gods, even if you struggle you're in for a way better advancement than most people on Earth, those who are without.

So yeah there are people who seem to have it easier, but remember that it could very well be that they already worked their asses off in previous lives.
Also, karma plays a huge part in all this, so there's that. You should look into it. Examine your natal chart, if you can, or seek help in doing it.